Hi All,

I am sure I am in Pri. I have been going through so many things since I was 34. I am now 42. Here is my story. I was planning my daughters 16th b-day party when I had this lump thing in my throut. (by the way I spell awful) I took some vicks to see if I could get rid of it. well in just minutes my heart started racing 155 beats a minute took myself to the doctors and they said oh it is anixiety. of course I was what is that. well I have not been the same since. I was haivng my periods on the 20th of every month just like clock work would start the 20 be done by the 23rd very diffrent for me. I always went 5 to 7 days. then all of the sudden I went to the 8th of every month my periods alittle longer. Blood clots to scare ya, brownish deep red. the last visit to the doctors he said hormones could be doing it.
Here is a list of syptoms i have gone through since I was 34,

racing fluttering heart
can't breath
heavey chest
palms the itch awful ( hubby says sign of getting money....LOL. Still waiting for that)
anxiety
panic
crying
not being able to sleep
HOT HOT HOT
CHILLS CHILLS CHILLS
changes in period
CRAMPS that hurt so bad and I get them at the top of my legs all the way up.
I am going to DIE from aheart attack. never do just can't seem to let that one go.
so many many more I just can't remember them all

this last period I had which started on the 7th was awful. I couldn't get out of bed, Headaches tired just could not get out of my own way, Usually I was tagged has bitchy at that time of month, Not this time. I also started feeling old yesterday. My son has a girlfriend for the first time and she is making me feel so old and that my son does not need me has much Did not have this problem with my daughter and her boyfriend and they will be together 2 years tomorrow.

Am I crazy? will this stop. I know I am so much better then when this started and I get so angry when the symptoms come back so bad I can not handel them, that scares me.

thanks for reading and letting me just vent.
DanaRae

DanaRae,

So sorry you are going through all this. Yes, it sounds like good old peri, and every one of your symptoms someone else has mentioned on these boards. You are not alone, and you are DEFINITELY not crazy - just perimenopausal!

JJ

And it does get better - just not as quickly as we would like it. And... if someone tells you that once you are post (no periods for 12 months), take that with a "grain of salt." I would venture to guess, with most of us the symptoms either continue or gradually begin subsiding and that, unfortunately, can take years. Personally, I am five years post - anxiety being the predominant symptom, aches/pains and scattered hot flashes. Obviously the mental symptoms for me were the worst and continue to be so. They say it will get better; it has but at my body's time table. U don's experience the 34 symptoms plus - just a "few" now.

I meant to say, "I don't experience the 34 symptoms..."

Thanks for the replys, I am still not back to my self and it has been better then a week since my period stopped. I pulled myself through 8 years of this and I am having a harder time now then I have in awhile. I am so tired and feel so alone. A friend of mines sister passed away at 51 the other day. was feeling alittle anxious got up to get a cup of tea and just dropped. makes you look at things diffrently.

Would make things easier if doctors would tell us that this is what we are doing so we can face it head on instead of thinking we are crazy, dying or have some crazy aliment.

thanks again

Dana Rae:

Hey there sister, welcome to Power-Surge. I'm going through the exact same stuff you are. It s*cks, doesn't it? I can sooooo relate the the 'afraid I'm having a heart attack' thing. I get tightness in my chest, and pain in my arms (the notorious left arm sometimes---even more scary.) I haven't had my period now in 3 months and I feel like I"m going to fly into a million pieces. This feeling is 24 hours a day, all the time. I've never felt this bad and yet I've never taken better care of myself than I do now. I'm exercising, eating right, doing the soy shake thing. I can only imagine how much worse I'd feel if I weren't doing all this stuff.

You're not crazy, but it does feel like it, doesn't it? Today I had to go to an all day training for my company and I was convinced everyone in the room hated me. I felt so different, so apart from everyone. And the worst part is, I know it's ME. I'm just not important enough for everyone to be focusing on me...the damn hormones not only make me moody, but paranoid and self centered.

Hang in there and keep posting...we'll get through this..one day at a time!!

Robin