Yeah, I know, you must all think I whine a lot, and really I DON'T....i was NEVER like this in my entire life..i have never been so darn fearful about every little ache and pain in my body! geez........i feel like i've become some sort of hypochondriac or something, but the thing is, when I get all worried about something, I BELIEVE MYSELF! I TRY to talk myself out of it, but that's futile, because in reality, I BELIEVE MYSELF .... at that moment, when that fear is controlling the situation, you end up BELIEVING that something is really wrong............ok, so here it is........


I started my period on Thursday evening.......nothing abnormal. By Friday morning, it was pretty heavy, but i'm used to that by now. It's been HEAVY all day friday, and into today. Now.........first question: how many pads do you use? when it's HEAVY? I'm asking because, i want to sort of gauge what's "normal" for what we consider HEAVY... it just seems that THIS MONTH it's pretty HEAVY...probably a little more than before.

Secondly......... i feel so awful in my abdomen ... this is hard to explain. It's not a specific area really, it CAN be all around in the abdomen......but i'd have to say it focuses mainly on the left side, sort of...and into the center. It's not a stabbing/sharp/electric shock/ SUDDEN pain..........no, it's more of an overall "pain", in a way, it ALMOST feels like cramps, but not .... bec. it doesn't come and go the way cramps do........this is staying there. Like i said, it's not a DEFINATE PAIN, such as a stab, or sharp sudden pain, it could be mistaken for gas, I suppose, and MAYBE that's what it is.......I HOPE! I haven't eaten anyting today, bec. i feel so awful, .... i've had coffee, that's it. It COULD be intestinal, but it doesn't feel that way really. It does feel related to my period, if that helps. It's one of "those" kind of feelings, in there.
My uterus is unbelieveably heavy, but again, i've had that before. No, this is some kind of "pain" in there ............
it's not BAD, but very very annoying, and I've had to just lay down on the couch all day, curled up.
It's this VAGUE sort of awful, sick, "pain" in there, on the left side mainly. I just hope this is only due to peri insanity, and hormonal hell ..................... then my mind starts thinking uterine cancer, endo. .... and who knows what..I saw my GYN on Oct. 19th, and he said all was fine "in there" when he did the pelvic...ok, so am i to understand then, that if there was any endo., he would have felt it? or what? Can they FEEL it in there, if there would seem to be any "abnormalities"? what about uterine cancer? I am scheduled for an ultrasound on Nov. 7th........geez!!!! I can't take this fear anymore!!!!!!!

does anyone ever get anything like this? I wish I could have described this better, but it's to vague.

thanks guys!!!!!

You sound like I sound and feel so much of the time. I had weird feelings for a week in the pelvic area, went to THAT dark place. I had been doing better and then I found something that has me fighting myself from going down that scary thought process. I am on an AD and it's helping a little bit. However, I stopped all my plans for today because now I have to wait for this stupid thing to go away and not get worse. I will look at it a million times to see if it is lightening up and getting smaller, until I see that (which I hope I do) I will worry. I have the exact same thing before and it went away and I think that is the only thing holding me together. This is all too much isn't it. Living in fear is such a terrible way to live because obviously we aren't really living are we. We are just white knuckling through our days. I am sure your pain is just period related. The easy thing to say is call the Dr. and go in or speak with them to get some ease of mind. Me personally, tend to not want to go to the Dr. cause if it ends up being nothing which most of the time it is. They sometimes order all these tests that keep you in anxiety mode longer than if you just waited it out. It really depends on the urgency of the issue. I have said on other posts I give things a 6 week window before I run to the Dr. So far that has been a good policy. I hope you feel better. Mich

hello Mydarling,
I have been reading Michuganna's posts about anxiety and I have to agree with her. I suffer from the same feelings as you and the anxiety over the any pain and aches and pimples is simply just too overwhelming. I am now on anti-anxiety meds (clonopin) and it is helping me to cope with it and has restored my sleep (for now) an some sanity. It sounds like you are doing the right things (checking with your doctor) but I have heard of stories of some women who would mention the terrible awful bleeding (wearing night pads and changing them every hour) and the pain that they had to go through and could not wait to be menopaused. Like you, I just start to over think what it is and go in negative thinking about it, it sounds like your hormones are really playing tricks on you. The health anxiety is really a powerful feeling and just immobilize all your thinking process, nothing anymore feels good or right and you go to bed and wake up with that awful thinking process that you cannot shake at all. It is so tiring and so overwhelming.
I am hoping that tomorrow will be a better day for all of us. I know I did not bring you any answer but just wanted to tell you that you are definitely not alone.
take care
MrsBuff