
Hi Full Moon,
I wanted to welcome you to PS, I hope you find this site to offer comfort and support!!
I do not have any advice to offer, this is all so new to me. I am at four months and this past year has been anything but regular. 36days, 41days, 59days and on and on. So, nothing I can offer at this point to help except, finding others who I felt comfortable enough to express my true feelings without being ashamed has done wonders for me! Talking with others here has been more help for me than anything else up to this point!! I thought I was really mental and losing my mind! I tend to feel more safe being quiet with my family and friends. The fear of others thinking I am insane or making this stuff up keeps me from opening up. None of my frioends are having problems like this, when I try to explain and they tell me something like "feeling sorry for yourself is not helping" makes me want to scream! They have no idea what is like to live in such fear where you want to climb inside a hole and never see the light of day again!! Right now I am not able to enjoy the things I love .. not able to change the way I feel, and unable to face the world!!
Keep reading and learning .. we are all here to help each other!!
Take care and I hope you find something that will help you feel better soon!!
Valerie