That is what I have believed for the last I don't know how long...couple of years maybe.

How long does this nightmare last. I am still getting my period regularly but have ALL....ALLLLLLLL...of the symptoms described.

The wonderful hot flashes started about six months ago...on and off again. Creepy crawling skin...wanting to peel back several layers of skin to get to that itching that I just can't reach...every joint in my body including my mid back is killing me. Panic attacks...anxiety...weight gain...sore (very sore and swolle) breast. Fear of both dying and living. It's like I woke up one morning and realized I was OLD...OLD OLD OLD.

Dizzy, balance problems, can hardly remember my name. I wrote the year 1997 on a check the other day...teller looked at me like I was nuts . I was like "what, like you've never forgot the year before!"

So now I end up here, I don't even know how I got here. One minute I was googling Internal Shaking and the next minute I am reading about my life being written by complete strangers.

I'm much to young to be this damn old. I want my mommy!

Lawdy,

Welcome to Power Surge!!! You have a wonderful sense of humor and that helps tremendously to get through this crap.

There's lots and lots of info on this site.

Stick around with us, we'll all get thru this together!!!

lawdy, huney, there is no way of telling how long this will last for you girl...i wish i knew for myself to be honest...

Lawdy,

I know what you are thinking, and I have been(and am) there too!
Went through the depression, had the hot flashes, dried up internally, scratched myself raw,hurt all over, got fat, had more hot flashes and counted the days. I made it to seven months without a period, and now it has started all over again!
Periods are sporatic, but the cramps are horrendous. Hoping the hot flashes will last through the winter to keep the electric heating bills down!

Chin up! It will EVENTUALLY end, and we will be wiser for it!
(If we're not in prison for killing our boss..)
Take comfort in the knowledge that you are not alone, you are not going crazy and there is and end in sight...somewhere.........
(at least that's what the other girls here say, and my Mom-in-law says it wasn't THAT bad, and OTHER women make it...so, why can't we?)

Hi Lawdy, welcome to Power Surge. And don't feel alone my friend, I know exactly how you feel. AND wanting MOMMY is putting it nicely! Thankfully I still have my Mom and she is SUCH a consolation to me these days. This is a terrible phase of our lives and it just doesn't seem fair that we have to go through it. Stick around here - you'll meet some amazing women who are MORE than supportive. P/S has been my safe haven for YEARS now. Helps me remember I'm not going nuts.
Hugs to you,
Kleeo

Welcome Lawdy!
Do you know what you have written is exactly the way I feel too.
My symptoms are also the same as you describe and more besides.
I am just turned 40 and sometimes I feel like I am ready for the scrap heap.
Still everyone is so supportive here, which makes all the difference.
I don't know what I would have done if I hadn't found this site, so I am so glad I did.

Debbie

Isn't it amazing to hear that so many women suffer with this crap??? I still find that so unbelieveable. I am 38, going through all the same things and think to myself everytime i have a test of some sort or another...Please let them find something to explain all of this misery!! Then of course i want a pill to make it go away. I never new how powerful hormones are!! Geez, they have the power to bring you to your knees and kill the energy it takes just to get there!!

The only hormone I really ever thought of as being so powerful is testoterone and that in my mine is always related to the male sex drive....which from my experience is very powerful and nondiscriminating....my husband could be drop dead tired but still ready to go, he could be hot and sweaty and in desperate need of a shower and doesn't bother him, he is ready (who cares if it bothers me), he could be starving and dying of thirst and still ready to give it all up for sex! I on the other hand....if I am itred, the VERY last thing I want is sex. If I am hot and sweaty after working out the only thing i am thinking about is a shower, not someone hovering over my sweaty smelly body! and if I am hungry, Honey get out of my way and give me some food or I may have an episode! I am not picking on my husband, he is really great, this applies to any man I have ever been with.

Now I find out that female hormones are jsut as powerful, only it doesn't make me sex crazed and unbelievalby horny, it just makes me crazed, exhausted, achy tearful, miseable, etc....Somehow, that just does not seem fair. By the way, does anyone else feel like they are always achy, like the flu, or do I really have something this time? At this point, I have so many things wrong with me it is easier to list what i don't have!!

