Hi Girls!I am very new to this sight and very young to be on it. (although thanks to Sturdy I now know that there are other women in their 30's going through this too!)I am desparately seeking someone who might be able to relate to this problem.  As you would guess from the title, I am extremely irritable. (and I don't just mean a little) The only way to express the magnitude is to say that if you are breathing you are bothering me and I just can't stand to be in my own body most of the time either! I hope I can explain this properly as I am on day 4 of very severe cycle related migraine for which I had demerol injections yesterday and the day before (I would today too if they'd let me) Anyhow, I don't think clearly in this state. So, name it and it probably bothers me enough to drive me out of the room. Finger/foot tapping, wiggling, shaking, noisy eaters, silent eaters (sometimes just seeing someone chew is enough!) Sitting the "wrong" way (whatever that means really) dishes clanking, rubbing hands through hair, I really mean it!!! You name it it drives me insane! It is so bad that for certain means (take tacos for example) my husband and I have to eat in different areas of the house because I can't stand to listen to him eat!! (and he's not a "noisy" eater) The other day we were at a birthday bar-b-que. Everyone must have really thought I was nuts (or extremely unfriendly) because I kept having to leave a given area because someone just kept arrived eating chips, or carrots. And that brings me to another thing which I do believe to be related....I can't even go to Blockbuster on a remotely busy night because I can't stand to be around all those people! Sometimes we'll go somewhere and I'll just say to my husband "give me the keys, I have to wait in the car"!! I just can't stand this anymore and I have no idea what to do about it! I have also started having panick attacks for no good reason (I"m an actress/public speaker, I'm not "afraid" of people if you know what I mean) And to top it all off I now have OCD tendancies! I think I'm going crazy and now I've strayed off topic and should probably be posting most of this somewhere else!!! AAARRGHHH! Can anybody out there relate?? I wake up every morning saying to noone in particular "please help me!)

Lili.<br> &nbsp; &nbsp;I can relate to the audio sensitivity you've articulated.<br>It feels like the least little thing jars your nervous <br>system. &nbsp;I also get this crawly feeling, where I'm <br>squirming in my own skin. &nbsp;All of this nastiness<br>intensifies premenstrually. &nbsp;<br> &nbsp; &nbsp;Luckily I don't get monstrous headaches. &nbsp;Hope<br>you feel better soon!<p><br> &nbsp; &nbsp;

Having to pick up after others sets off my irritability <br>big time. &nbsp;

Hi Chris!Thanks for your input! I have often tried to describe that "crawly" feeling to my husband. And although I have it much of the time, things increase premenstrually for me as well! Look out world!xos

Lilikoi,     Seems to me that you are going to do well here, you have a knack for describing symptoms & not losing your sense of humor ... Humor can get us through anything! Irritability... I have a masters degree in it , it doesn't follow any kind of pattern, and it seems to come out of nowhere :confused: .   I try to stay away from others when I feel this way(take a walk or a bath) sometimes it feels a bit unnerving:(  Irritability is definitely a meno-symptom ,so we are far from alone!!!  We will all get through this together ok?                  Sturdy

Thanks Sturdy!You have a knack for making me feel better about all of this. (if only for a moment ) Right now I feel like this is the only thing that is keeping sane (ok, I'm the first to admit that I am NOT sane) but you know what I mean. Oh! The other thing that is currently keeping me from losing it altogether is "Thomas the tank engine".  The first 50 times my 2 yr old watched it, I cursed the babysitter who dug it out! Now it can really be a saving grace! You know, I would use emoticons, but I have no idea how to!! You'd think I was 80 the way I have resisted learning how to really use this computer!!! lol

Lilikoi, when you have the posting form in front of you to type your reply, to the left of the white box it says, amongst other things 'Emoticons are enabled' Click on this, and a box will come up, showing you how to make the emoticons, just type what they say for each one (I had to ask too cos I couldn't work it out!) ;)Glad to heay you find 'Thomas The Tank Engine' helpful. I work in a creche, and we have that video on quite a lot, and I am rather tired of it! Not as bad as Barney the purple dinosaur though, kids we love it, staff hate it. Spot the Dog cartoon videos are lovely for 2 year olds, don't know if you have them in the States though.I shall go before I bore everyone silly by straying off topic and talking endlessly about kiddie videos!

Sorry Lilikoi, I looked at your profile and now see you are in Canada, not the States, I just assumed you to be. I have a friend in Cananda, Vancouver, though I have never been there, will one day though!

