Dearest Dearest
Dearest Dearest
LOVELIEST OF TREES (1896)By A.E. Housman
Loveliest of trees, the cherry now Is hung with bloom along the bough, And stands about the woodland ride, Wearing white for Eastertide. Now, of my threescore years and ten, Twenty will not come again, And take from seventy springs a score, It only leaves me fifty more.
And since to look at things in bloom Fifty springs are little room, About the woodlands I will go To see the cherry hung with snow.
Dearest
Razors pain you rivers are damp acid stains you and drugs cause cramp guns aren't lawful nooses give gas smells awful you might as well live
OH! THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!
You'll be on your way up!You'll be seeing great sights!You'll join the high flierswho soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best.Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
~~~ Dr Seuss AKA Theodor Seuss Geisel
"Goblins Roam Tonight!"
Weird and fiery pumpkin facesAppear in strange and eerie placesAnd every house turns on porch lightFor goblins roam the streets tonight.
Monsters, Pirates, stark white bonesOf Skeletons, tonight will roamEach with a sack clutched tight in handTo scare me with a fierce command.
The doorbell rings, I feel a chillThe knees they shake, and won't be stillI open door to take a peekAs each one threatens "Trick or Treat".
Each Halloween that I recallI've made a hundred popcorn ballsThen rushed through dinner, stuck with gooTo pass out treats and hear "Thank you".
It's late and dark, they disappearNot to return until next yearBack to their homes from whence they've comeTo gorge and count the bubble gum.
Transformed, they all get into bedTo place on pillows, sleepy headsAnd in each Monster's fearful placeThere sleeps a smiling Angel face.
Mildred R. Taylor, Copyright
e. e. cummings
i thank You God most for this amazingday: for the leaping greenly spirits of treesand a blue true dream of sky: and for everythingwhich is natural which is infinite which is yes
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rainSlapping on the ground?Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.
Do you run through each dayOn the fly?When you ask How are you?Do you hear the reply?
When the day is doneDo you lie in your bedWith the next hundred choresRunning through your head?
You'd better slow downDon't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.
Ever told your child,We'll do it tomorrow?And in your haste,Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,Let a good friendship dieCause you never had timeTo call and say, "Hi"
You'd better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhereYou miss half the fun of getting there.When you worry and hurry through your day,It is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.
Life is not a race.Do take it slowerHear the musicBefore the song is over.
--TomO
Below is a wonderful poem. Audrey Hepburn wrote it when she was asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.
Do not stand at our grave's and weep.> We are not there, We do not sleep.> We are a thousand winds that blow,> We are the diamond glints on snow.> We are the sunlight on ripened grain,> We are the gentle autumn's rain.> When you awaken in the morning's hush,> We are the swift uplifting rush> of quiet birds in circled flight.> We are the stars that shine at night.> Do not stand at our grave's and cry,> We are not there, We did not die.
MY SON
cuddly and softwarm and sweetlove at first sightthe moment we meet
tousled dark headcute dimpled smileindigo eyesthat capture, beguile
Wiggling, gigglingrunning at playangel when sleepingdevil by day
growing so biggoing to schoolhanging out with the guystrying to act cool
becoming a mantaking a wifebut he'll be my little boyall of his life
by carol sands
By the way, my niece is a Gemini..Jun 17...what's yours? I'm Cancer....Jul 17...
"CHILDREN"And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said,Speak to us of Children.And he said:Your children are not your children.They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.They come through you but not from you. And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.You may give them your love but not your thoughts.For they have their own thoughts.You may house their bodies but not their souls,For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.The Archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,And He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.Let your bending in the Archer's hand be for gladness;For even as He loves the arrow that flies,so He loves also the bow that is stable.
From " The Prophet" By Kahlil Gibran (1183 -1931)
Thanks for your kind words...lovely poem too Premie....I never had daughters, but lots of nieces, but I wouldn't trade my boys for anything. They are such good kids and have always been very loving to me. I am close to them both...my youngest til last year would pratically sit on top of me and he is now 15. My oldest started having panic attacks this past summer and as I suffer from them too, it has made us even closer. It breaks my heart that he is going through that now, but he was very close to my mom, he was just graduated college in December and he is getting married. Too many important things all at once...mental illness is so strong on my mothers side of the family. It's just so hard for a man though as they are suppose to be strong.