Hi Lawdy,
Welcome to PS! I keep thinking peri-meno will kill me.
Most days (everyday) I drag my butts out of bed like death warm over.
Then as I look in the mirror I'm amazed on just how good I look.

We have all heard about the night sweats and hot flashes> but I wasn't prepare for any of this other crap!
Yes I have the freakin brain fog! Takes me forever to balance the check book. The other day I called in a order for new checks, I had the poor girl on the other line so confused, my checks may get send to China!
It's like my brain and mouth are no longer functioning!

heavyheart, hmmmm what do I not have? Have to get back with you on that one!
achy yes
weepy yes
Tired>OMG don't won't to go there!
Hot Flashes- night sweats Check
sex drive> define sex? I have some memory of the word
Headaches> was never a headache person


There is a dream of a person full of energy and happy, enjoying the simple things in life. Could that had been me?

Now? Afraid to leave the house, may not find my way back home! I feel so strange I keep thinking other people will notice.

Hey I'm skipping the holidays.
Told my husband I wasn't cooking Thanksgiving dinner so he went and bought a turkey and since he has to work Thursday he cooking his dinner Wednesday, I sure don't feel like it!
I did do my Christmas shopping>> hallelujah!
But no tree or lights or dancing reindeers will grace my house this year!

Hey Bro..aka heavy...huney its not just the " female hormones" we have 45-50 different hormones throughout our body...MaryO did post the list of them about a week ago in another forum..I'll see if I can locate it...

Here it is again...

Our bodies need all the following to function properly, all in the right amounts, at the right times. It's amazing that anything works LOL

Thyroid-stimulating hormone (TSH)
Follicle-stimulating hormone (FSH)
Luteinizing hormone (LH)
Prolactin (PRL)
Growth hormone (GH)
Adrenocorticotropic hormone (ACTH)
Antidiuretic hormone (ADH)(vasopressin)
Oxytocin
Thyrotropin-releasing hormone (TRH)
Gonadotropin-releasing hormone (GnRH)
Growth hormone-releasing hormone (GHRH)
Corticotropin-releasing hormone (CRH)
Somatostatin
Dopamine
Melatonin
Thyroxine (T4)
Calcitonin
Parathyroid hormone (PTH)
Glucocorticoids (e.g., cortisol)
Mineralocorticoids (e.g., aldosterone)
Androgens (e.g., testosterone)
Adrenaline (epinephrine)
Noradrenaline (norepinephrine)
Estrogens (e.g., estradiol)
Progesterone
Human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG)
Androgens (e.g., testosterone)
Insulin
Glucagon
Somatostatin
Amylin
Erythropoietin (EPO)
Calcitriol
Calciferol (vitamin D3)
Atrial-natriuretic peptide (ANP)
Gastrin
Secretin
Cholecystokinin (CCK)
Somatostatin
Neuropeptide Y
Ghrelin
PYY3-36
Insulin-like growth factor-1 (IGF-1)
Angiotensinogen
Thrombopoietin
Leptin
Retinol Binding Protein 4
Adiponectin

Unbelievable! It's a wonder any of us can function at all! (And it's no wonder the docs can't figure it all out!)

hehe , thank you again MaryO...

for some reason the theme song for Mighty Mouse cartoon started to play when I saw you post that again!! Here she comes to save the day....Thats it!! Mighty Mouse..MaryO.."MMouse" for short... ehh ehh? that ok with you MaryO?

To come to think of it, i much rather like MightyM....

I have had all of your symptoms and also still have my period. I have been taking Phyto-Estrogen from GNC and it has helped all the symptoms except the daily bouts of anxiety. No more shakes, sweats ect.. I take is daily morning and night. Thats one think I have found out that you have to stick with these supplements for them to work. I felt a difference in around 2 weeks. Don't forget to exercise, it has really helped me.

Hang in there!!

Angel 1

Oh wow! i can relate to much to what you are going thru Lawdy! At least with all us together here to reply we can support one another, i like that. Hang in there! I wish i could say from my own experience it will be ok but i am having these same symptoms you are. Things will get better. Cynthia

That List!! Good lord!