Hi Beth!I have to laugh about your second message (realizing that I am in Canada) I don't mind a bit, but thanks for the recognition. I live in Calgary, AB which is a one hour plane ride to Vancouver. (I also used to live in UK!) Perhaps we could find somewhere else to meet to discuss kiddie videos (we do have Spot and he loves them) and other general things?Let me know  :biggrin:tx

Hi Lilikoi :)The New Board About Nothing (near the bottom of the list) is good, we can discuss anything there.There are reams of postings about pets on there, we could easily discuss kiddie videos and related topics too! ;)The Current World Events (or something similar) board is fun to visit, I give the American/Canadians words to figure out, and sometimes they do the same to me. As you have lived in the Uk (where? I am in York) you may have a head start on the guesses. See you around on the boards!

Lilikoi,wow!! that is unbelievable!! my jaw dropped when i read your post!! thats me!! glad im not alone in feeling like running water is going to drive me nuts!! i have a very active 3 1/2 year old also to deal with. my husband says...oookay alot!!!! see ya on the boards!!

Hi Tracy!Wow :oFinally I know that I'm not actually crazy!! I would really love to talk more about this with you. Thank you Thank you Thank you for your post!xo

hi Lilikoi,i read through your post again looking to see if you were taking anything for symptoms. i learned about soy on this website ( specifically revival ). i have noticed that it does help me alot i bought a trial package and noticed a change in mood after the 3rd day then ran out and had to wait about 7 days before more arrived and noticed all the same familiar moods creeping back. you might give it a try..i like the bars..with a toddler, who has time for making shakes?? i read your husband was a physician on your post...what line of practice? what does he believe is going on? all the symptoms you have sure sound like peri to me..the only thing that concerns me is first, 30 is kinda young for the severity of your symptoms ( im 38 by the way ) my mother was post meno at 41. second..why would you still be lactating?? that would really lead me to believe something was out of balance. how long have you been having migraines? i have experienced ocular migraines since starting peri but no pain..thank goodness!! boy though, i can relate to " if your breathing your bothering me ". sometimes i think ..man ....im acting like a crazy woman!!! you know your being irrational...but you cant turn it off!! :angry:well ...be waiting to her back from ya....

(Edited by tmil at 3:58 pm on Sep. 2, 2002)

Hi thought I would say hellonew to site  and thought I would look at this site as at least 8 days before period starts  the anger inside me just builds up and feel like I could explode. No one is safe. When period starts all is well.  I am 41 and think I am starting perimenopause. So much for everyone telling me life begins at 40.  

Hi,

I am also new to the site and this is my first response.  It feels so good to read about something that you are experiencing.  This irritability thing is really driving me crazy and my poor loving husband has just about lost his patience with me.  Walking seems to help some.  I've been on Prempro for two years now, but lately my symptons have seemed to intensify.  Is anyone else experiencing this too?

hello...I like so many of you are having these horrible mood swings.  I am currently taking prempro, but it doesn't do anything for the the terrible  anger over nothing in particular.  I have been with my boyfriend for a lmost 2 years  and he has been great.  He is 15 yrs. younger than me...I am 47... so I know it is hard on him.  He has told me more than once that I really need to do something about it.  I am also taking effexor xr, but it is not working...I am seeing my doctor this friday and I am going to see if I can get something maybe a bit stronger...this past weekend was especially bad..my kids live with their dad about an hour and a half away and I have not heard from them in over a week...they are 2 wonderful boys ages 10 and 15, so my  week end was spent mostly in tears.....it seems almost silly to admit how I felt....I am just relieved to see how many of us there are out there and that I am not alone...we are all sister in that aspect.  Thanks for listening....I need it!!

Hi Hamiltonmy doctor says im not going through menopause so how could i get Prempro i no it sounds silly but is prempro HRT.  Hope you don't mind me asking how old you are.  I must admit to feeling angry most of the time my daughter keeps telling me to go on HRT.

Hi dlfergusonWhats Effexor xr have not heard of it in Britain

Hi Lili - I love you, man!  I'm new to the Power Surge boards, but have been having Peri symptoms for several years, just didn't realize what it was.  You sound an awful lot like me.  I really have to be in the right frame of mind to be around a crowd, and I'm seldom in the right frame of mind.  Noises really work my nerves, too.  

For so many years I've felt that it was just a personality disorder.  Imagine my relief to find out it just a 'beautiful, natural' process!  LOL.

