maureend , hi its me GG

I can feel your anxiety, I've been in that position of waiting for tests results, over a long weekend as well.Which turned out to be not life threatening.We are here for you and will hold your hand, lend a shoulder, what ever it takes.  You come here any time day or night.GG

I too have lived through an endless weekend waiting for test results, and I agree with all the other ladies about keeping busy.  Clean closets, weed the garden, sew a whole new wardrobe, wallpaper the basement, anything to keep your body busy and your mind occupied.   I've had several friends who have had D&C's because of heavy bleeding cysts, and none have them have ever had cancer.  When I was waiting for my test results, I did like Jeanne, and thought about what to do if the results were what I feared.  There's something about having a plan that made me feel like I could face the news if it was bad.  Thank God it wasn't necessary.

Whatever the outcome we're here for you.  Sounds like you have a peach of a doctor too if he spent so much time talking to you. Too bad he can't be the one to do the operation, but I'm sure he's available if you have any questions. I'll include you in my nightly prayers and hope to hear good news soon.

Maureen,I just want to pop in here and give you a ((((Hug))))

Please know you're in my thoughts....many here have been where you are!! Feel free to reach out and ask for support, ANYTIME, day or night!! You will find a lot of wonderfull supportive gals here, who are deeply concerned and caring!! (((The waiting can be so hard, I know)))

Many prayers are going out for you!!Be sure to let us know what the biopsy results will be, as you feel up to it!!We're all here for you!!

((((luv ya))))    Snowy

Wow, you ladies just overwhelm me!!! You don't even know me and you offer unconditional love and support.  I know we get back what we give so I know you all have love and positive vibes coming back to you.It is funny what you say about keeping busy!! I had my husband move the sofa and girls I am dusting the blinds and cleaning the windows!!Tomorrow I decided I am going to buy something new--I am not sure what but I will figure it out!I am what a therapist calls an anxious worrier and I admit to it 100%!I did have a light bulb moment today(to quote Oprah).I had a good friend who died of cancer six years ago. I went to many of her appointments,treatments, I saw her three days before she died. I grieved at the time but I know now that I bottled so much of that fear up inside. I wrote in my journal about it today and it helped. I know I need to release many of these fears.I think what I went through with her makes me fear my own situatuion more.I have also decided I should be the poster child for estrogen dominance!!Thank you is not enough ladies. I will take in all of your positive thoughts and prayers. One thing I have learned through perim is to ask for and graciously accept help from others.You are all in my thoughts and prayers as well!

You are in my prayers....but I just know you are going to be fine.

I'll be thinking of you and praying for you.  I, also, know how awful the waiting is-it really is the worst part. Dealing with known facts is better than fearing the unknown.  Stay strong, and focus on the most likely results, which are something non-deadly!! Linda F

Sorry about your friend maureen. Undoubtably that has been in the back of your mind from the first you heard about a possible problem. I know I would be doing the same thing. But as you know you are a whole different case and will be ok:) You have too many people pulling for you here to even dare have anything wrong! We are all waiting with you so don't forget that:):)They pulled me through mine and didn't care how many times I came here with a new fear.Everyone was here for me. You will be fine and have the cleanest house in town to boot :biggrin:BIG HUG, jeanne

Maureend,What a special person you must be to have traveled that journey with your friend! What a blessing you were to her! Sweetie, you're almost there.  It's Thursday afternoon!  I did want to tell you that if you run out of things to do, I probably could think of a few things to do around here. :biggrin:  Seriously, I'm thinking of you everyday --- knowing that  you are going to be ok. and that you'll get the reassurance you need, soon! Hugs to you and your family!

MaureenD,

Sweetie you are in my prayers also.  Of course you are worried, but as everyone says we are here for you and everything will be fine b/c you have us!!!!!!!

There are a lot of Ussss here and we do care unconditionally.  

Also all the time you spent w/your friend will not go unnoticed.  You will be helped because you were so kind to her.  YOu will see.

Huggss  :smile:  :o

Thank you again ladies. I had no internet access yesterday and I missed you all horribly!  Your support, comfort and caring mean so much to me.I envy people who can constantly focus on the positive and always know that everything will be alright.One of the many phases of this meno process is facing your fears, don't you thinkie  Unfortunately, the heightened anxiety we all have seems to make us fearful of so many things.It does make me really dig deep and think about the things that I have bottled up over these past years. Meno seems to open up the bottle--big time!Did any of you have a time where you really needed or wanted more solitude?  I seem to be in that phase now. Not necessarily from my family but I don't seem to have the need to socialize a lot these days. I almost hate the thought of being in a big crowd, even if I know most of the crowd. I was always the life of the party, although I have started to wonder if being like that is part of shutting out something else you are feeling?I guess that is a whole other message board.You are all in my prayers every day. I literally can feel your support through the airwaves--thank you, thank you.

Hi Maureen

Yes we all do want solitude and it is part of meno.  I have done a lot of reading from different areas about menopause when I started this horrible time in my life.  One thing that I have read is that menopause is exactly what it says, "A pause from men."  I lost my best friend b/c of this.  And it still hurts.  But I believe that she is the one being selfish.  I was her rock for so many years and bam  -- I don't want her to bother anymore.  She would get angry b/c I did not want to go with her anywhere or do whatever she wanted.  But, anyway, it is quite normal to want solitude.  

