OK, I have done what I said I wouldn't do again - I have googled - and now my stomach is churning and I am full of anxiety and panic again.
My 12year old Son is having a Mag 3 Scan tomorrow to check his kidneys. I have known he was having this for the past few weeks and have tried to put it to the back of my mind - but now the day is near and I am truly frightened at what they may find? He has had ultra sounds over the last 9 months or so, after having back pain and urine infections.
I know they are being thorough and I also know this is a good thing - but my anxiety and panic has surfaced again and I can't get a grip. I am trying to act all normal infront of him and have reassured him that everything will be fine - but I wish my mind would reasuure me too.
He has had backache again today - which he hasn't had for a little while, so now I am thinking that they will find something. My mind is going round in circles. My eldest Son came in to me and asked me to stop reading all the stuff from google because he could tell it was worrying me.
I feel sick. Please keep my son in your prayers and thoughts, for good results during this scan tomorrow.
Many thanks to everyone
Jackie