Lilli-----oh my gosh, you described me to a tea.  I appreciated your sense of humor about it too. I'm sorry to report that I have lost my sense of humor because this is killing my relationships. If my husband breathes, talks to me, walks by me, is nice to me....well you get the picture. Much of the time I just want to be alone so that I don't get irritated. I have changed so dramatically that I don't even know me anymore.  I'm taking hormones because I will do anything to help this misery that I live with everyday. The hormones have alleviated some of my symptoms but not the irritability. You would think that you could just stop being irritable because you recongize that you are-----well you can't. Thank you for your post. I wonder if this ever goes away or if this is the new me. If it is I don't like the new me at all.

Idie ... You talk about how much you have changed and I have to say I totally relate to that statement. In fact my husband told me the other day that he didn't know me anymore - that I've changed so much over the last couple of months. I have been totally out of control but didn't realize it until about a week ago. Recognizing what is happening to me is probably the first step in doing something about it. Not that there is much to do when I'm a ranting lunatic. I have wanted us to change our whole lifestyle recently based on my fears about the future. I know that they are irrational but I can't seem to control to obsession. Think I need to take time out and reassess what is happening in my life.

Hi everyone,Have you tried black cohosh for mood swings? I swear it has helped me tremendously!! I wish someone had told me about it 2 years ago. You need to get a good brand. I get mine from a well known health and vitamin store. It takes about a month to really start kicking in , so be patient. I take 50 ml. morning and night. I started taking it for hot flashes, but it has helped calm my moods tremendously ! I later read that it can do that. Give it a try. Just be patient.

Suzie

Idie& lumiere,   There is more in fo on Black Cohash on the Power Surge Recommendations Page, if you get a chance, please check it out. There is a link on the menu at the top.                                    sturdy

all i can say is:OMG!!!!!theses posts sound like me  i am 41 and have had a hell of a yr and not getting any better..just want to be by myself so dam bad!!!!! .         my time to vent now:) today i was the bitch from hell   loli hate!!absolutely hate to clean house when anyone is here.. sure been wanting to run away and spend some time to myself in a hotel for a weekend but dam i wouldnt hear the end of it..  today.. i was trying to clean ..guess i got bored and tired of looking at the dirt what i hate is when i am trying to clean and then i have to re-direct my thoughts (if i even have any.) to something else like the kids or hubby i hate being interupted!!!! and have to stop what i am doing to do something else. like today... i was getting bowls out of the cabinet to make chezzecake well i got the bowls and then i found my self  fixing the cabinet cause no one knows how to put stuff away the right way,..tell me .. do u stack a big bowl on top of a smaller bowl>>>??and then i had to get a pie tin  and found myself re arranging that cabinet!!! in that time i could have made 3!!! cheezecakes!! i swear!! but they think i am nuts!!!and all the argueing..geezee!!!! cant even ask a question with out getting a snotty answer or a cocky commentand they wonder why i get crazy!! lolyes i know i am dealing w/ teanagers but dam what part of NO dont u understand?? really how hard is it..... oh i can go out and run them everywhere and any where but  if i ever want to go out by myslelf they have to know where i am going.i am tired of having to answer to them i am a grown woman and should be able to have my thoughts not the thoughts they want me to have. i feel i have lived my life for them these almost 18 yrs and now is my time to think for myself and of myself but do they understand??/NNNOOO.everyone has an opinion and i am supposed to accept theirs but  they cant accept mine.. boy life sure s*cks!!!!i just want MY life back to myself and for my self...my gyn   will have results of my thyroid test tomorow i am hoping .     if it aint that i dont know where she will go next. the anti depressants r not working and the other dr is too expensive so i am dropping all that.. meaning to get on the treadmill for exercise but havent done it yet..try again tomorow for a better day i guess..good day ladies and good luckkelly

(Edited by kellmom at 3:06 am on Feb. 17, 2003)

Thank goodness for this site and your posts!  I have been feeling so irritated and angry that it scares me.  It has me questioning whether I still love my husband of 18 yrs.   Why do I loathe the way he stirs his oatmeal each and EVERY mrng?  Why should I care that he scrapes the last milliliter of yogurt out of the container going round and round and round?  When did every sound he creates in my home become amplified to the degree of explosion?  Why does he have to cross and uncross his legs in the recliner watching t.v. every 10 min. -- can't he just SIT STILL!  Have I just tolerated these quirks of his before, but  now at 45 and after 2-1/2 yrs. of  menopause symptoms I find them unbearable?  He thinks he can do nothing right anymore --- perhaps he is right.  I'm not sure our marriage will last through this meno mania.  But am glad to know I am not the only person experiencing this level of irritation/anger -- cause we all can't be crazy!  Have a peaceful day  

Flasher,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;You certainly aren't the only one experiencing<br>rage and irritability. &nbsp;Sometimes I feel as if I<br>have adrenalin coursing constantly through my veins.<br>Years of these symptoms will try anyone. &nbsp;

It is unbelievable just how horrible meno makes some of us women feel.  I have been there, done that, and you know what ????  It gets better and then it comes back again.