What can I do about this fatigue.............I can't even function. I need somthing to get me functioning half way normal!

I know it is bad when I can't even shop! That is a real sign, I LOVE to shop! I can use to wear all of my frineds out doing that. Well, thank goodness I did not go, there was some kid shooting people at the mall I go to in Tacoma, Washington. Anyone hear about that?

Yes HH I did hear about the shooting. Terrible! Those poor people. Im glad you didnt feel like shopping that day.

Peace
AA

heavyheart

I know exactly what you are talking about with the whole fatigue thing. THIS has been my worse symptom. I have been dealing with it for a year now with no relief. Sleep or rest does not help. If I wake up tired then I don't have a chance. I will be like that all day. Shopping...what is that? I use to love to shop too. The only good thing out of this is that we had no credit card bills because I haven't been shopping. I will do all my shopping online this year. I just don't have the energy and it wears me out very quickly once I get into a store.

I have even had to cut my hours at work in order just to keep my job. It has been a tough and challenging year for me. My doctor tried some different things but nothing helped. I wish I had an answer for you. I just don't make plans anymore because I never know how I will feel and if I have to rest then I do. That is the only way I can function. I guess it will just take time..I have no other answers.

I heard about the shooting also. I guess you just never know what people are going to do..glad you weren't there that day. Take care

Kim

HH, so glad you were not shopping at that mall!

Seahorse, I do my shopping online too...Clothes, groceries, birthday and Christmas gifts. It's so convenient. I too used to love shopping, but now you couldn't pay me enough to go to a store! You wrote, "I just don't make plans anymore because I never know how I will feel and if I have to rest then I do." I too am afraid to plan anything, with friends or family or hubby, or even myself! I just don't know if I'll feel up to it. And I'm sure people are tired of hearing me say, "Well, I hope I can make it, but I'm not sure."

That is absolutely mind numbing!!! No wonder we don't feel good!

Geez, I can't believe other people have the same type of fatigue i have. That is exatly how I feel, I am afraid to make plans becasue I just don't know how I am going to feel. Sometimes i wake up in the morning and I know already the day is shot, other times I will wake up and get myeslf going, just crach a few hours later. I seriously thought for a while i must have cancer or somethign there is no way an otherwise helathy person could feel this way.

My god, this can't be normal, I cannot go for the next year feeling like this. Have those of you who had the problem (RS green and seahorse) tried progeterone or other hormones? Doesn't that help? I have all my eggs in that basket right now. People say to exercise and you will feel better, and I use to be an exerciser, but I can barely blow dry my hair let alone do anything else physical. It is so weird how one day i will feel ok, and the next I am done for the count. I just cannot accpet that this is normal and what I am stuck with.

Does anyone have any food allergies? When I was at my doctor the other day she said she could just look at me and tell I have a dairy allergy or reaction. I am not sure exactly what that means, but after reading what I would have to give up if I wanted to cut out dairy products, milk protien, etc, I just about fell over. That is jsut way too much work to worry about all of that. I don't mind cutting out junk food, sugar, processed food but that other stuff is way too extreme.

AND to top it all off, I am getting as fat as a house. I don't even want to go to the dr, becasue i am so humiliated everytime they weigh me. In fact I have an appointment with a dermatologist for mole patrol in a couple of weeks and I am totally stressed ab out it because I don't want to have to undress and have him see me naked. Especially my butt!! LOL, it is funny to say it, but honestly, I am serious and freaked out about it. Geez, the thought makes me cringe!!

Excuse the typos, but will someoone please tell me if I am missing spell check on this site or it is just not here??

Bro, huney there aint a spell check here...but dont worry, just about all of us make em and read others too...

I KNOW and UNDERSTAND exactly what you are going through believe me I do. I just got off the phone with my BF crying and saying alot of the same things you have posted above!

When I hung up , I had a thought, I wish some rich woman, or symapthic male..(maybe Bill Gates hehe) would build and set up like a little town or community were we gals and kids if needed,..could go live out these "BAD" years..the fatigue peri/meno years...and have like job shares...and help each other LIVE..know what I mean?