This too shall pass.  Huggssss :smile:

Yes indeed, i absolutely need solitude right now. I wasalso a party lover ,go getter, can't sit still person. Now I am just happy to be at home or wherever i feel happiest. Family and friends will just have to understand. :)hugs, jeannegood thoughts still go out to you

Maureend -- Yes, me too!  I sometimes try to force myself to make some plans with others but it usually doesn't work.  I LOVE my time alone!  Today I was feeling like I SHOULD see my Mom but I just couldn't bring myself to go over there.  I could feel in my body the exhaustion and tension that would occur if I had to make conversation.  I use to visit or call everyday -- now, it's a huge effort to do it all.  I love to see my friends and family for short little visits but after an hour or so, I'm ready to come home and be quiet! :confused:  I'm lucky to have a husband who understands and supports me.  I still am working on the "guilt" part though!  I know this is an ok place to be!

Hi ladies........well of course we all want solitude and quiet and at Thursday night's chat with Stephanie Marstons she assured us that it is reasonable, natural and certainly nothing to feel "guilty" about.  I too was the life of the party, loved to dance, performed in community theater and so forth but now my favorite thing to do is order a nice meal for pick-up and then watch a movie with hubby on a Saturday night. My kids and grandkids(11) visiting is also a favorite and with the exception of 2 very old and close friends who come to my home to visit me, thats it.  What a social life, heh?  Well it works for me and I have gotten over the "guilties" about it as well.  I love my home and enjoy being able to spend more time in it as I have always worked fulltime positions while raising my kids and didn't have much time to relax and enjoy being home until I retired in March of this year.  Also I feel calmer here at home than anywhere else so for this space of time in my life (for however long it lasts) this is where I will spend my time talking with you gals, raising my 12 year old daughter, readind, quilting and resting.   I agree with you gals that this is where we need to be at this time in our lives and if our family and friends do not understand its not our problem. Our responsibility is to care for ourselves the best way we know how so we can come out on the other side of this spiritual growth spurt whole, happy and well.  We can't possibly all be wrong can we????LOL

Irene,

Do you have 11 grandkids or do you have one that is 11 years old?  Confused.  Hope you don't think I am being noisy?  LOL   :confused:

I don't have any grandkids right now and envy those that do.  My oldest, a daughter, is trying to finish her school and then we will see about the marriage and kids, etc. etc.  LOL      :cool:

Huggsss

Aunt B...That would be 11 grandkids with the 12th one due Nov. 19th.   I'm very blessed and I also have alot of kids to produce the grandkids. LOL  I have seven children and five of them have kids so they add up quickly.  Be patient I'm sure your day will come too. My children were all educated and settled before they started their families thank goodness so your daughter is doing things the smart way.No I don't think your noisy .  Be well!!!!!!!

Irene,

Seven children and almost 12 grandkids!!!!!  That is terrific.  You are truly blessed.  What I would not give for all that.  Maybe one day.  LOL  But I only have 2 children sooooo, but whatever the good Lord has in store for us I am sure it will be good.

Oh, and do know my daughter is doing the right thing.  I just like kidding around.  It is so wonderful to have children, isn't it?  They tell me that grandchildren are even more of a pride.  I just can't imagine it.  

Thanks Irene.

Huugggssss  :smile:  :o

maureen, how did your biopsy turn out?

Wow, what  a day!  Great, great news!! My cervical biopsy showed no cancer or even dysplasia.It shows marked, chronic inflammation of the cervix.

The surgeon I saw feels my abnormal ultrasound is not a cause for concern but did do an endometrial biopsy just to cover the bases. He also did a Pap smear since it has been just a year since my last one.He expects these to be fine but feels to make sure we should do them.  I agreed.  If they are OK and my bleeding is normal this month we can wait and do another ultrasound in 2-3 weeks.  If there is still something there I will probably agree to a D&C and hysterosocpy.  My period did start yesterday so I am crossing my fingers for a normal period.We will keep an eye on the cervix. Meanwhile, no tampax(YUK!), sex(nothing new to my husband) and I have been reading about some other vitamins etc in Dr. Northrup's book that help heal the cervix.Much of what I read talks about the psychological aspects of this sort of thing. I know I have work to do in that area.  All of this conflict,worry,fear,anxiety that seems to come with this stage of life have got to shwo up somewhere. I intend to work on that.So, I know I am not out of the woods yet but I think the main storm has passed!! I almost laughed at myself in the waiting room--the things I was promising if the results were negative!! When I got to joining the Peace Corps I said OK, that is enough, Get it together girl!!I cannot tell all of you what your support has meant to me--I sware I felt your presence!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I can't promise you I won't be asking again but please call on me anytime for some extra prayers and support. You are all very special people.

Maureen - I am so relieved and pleased for you! Now treat yourself to something just for you!! I was praying for you and waiting to hear. Linda F

Maureen -Big sighs of relief here for your negative biopsy!  Everything else will diminish in its seriousness, believe me!

Meanwhile, let us know how your period is, and keep us posted on your feelings and emotions as well!

Hugs and Smiles,

i am so happy that your news was good maueend

Maureen !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YeeeHawww!!!  I knew that there just wouldn't be anything wrong with us all working together

Seriously , I'm so happy for you. The Peace Corps is a little drastic -heeheeBig hugs, jeanne

Good going, bet you're feeling great today!!!  :smile:

Great news Maureen....I am so pleased for you.  Now take sometime to relax and give thanks.   Congratulations :biggrin:

(((Maureen)))I'm so happy for you....congratulations and here a big ((hug)) for you!!Take care,Love,Snowy

Yah! maureend,I needed to hear your good news today!  I think you're pretty fantastic for enduring this long long ordeal!  hugs and love to you, hon!  E.