Sometimes I get so upset with my husband because he is normal and I am not.  I feel cheated.......if you know what I mean.  Why do I have to feel this way and not him.  I try to keep busy and it does help.  I exercise a lot, go shopping, go out with my friends, etc. etc. but,sometimes I just want to jump out of my body.  So to say the least, I am forever grateful that I found this site.  I have been here for 2 years and I could not have made without all of the women here and dearest.

Thank God.

HugsBeryl

That made me laugh – the post about the husband stirring his cereal – I’ve found myself feeling the same way about mine.  I have actually put on earplugs to keep from hearing other people’s eating noises.  Not while being in the same room with that person because that would really be rude.  But I’ve done it while working on the computer to keep from hearing another person eat in another room!  I’ve worn them while washing dishes because I can’t stand to hear the sound of running water, or someone taking a bath.  I can’t even stand to hear wine being poured into a glass!  Things like this never bothered me before meno came along.  That little ding ding ding noise that goes off when ever I open the car door, God, that drives me nuts.  And there was something else equally as crazy that I was going to say, but I forgot what it was.    

WOW!  thank you all so much for being here, & posting.  lately i have been having the biggest time w/feeling irritated w/basically everyone, knowing that 'this never bothered me b4' ... ; & feeling that electrical/adrenal pulsing like i'm so familiar w/from anxiety malfunctions, yet this is somewhat different - & lingering ...  & the sensitivity to sound is REALLY starting to annoy me!  it just makes me feel kinda like i'm short-circuiting inside if i listen to too much chatter, or background noise, or TV, or .....  thank God i had my children young.    anyway - glad i found this place - thanx again for being here  ~sparx*

Hello All~~ I'm 49 and in full swing perimenopause..I can so relate to all of this..lately noises are really bothering me..yesterday I was getting out some pots and pans..and the clatter of those just about drove me nuts..felt like just tossing them out!!  These raging hormones can do a number on all of our emotions and make our anxietys almost unbearable at times. I do have good days but they are very few.  People are really irrating me too.. and they're only acting like they always do. It just seems that everything is so overwhelming. I used to be the most organized person..and now I seem to be walking in circles and getting nowhere!!  I agree with you sparx..I'm so glad I had my children young too.  I know it will all end in time..and having this place to come and talk to all the ladies with the same problems is just a blessing!!

Does this really ever end? &nbsp;I'm scared. &nbsp;I've been told<br>to stay off the internet by a therapist and my family.<br>A hypochondriac's dream??? &nbsp;

God, I'm glad I had children young. &nbsp;

Possibly, but also a wonderful boon to anyone who needs information and support.  For people who don't feel well enough to get out, or have agoraphobia , or other medical conditions, the Internet is a Godsend.

Case in point...a while back, before the Internet, I was very, very sick with a rare disease that no one knew about - and doctors said it was "too rare" for me to have.  I felt very awful, but I had to go out to the library and do research in books that I barely understood.  I finally got the diagnosis and cure a few years later.  I never met another person with my disease (outside of the hospital where I was treated) for another 13 years.  The Internet sure would have helped me a lot back then.

Many people are too shy, or too broke, or scared to go seek out therapy.  The Internet is wonderful for them, too.

Just look at all the posts here from women who thought that they were the only ones to have such and such a shyptom.  Finally, they know that they're not alone, and that, in itself, helps people to feel better. Women here learn about new solutions that others have had good luck with - and some to avoid.

I just don't think that anyone can make blanket statements that the Internet is all bad (or all good).  I think it serves a wonderful purpose.  

Perhaps the therapist is concerned that you're not needing his/her so much because of your online experience.  Maybe your family is concerned that you're taking time away from them (or they want to use the computer for themselves!).