Having Dearest with Power Surge is a true Godsend..i just want MORE! ARGHHHHHHH, i have NEVER felt so needy in my whole frickin life, even after I first left the ex, and raising the 6 kids on my own. (14 yrs and under at the time)

Bro, this is normal Hun, for us anyways, and the other 19,000+ members on here, not a whole lot in comparison to the wholes population, to come and think about it, maybe that could be another reason why more research hasnt been done, NOT enough women are suffering to them? I dont know...just rambling here I guess,..I dont know much right now except I dont want you or any other woman to feel that they are have these "*ssin nine symptoms all by herself.

Hang in the hun, thats about all we can do right now..

HH

You and I feel the same way. I know when I get up in the morning if it will be a "good" day or "bad" day. If I wake up fatigued then that is it. I will feel that way all day long. I work half days now and come home and rest. I have to because I would collapse. Some days it doesn't start until later on in the morning but most of the time I wake up with it. It will be a year this week for me. I was hoping that a miracle would happen at the one year mark and it would just go away. My doctor did try me on estrogen patch and progesterone pills. I stayed on them for a month and felt no difference. I didn't want to take it in the first place but was so desperate I decided to give it a try. Now he has diagnosed me with CFS which I doubt I actually have.

It is a challenge and my life outside working and house work is basically non existant. I haven't made plans in months because I usually end up cancelling them and then I feel terrible. Like I need that stress too. My GP told me to try and exercise as much as I can. I was running about 10-12 miles a week before all this. I do what I can but have to force myself to do it. Somedays I don't think I am going to get through it, but somehow I do. I actually feel better when I do physical things rather than mental things.

I have found nothing to relieve the fatigue not even bedrest or naps help. It is just a constant presence in my life. I must say though that it doesn't seem to be as intense as in the beginning. Well, I mean it has been a year. I don't have any food alleriges that I know of. The only thing that does help me is if I try to keep busy. Just sitting or standing actually makes me more fatigued. I know that is strange but true. If you want to give the hormones a try..I would do it. If they had worked for me I would still be taking them. Trying to deal with this fatigue has been a nightmare for me. Take care and please let me know how you are doing.

Kim

HH, I have not yet tried bioidentical progesterone cream, but my meno specialist suggested that it would help me feel better. It's on my list of things to do, LOL!

I do exercise at least 3 times a week. I talked to a nutritionist, and one thing he said to me is to NEVER stop exercising, even if you don't feel like it. You can start with something simple, maybe walking for 10 minutes, and then work your time up. Doing moderate exercise, where you aren't huffing and puffing too much, is good for giving you energy. Weights are also important for preventing osteoperosis.

I would recommend reading the book "Hormones, Health and Happiness" by Dr. Steven Hotze. I am reading it, and it's full of good info on menopause, allergies, hypothyroidism, and other hormonal stuff that women might be dealing with at midlife. He was in a guest chat here at PS, so you can look up his transcript here if you're interested.

I know how you feel. We need to keep posting, reading, and encouraging each other here and we'll all make it through this together!

Thank you all!! I appreciate the feedback and support!

Hey y'all. Wow how wonderful it was to come back here and read all the responses and encouragement.

The fatigue everyone speaks of is so frustrating. Many times I will give into it and lay down just to end up staring at the ceiling. It's as if my body and mind are shot but they just won't shut down.

Hey, is anyone peeing alot too (no, I'm not pregnant)? I have to get up at least twice a night now to pee and generally the first time is just as I am finally driftig off to sleep.

Argh!

Yep...sure do....about twice a night. And about every 15 minutes during the day too!!!

Me too especially in the morning. I know every public toilet within a 100 mile radius!

Boy, can i relate to knowing where every public restroom is.

I am the same way, and I NEVER get through the night without having to get up and go to the bathroom at least twice. I have however trained myself NOT to look at the clocl in the middle of the night or i never get back to sleep. i stat obesessing about the time and if I fall asleep "right now" I will have X number of hours of sleep.

Never mind every toilet within a 100 meter radius. I used to know every good stand of trees and clump of bushes between Toronto and Niagara Falls and points Eastward and Westward. "Okay, Just two more curves in the road and we'll see a really dense stand of cedars". Oh Hurry hurry !!!

