Thank you all so much for your kind support!
Lady-E--I walked for 30 mins than my bummed knee REALLY gave out

(---The walk helped!
I'm going to try to make this as short as possible---(tho-there's LOTS of details in between)
Other than Menopause anxiety (which I thought was the worse thing of my life) the anxiety I've been experiencing is caused from.....perhaps some of you can remember spring/summer of 2008 when I posted about my daughter being 2 mths away from getting married (250+ recpt) when she found out her husband to be was cheating on her and exactly 9 mths from that day he and the new woman had a baby...( we all know it was the best thing to happen now)
Well, Sept of 2008 my daughter befriended my girlfriends son.....by Nov/08 they decided to be exclusive (we all know it was too soon)......by spring, problems soon started (she demanded attention, he was at the pub too much for her liking)......they stayed a cpl (so she thought)
My daughter came to visit me here in the US for the mth of July/09....When he brought her to the airport to fly here, he told her "Oh, I'm gonna miss you, I'll be calling everyday etc)....yet, while she was here he did NOT call/text/pc her at all.................by my observation I could see she was becoming frantic with each day.........It was a horrible vacation/visit despite all our touring and outings!
So-she flies back to Canada and whilst in Toronto airport the brother of her Boyfriend was there flying back to Edmonton too. She asked the bro what was up with his bro (her BF) and he came straight out and said "hey, I like you too much not to tell you the truth...he cheated on you"
Her BF was to pick them up at Edmonton airport (in HER brand new vehicle) basically her BF has nothing but brags he hasn't any bills either.
When she arrived in Edmonton...he texted her with "I'm not driving back with you-your keys are in your vehicle" (chickensh*t) (Oh, if I only had patience and time to write it all---so much unbelievable things that happened in between)
Anyways, they got back to thier town, she went to where he was staying, and unbeknownst to me until today, they slept tog......................she got pregnant....miscarried a few weeks ago, she called me this afternoon and for 3 hours I listened to my 30 yr old , with a 7 yr University advanced Chemistry degree under her belt....cry like a 2 yr old baby for 3 hours.
She told me while she was pregnant, this guy was so sweet to her.............since she lost it he's the biggest RICHARD!! to the point he won't even talk to her at all anymore (he's 31)
She told me today she was too embarrassed, too ashamed, to tell me she was back with the SOB!!!!
This woman (my baby) and I use to be the best of friends until these 2 incidences happened to her................and now she tells me she didn't want to dissappoint me........
My heart is here broken for her...AGAIN I might add!
Honestly-I'm still in shock.....................not bec she was pregnant, not bec she lost a baby (5 wks) not bec of that S.O.B....I think bec I am not with her at this time (it just so happened my husband and I purchased flights 2 nights ago to go be with her for Christmas) but I want to be with her now! now! now!
I have a mixed bag of emotions going on here........................Menopause, the damned accident (so much pain from it) and a broken heart for my baby girl!
Please don't anyone tell me I could change my flight plans and go be with her sooner bec right now my mind is so messed up I can't hardly think straight enough to add 1 + 1 (I leave Dec 10th)
Sorry if none of this made sense.............I'm just so worried about my daughter ESP since she told me she arrives home from school everyday and goes straight to her bedroom til it's time to get ready for school the next morning

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Depression runs rampant in my family (I have 9 sisters) 2 brothers, 1 committed suicide and the other was 99% with him.
I've posted a few times around here the past week or so.......asking for prayers for my daughter, Now you know why.
Her prayer/wish is for God to give her strength to not want this idiotic man.
To meet a man who wants a normal life like she wants....get married and have babies) (JUST NOT TODAY)

Thank you to all who read this...Dang-I needed to vent!