Chris-  I understand about maybe needing to stay off the internet - at least for awhile.  I must confess that I have had symptoms that I never had until I read them on the internet!!  But I also know that I would be in a world of hurt had I not found this place.  So- I monitor myself.  I don't go to threads where I haven't experienced symptoms already ( I have enough symptoms, thank you),  and  I only go to a couple reputable medical websites to research various things.  Also, I know when I'm having a good day, or when I am a total out-of-control hypochondriac!   I stay away from the internet if I'm in one of those moods!

I gotta go now.......i think I have a fever- or maybe it's a hot flash...a flush??    MALERIA???   :-)  

&nbsp; &nbsp; Sometimes I wonder if the computer has become<br>a sad substitute for face to face relationships. &nbsp;Five<br>years ago, I hated computers because I thought <br>they were impersonal and cold. &nbsp;Nothing is ever<br>simply black or white, and I apologize for my<br>sweeping comment. &nbsp;I'm just sensitive<br>and terrible on edge.

&nbsp; &nbsp; ANXIETY BITES!!!

&nbsp; &nbsp;Actually, I avoided computers primarily because<br>they made me anxiety riden. &nbsp;I had math anxiety<br>as a child, so transferring that to a machine<br>seemed natural. &nbsp;Then I discovered the ability to<br>research, particularly psychiatric maladies.<br>I need to lighten the hell up instead of rehashing<br>endlessly. &nbsp;I've forgotten fun!!

Chris-  I think you need a good long vacation!!   You do need some fun in your life!  It sounds like you've gotten yourself stuck, and you need a big push out.

I think you need to spend some more time taking care of you.   I remember you saying you had the kids home for the summer (and as we know this can be as bad as it is good!)   I think you should pick something to do for just you today.  Let everyone else fend for themselves!

Go crazy!

leanne,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; You're right!! &nbsp;I'm considering going away alone,<br>because I can't tear my husband out of his<br>office. &nbsp;Something shifted in the hormonal department<br>and I've been dealing with panic again. &nbsp;I<br>appreciated your humor yesterday. &nbsp;Maleria, do<br>you think you picked it up in Cancun?? &nbsp;If it<br>wasn't for humor, I swear I would have checked<br>out long ago. &nbsp;Thanks for the support.

&nbsp; &nbsp;Well, &nbsp;I spent last night at a hotel in the next town,<br>with my husband. &nbsp;Since he had to be a work at 9:00<br>a.m, going for any longer was out of the question.<br>We relaxed and went out to dinner, &nbsp;without the<br>pressures of work and household duties.<br>We need a longer vacation together, but between<br>the pain in his shoulders and work, I don't know<br>when this will happen. &nbsp;I'm surprised the man<br>didn't kill me last week, considering the screeching<br>madwoman I was. &nbsp;Besides insomnia, I feel much<br>better. My son tries to get a reaction out of me.<br>Some of it's in fun, but my tolerance at times is nil.<p>Mary O,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; You made &nbsp;excellent points about the <br>benefits of the internet. &nbsp;I'm shy at first, so<br>I understand what you meant. &nbsp;I'm also in<br>New England and people can be reserved,<br>myself included. &nbsp;Sorry if I came across as <br>slamming the net. &nbsp;This website has been<br>wonderful. &nbsp;Boy, I'm glad that menstrual period<br>ended!!!

Chris-  Glad you're feeling better!!  I'm even more happy to hear you were able to get away, at least for a night.

Boy, between your screeching madwoman syndrom and hubby's pain- you two are some couple!!  lol  When they said "for better or worse" they weren't kidding, were they??  lol

Anyway....

I know I don't need to tell you- but lack of sleep can turn a little something into a really big thing.

Are you swinging this alone, or are you taking hormones??    If your taking hormones, maybe you need to do a little tweaking to give you more relief more often.  

I hope you get more nights like last night and continue to feel good!  And tell your son that you brought him in and you can take him out!  :-)

leanne,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; I was withdrawing from the estradiol patch when<br>my period hit. &nbsp;I put on a small dosage again.<br>My thyroid could be an issue again, as well.<br>I've tried countless remedies!! &nbsp; Getting rid of Aunt<br>Flo would help matters, I'd think.<p><br>Ladies,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; Any tips on anger management?? &nbsp; I <br>can have a nasty sarcastic mouth.<br>

hello...this is my first post.  thank god i found this site.  anger management?  i am in middle management in a human services agency, mostly women.  i get attitude from my bosses and from my supervisees and they really dont know how close i am to exploding and cursing them all out.  it takes all i can do to hold it in.   i really dont like many people any more.  i am having two periods a month and terrible premenopausal anxiety and depression before the onset.  the anxiety is constant and i really want to run away from home.  icannot handle even small amounts of stress anymore and am attempting to divest myself of all unnecessary responsibility.......my children are all over 18 but growing up slowly...they want to be independent on my money........i am so tired of being the responsible one.....my husband just gives me distance...i dont expect him to understand......but i feel so alone.....this board helps...i need to know that i am not crazy and that my symptoms are normal...please tell me so.....please.