Well I'm rambling...I wish you all meno free days...hugs...
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Nobody else has ever touched my life the way you have.Even though our friendship exists through a complicated mesh of wires, It means the world to me. Hearing from you brightens up my day And your kindness never fails to bring a smile to my face. I love you for all that you are, And all that yet remains a mystery to meAlthough I "speak" through the computer, My words come from the heart.True friendship is hard to find But I believe that I've found it in you.
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Friends Without Faces
We sit and we type and we stare at our screens We all have to wonder, what this possibly means. We chat with each other, we share all our woes,Small groups we do form and gang up on our foes. We wait for somebody to type out our name, We want recognition and offer the same. We give kisses and hugs and sometimes we flirt, In rooms we chat deeply and reveal why we hurt. We form friendships but why is a thing we don't know, Though most of them flounder some flourish and grow. Why is it that on a screen, we can all be so bold, Telling our secrets that have never been told? Why is it we share those deep thoughts in our mind With those we can't see, as though we were blind? The answer is simple, it's as clear as a bell. We all have our problems and need someone to tell. We can't tell "real" people, but tell someone we must So we turn to the 'puter, and those we can trust, Even though it is crazy, the truth still remains, They are friends without faces and with odd little names.
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Online Friend
I have a little group of friends, As dear as they can be. I love them all, but sad to say, Most I'll never get to see. The only claim I have is that When I feel sad, alone or blue, I get on line, Play wav's and chat. And maybe find someone who feels it too. They give love And support, Opinions and such, Which I can take or ponder much, But...sometimes I round a bend And Lo!! I'll make a brand new friend. Feel bad, or sad? Just plain sick? Got an attitude or habit You want to kick? "Its ok", your friends will say, "We've all been there before, A time or two, just like you. We know the ups, the downs, The highs, the lows, The "I-could-kill-that-so-n-so's". The pain and strain, Of getting through The leave-takings without adieu. We've seen it all, the been-theres done-thats, We've worn all the different hats, That makes us each uniquely "us", And when we want to make a fuss, We come online and find The equalizers, The friends, who become our sympathizers, Who know, And feel, And wish, And pray, When you both know there is nothing more to say-- But an online friend Will say it anyway.
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Unseen Friend
Although you are a friend of mine and letters we exchange, I wouldn't know you on the street, and doesn't that seem strange. You hold a place within my life unusual and unique; We share ideals and special dreams, and still, we do not speak. I picture what I think you are, perhaps you picture me. An intriguing game for both of us for someone we can't see. So for this friendship we possess, we owe this mail a debt, Perhaps the charm lies in the fact that we have never met.
Thanks for posting one of my favorite poems! It so aptly illustrates how deceiving outward appearances can be. We so often think that everyone else seems to be so "together," when, in reality, "The mass of men lead lives of quietdesperation."
PROMISED BLOSSOMS
Weeping winds pelt sleet on naked dogwoods,wrapping icy fingers over branches.Buoyant once, limbs droop in resignation,eyes cast downward, dripping frozen teardrops.
Through her veins, the living sap lies dormant;burdened heart is locked, its laughter absent.Fear swells quickly from her core and trembles,trapped beneath unyielding crystal layers.
Strings of hope loop warmth along her pathways,slowly thaws the grip despair possesses.Sparrows' lyric sweetness melts the stratum,sows her boughs with seeds that promise blossom.
(copyright T. Freeman, 2/03)
RedFox
You came into this world in a moment of excruciating physical pain coupled with indescribable joy. I couldn't push you out, my entire body was numb, except for my heart, which I thought would explode with the beauty of you. I held my breath while I waited for your first cry, proof that you weren't a figment of my imagination.
They held you up for a moment as you wriggled with the shock of being pulled into a world so different from the warm, safe haven you were used to. You were wet with my blood, your hair slick with it, and you were the most gorgeous thing I had ever seen. Your first cries touched my soul, and tears filled my eyes so that I could barely see you.
As they took you away I felt the first pain of loss, you had been in my womb for 37 weeks, nurtured and nourished from within. I would never again feel your kicks and punches against my ribs as you practiced and strengthened your body inside of mine.
You were separate from me for the first time, vulnerable to the world and it's dangers, no longer blinded to the outside. I struggled to sit up and watch them clean the remnants of me from you,mourning and rejoicing simultaneously from the delivery table.
