Hello...


I am writing this as I sit in a oncoming bout of the woe is me's. I feel like I am sitting in a perpetual fire ring. I f some one had told me this is how my life would be at this time...well......

I am depressed about the weight gain...depressed that I feel depressed and cant seem to get out...I feel like I am on the verge of something...and its not good...point at any place in my life and its going to have loser on it...I feel so fat and ugly and want to scream and rage...or just find a hole and burrow in it...or lay on the couch and sleep.

Its too much work to smile and get dressed and go out into the world...I have nothing in common with it...I cant remember the last time I could go shopping..or do things most people take for granted...and it keeps getting worse..and I dont know how to get out...yes I asked for help...not for someone to do it for me or solve the problem...just to point me in the direction to get out...so far nothing...I'm told you can get out of this or that if you really wanted to or get over it...HOW? just show me how...

well..thats enough of that eh...got to find the strength to get through work...its taxing as everyday is the same..a irritableness,underlying anger...I want to cry no...wail...ah well...

Hey MsR,

Boy, do I hear what you're saying...

It's always other people who have the great advice to "get outside ourselves" and just get out the door. I spent so many days lying around feeling like a waste of space!

Of course, if they were going through what we have experienced, they wouldn't be so darned full of good advice!

I hope your bout of "woe is me's" has lifted - do remember, you are SO not alone in this!

JJ

Ms Retta - welcome to PS

Your post reads like a flowing poem - thank you for sharing - it really helps me when people articulate their feelings so eloquently and openly

You are in prison and you have the key - I have been in that prison - it is a tough place to find yourself - but you do have the strength to get out - it takes time and it is about being easy on yourself - being your own best friend - being patient

You sound as if you have some real positives in your life - you are open and caring, you are holding down a job, you can articulate how you feel very clearly so we understand - you have a flare for making friends (even though we cant see you!!!) - you are an individual and proud of it (so what if you have nothing in common with the world?)

Dont think - do - and gradually it comes back - drip feed yourself - I was exactly where you are 4 months ago - and today I am shopping, cooking, gardening etc - blimey I barely got out of bed 4 months ago - let alone had a bath and got dressed

I set myself small goals - wrote down what I had achieved - it does come back - it really does

Believe - keep in touch

Much love

Mele

Hello Ms Retta

I am so glad you said those words, because I have been at a loss for about 2 weeks now. I am absolutely tired of being tired. My husband is and my kids are as well. I am not going through this naturally, I have a brilliant doctor who said this would help get this emdometriosis out of my body, now Im wondering if this is all worth it. I am on a hrt pill and anti depression which I was on before this. I get a shot every 4 months, I recieved my 2nd in march. I am tired and achy and depressed and I get headaches and night sweats, so of course I can't sleep
and then I get hot flashes to boot. this really s*cks.
If you hear of anything that might help let me know. At this point I'll try anything.

Ladies


Thank you....

Mele,Blueclear.joliejacq....


Your kind words mean SO much.

I think I will try to list 3 things...for now..that I want and go from there.
I am in a constant battle with this dragging fatigue.
I so wanted to delete that post and when I saw I goofed and it ws entered twice!...aarrgghh.

My children are grown...my (ex) husband is pemanently disabled and lives in assisted living situation, when he left the family so went people I had know for several years...the last 5-10 yrs has been spent trying to get balance....ah well....

again thanks so much for your encouraging words.....it means so much truly!