Anyway, for the past 2 days, I've been weepy, sad, and feeling very sorry for myself. Yeah, okay, I turned 50 yesterday, and that might be part of it. But everything is making me cry -- my beloved niece forgot my birthday, and I havent been able to stop crying. (she threw her mother-in-law a surprise 50th party, complete with a very expensive gold bracelet - and I don't even get a phone call!!) (I raised this girl, and she is now 32, like a little sister and best friend.) Then, today, my ex-boss, whom I love dearly, stopped by my desk to wish me a belated Happy Birthday, and instead of being happy, I got very sad and teary-eyed that he forgot yesterday! And I read an article in the paper on my lunch hour about a teenager who accidentally died while helping people, and I had to go to the bathroom to hide because I was crying so hard.
I guess this is a mood swing, not depression. I know depression first hand - and this is NOT depression. But I can't stand the weepy, miserable crying jags. It feels like PMS, but no period this month yet.
Any ideas on what to do to pull myself out of this self-pity and extreme sensitivity?