I could see you flailing in protest, I wonder if you knew these people were strangers? Were your cries prompted by the cold, or did you miss me with your newborn mind? Were you experiencing your first feelings of loneliness, or did you sense my own sadness? Did you miss me as I missed you?
Oh, how I loved you as they gave you to me to hold, wrapped up in a blanket, with your eyes swollen from the trauma of your birth. Precious was the first word that popped into my joy befuddled mind, followed by...mine.
My daughter. My blood. My heart. My soul.
I marveled over the ten little toes that would someday carry you away from me. I counted your fingers on the hand that I would hold in mine on your first day of school, the hands that would someday hold my grandchildren. Your mouth, so tiny and innocent, would nurse from my breast, from the rosebud lips you would utter your first words, your first no.
Your face, etched in perfection was solemn as you studied me studying you. I wonder if you felt my joy. We made a connection, my precious gift from God, when you were but minutes old, a bond that would outlast my life on this earth.
My influence on you would be profound, unlike any other in your life, my responsibility to you immense. I felt this much wanted burden as I watched you close your eyes, tired from the arduous journey from my womb. Little did you know that you were on the first road of many that you would travel in your lifetime.
I watched them take you to NECU to poke and prod, to your first physical pain. My heart squeezed in grief as they took you from my arms, the physical separation complete.
For the second time in as many minutes you were not within a casual pat on my extended belly, you were your own person.
I said a silent prayer for your safety, one of many to be uttered from my being on your behalf... and mine.
©Vicki Gladden October 23 1996
With a mixture of pride and sadness I'm watching my son warm up for his baseball game.
It's cooler now, the sun is down and the humidity is tamed somewhat by a cool breeze.
The only sounds are of the night, a distant train and the sounds of bats connecting with baseballs.
The crowd is silent. Perhaps my mood is one shared by the people around me.
Regardless of the reasons, the quiet is both comforting and isolating.
This column is intensely personal for one specific reason--I have no right to privacy or pride, for if I hide I help nobody.
I have always found myself able to express myself with words, regardless of topic. I believe I was given this gift to provide humor and provoke thought. Words allow me to be very honest and down to Earth and this is no different.
I have cancer.
Cervical cancer to be exact.
There is no evidence that it has spread; therefore I have no true reason to worry.
But I do.
I will have my (as my youngest son has named them) "Mommy parts" taken out on June 11, 2002.
Those parts will be cut apart to be examined by people trained to do so with no emotional fanfare.
I hope they will at least hum Stairway to Heaven as they dispose of my "Mommy parts" in whatever way they will. Led Zeppelin blasting it out of a boom box would be even better.
I mourn them already. I carried five children in this womb and it seems it deserves more of a send off.
The point of this column is to remind you all of the importance of annual pap smears. It's only been 5 years since my last one and it's too late.
While a hysterectomy is not the end of the world and will hopefully save my life, it's inexcusable that I could have prevented the need for one.
Don't wait until it's too late. Don't assume you are fine until you are not.
If you do you might find yourself sitting by a baseball field isolated by cancer and the fear that comes with the very word while asking yourself, "Is this the last baseball game I'll see?"
As I sit here, breathing in the sweet night air I feel an ache that I'm unable to describe.
Maybe it's gratitude. Or fear. Or a mixture of both.
I have been so blessed. Life has not been easy but it's been fruitful.
I don't want to leave this life with my babies not raised. I want to wear the flowers they give me in my hair.
I want to see them graduate.
I don't want to miss their nasty Cheerio burps their stinky shoes and the bickering that drives me crazy.
Because they are what I brought to this Earth. They are my best contribution. The best I'll ever accomplish or could ever wish to.
I want to argue with my husband and call him names when he sweats all over my pillows at night. I want to feel the unconditional love we have grown and nurtured in our fifteen years together.
I'm afraid.
While I know I'll be fine, my heart hurts.
Because I want to prevent this for other women, I'm willing to endure the glances from strangers--for them to know my secret.
I also want to add that what my son calls my "Mommy parts" are in fact just organs that allowed me the honor to conceive and carry my children.
My true "Mommy parts" are my heart, mind and soul.
And the above is what will follow through generations.
Get your pap smears. Get your mammograms.
Never forget.
And with each clean test may you have the privilege of a sweet summer breeze.
© Vicki Gladden 6/4/02