Oh, Vmm918, I cannot imagine how you possibly cope in your position.

I came to work for a social services agency several years ago (mostly women employees as well) at the start of my perimenopausal difficulties. I came to this public agency looking for a small, non-professional position, and the joke was very much on me. I have never experienced a more stressful, fractious, deeply unhappy environment.

There is one person in my office, however, that I pity far more than myself. That is my "supervisor," a wonderful woman a year older than I am. The door to her office is closed approximately 25% of the time. Those are the times when people are going beyond their usual, more narrow complaints about our workplace and their co-workers. Those are the times when it gets really down and dirty.

How does she manage? How do you?

I am sorry I have nothing more helpful to say at this point.

Vmm918,<br> &nbsp; &nbsp; I share the feelings of inability to handle stress,<br>and after reading about your job difficulties, I<br>realize the grass isn't greener on the career side<br>of the fence. Take some time for yourself, to do <br>something soothing, that you enjoy. &nbsp;This long<br>hormonal journey has certainly stirred up the<br>depths of my anger, anxiety and anquish. &nbsp;I<br>don't think you're crazy. &nbsp;The truly crazy don't<br>usually question their sanity. &nbsp;This can be a<br>ROUGH RIDE, however!! &nbsp;Is finding another<br>position a possiblility? &nbsp;Good Luck!!<p>

Chris- That was pointed out to me years ago......only sane people question their sanity.  Crazy people don't know they're crazy!  :-)

My boys put a punching bag in the garage about 2 years ago.  They put it there to "build muscle"....yeah, right......they got bored with it 2 days later.........anyway.........it has been a GREAT stress reliever!!  I wish I had something lighter, like those blow up clowns you can hit and then they pop right back up, but it sure works!  It releases stress, burns enegery,  it plum tires me out- anger/rage/stress all leave because I'm too exhausted to hang on to it.

For me the best way to relieve stress,anger is to do something physical.

Just an idea.......

I just typed a post raging at my daughter. She's a tempermental artistic witch. Rough day. I want to fall into the obliterating opiate of sleep. This gets old. As Liilian Carter said, &quot;Sometimes I look at my children and say, Lilllian, you should have stayed a virgin.&quot; My old man could give a damn, accolades, he made another buck. His passion, since the abject poverty of his youth, due to a Bipolar 1 father, incapable of consistantly supporting the family. Period time, analysis paralysis, accompanied by the inability to process. What's this hidden issue crap, these new age experts spout? This cycle I'm pissed. Everyone seems out to make a buck!!

Ya know, I was having a relatively mellow day, until I was trapped with my deadline driven daughter, on the way to the art supply store. She was sweet as pie, as long as I gave her free reign to my credit card. $90.00 on colored pencils, yet she treats me like garbage on the way home. KIDS!!!!

Please help!-I have anxiety and depression since starting menopause 3 years ago but have it some what under control without meds of any kind-Anxiety s*cks for sure but now it is worse since my dr admitted me to hospital for uncontolled asthma and put me on prednisone.What a creepy scary drug! I was bouncing off the walls and didn't fall asleep all night! I walked the halls of the hospital all night and when drs started coming around in am I said I want out! I'd rather feel pschyotic in the comfort of my own home! I left and tried to walk home which was very dumb since i live 8 miles away and on top of that I couldn't breathe and was crying feeling extreme rage which made the breathing even worse! I felt like a bag lady- dragging my overnight bag and purse etc... crying like a crazy person feeling quite scared as well since at this point I felt as if I might passout! I broke down after about a mile and a half and -found a cab-Why I didn't do that first is the result of that drug-it made me feel so pissed off that I spent a whole night in the hospital- robbed of my sleep and my asthma was not even improved.I even felt suicidal as I was walking.Any way they say I have to continue to take this in order not to end up back in hospital but I am terrified of how it makes me feel! Anyone out there had experiences with this yucky drug? thanks! kava

forgot to mention that I am now on night 2 since hospital nightmare and still have not slept-this is freaking me out! kava