L

Check out the time: 11:11
Freak me out.

HH - I do that thing with the clock too

And linderful, don't trust those lovely dense clumps of trees...I was squatting down peacefully after finding a small clearing, obscured from everyone's view, when I happened to glance down. I was peeing on an ants nest! Boy, I have never moved so fast, it was a good thing I had finished what I was doing and lucky there was no one looking, because I shot out of there with my trousers round my knees jumping up and down, ants all over my boots

Better than ants in the pants I suppose

3P!!! LMAO!

Theres an ole expression here..."it's better to be p*ssed off than p*ssed on", but you dear girl, had managed to do both to them little critters!!!!

Peribelle;

Now just imagine if that ant's nest was a Clump of Poison Ivy.
OOOOUUUUHHH, itchy Monkey. Never happened to me, but I have heard of it.

Hope you got a chance to pull your trousers up before you got to the car.

Linderul

Hi I'm new to the site and looovvvee it!!! I really thought I was losing my mind. My family is ready to commit me to a home. I have gone from a very active working mother to a complete basket case convinced I have every terrible disease imaginable. This literally seems to have started overnight.

My symptoms have gone from severe nausea, strange twiching, muscle spasms shaking, that internal buzz I've read so much about, insomnia, nightsweats, up peeing all night, general anxiety etc. The most recent is a strange tingling/burning sensation in my mouth. It almost feels like my tongue is swollen but I don't think it is. Has anyone had this?? Fishlady

Hi Fishlady...Welcome aboard and Im glad you have found out you aint dying yet!!!!

Yes I have/had this irriatating symptom off and on for 3 years..and so have alot of other gals here too. You can read more up on it back out in the main menu of the Power Surge Forum board...scroll down to "Other Menopause Issues" click on that and read in the burnin tongue, burning mouth...topics there..

Hi fishlady,

WELCOME!!,

Your not alone....I googled "internal tremors" and it brought me to PS.Ive never left since

I too thought i had some deadly disease,glad you found power surge.


This site has it all ,expert information on all subjects and many caring helpful women to listen and give advice.

you will make many friendships here.you will soon be relieved to find out that your not dieing or going crazy

keep reading and familiarizing yourself with the site you'll receive a wealth of knowledge

Hugs,
Lynda

Wow, it is nice reading other people's comments because everyone else who doesn't or haven't had this problem think that you are truly insane! Yesterday, I stayed in bed all day and kept thinkiing that there was NO WAY I COULD GET UP AND GATHER MYSELF ENOUGH TO GO OUT AND GET MY 9 YEAR OLD AND MOTHER SOMETHING FOR VALENTINE'S DAY! I finally mustered enough strength and took my daughter to a movie. As soon as we got home I put my daughter to bed, and went myself!

I am single (divorced for 6 years), 45 years old, and have not dated since my divorce. I wonder if I'm going to be alone forever and realize that it would take true love to have someone live with me under these circumstances. To say the least, it is trying for my daughter who says to me time and time again, "MOM WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN!" I wish she understood, but how can she when nobody else does. Who knew that something like this could ruin your career and your dreams!

O/T

What does 11:11 mean?

I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have "cured" myself of some "terminal" illness, only to find another one lurking around the corner. My eyesight is bad and any spot on my skin will be my demise. I will fret for days until something more colorful begs my interest. I can indeed be a sad lot at times.

I think 11.11 was the time that linderful woke up every night. Could be wrong though

sybilleruth You speak for us all!

Oh! Spooky!

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Mama Jude, welcome you're amongst friends!

Welcome MamaJude,

You've written my story....almost word for word.

You've come to the right place.As you continue to search the site you will realize you are among friends here...all with the same stories.

I too goggled internal tremors/buzzing...and burning face...and it brought me here


I was shopping in Sam's club the other day and made out the check to Costcos...and they took it .I didn't realize until i went to balance out my check book ...Im sure ill be getting a call soon......From the funny farm

Take care,
Lynda

HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!! Yep,.. this sounds like something I would do!! Thanks for the laugh Che!!!

LOL AA,

Next time i go into Sam's club ill have to go incognito...

Hugs,
lynda