QUOTE (babs5gs @ Mar 21 2006, 12:03 PM)

I have always had problematic skin. I had cystic acne which I needed to take accutane for. I have been on every antibiodic known to mankind and used every cream associated with acne on the market. My life has been totally affected by acne. I have low self esteem and back away from people because of the scars left behind. So now I have just been told I have adult acne (rosacea) and have been put on tetracycline and metrogel to get it under control. Some quack dermatologist told me it was a contact allergy and until I found what it was, I would have a problem So he prescribed an ointment desonide 0.05% to use twice a day. It worked, but it also contains cortisone which is bad for your skin over time. I would stop it and it would come back with a vengeance. So I went for a second opinion, and that's when I discovered the rosacea problem. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but I've had enough already and I'm depressed at times. I'm 56 years olds and I thought by now, acne would be a thing of the past. I was even considering having some laser surgery or thermage treatment, but now, I can't do anything until I get this under control. It affects my working with people, my relationship with my husband and just about everything in my life. The funny thing is, that no one knows how much it bothers me because I don't talk about it and I try to hide the outbreaks at all costs. I spend so much time in the bathroom and checking myself in the mirror. I hate this so much, but I have no other course of action, but to bear it. I pray to God that if there is a life after death that I come back with the most beautiful skin imaginable. Thanks for listening.
I am 54 years old, and I have terrible cystic scars and ice pick scars from acne. So I know exactly how you feel. To this day, I am unable to look any person, including my husband in the eye when they speak to me. I was treated with every drug from tetracycline to accutane. Nothing helped, I still look like a monster. I also know that the scarring cannot be treated with plastic surgery, because of the severe damage to the skin. My face has little to no skin at all, just the limpy keloids and the deep pits from all the blackheads I used to pick at. It is really a form of disfigurement, which makes me feel like the elephant woman. I wear Judith August Cosmetics, which are like stage make up, or medical make up, to conceal my facial scars. It's kind of like spackling a wall with plaster, but at least I can go out in public without frightening or disgusting people!
I also have no further surgical or chemical or laser treatments in the future. My skin is far too damaged to respond. Having an ugly, damaged face certainly isn't the worst thing in the world, but it cost me my self esteem, confidence and a good part of my sanity. The up side of it is, since I am always looking down at the floor or ground, I find lots of coins, a few dollar bills, and once, I found a Tiffany watch in Grand Central Station. There's an up side to everything.