I did fine until I start a period this month that was late (was hoping it would not show up at all). I finally started and the anxiety began (no big deal at the time).
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
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QUOTE (stitchnanny @ Oct 17 2009, 05:24 PM) 
I did fine until I start a period this month that was late (was hoping it would not show up at all). I finally started and the anxiety began (no big deal at the time).
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Hey Jeaninne,
I feel for you, Honey, I really do. All I can say is you are no crazier than the rest of us peri/meno women. One minute we're ok and the next ... well, does the Tazmanian Devil sound familiar? I've been dealing with flashbacks again the past few days. One minute I have myself under control and feeling like "I can do this" and the next I'm convinced I can't. Can you say "XANAX"? Hang in there and God will provide. He has gotten you this far and he'll take you the rest of the way if you let him. I hope your son's surgery goes well.
xoxo
Jan
QUOTE (stitchnanny @ Oct 17 2009, 05:24 PM)
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
(((Hugs & Prayers)))
For what it's worth, I think you are feeling fairly normal for someone going through as much stress as you are at this time. Both your daughter & your son must be taking center stage in your emotons right now. I pray that God give you strength to not only get through this but to see His many blessings in the mix of them.
Blessings,
hi stitch
i think manic depressive's go thru long periods of highs, then low's.....not like happy one minute and furious/scared the next. I feel for you and all that is going on. My son is going to the AF in under 6 months due to the lack of any real jobs left around here, and he's still paying off his schooling! ouch!, also had a beautiful daughter, and he is totally worried he won't be able to provide for her.
I think we're all going thru alot of issues that we cannot control. I actually eat ravioli out of a can to provide my son with money, he works 5 days a week, yet, the pay is not cutting it!
take care of yourself......you're not going crazy, life just *****
big hugs to you
boo
i think manic depressive's go thru long periods of highs, then low's.....not like happy one minute and furious/scared the next. I feel for you and all that is going on. My son is going to the AF in under 6 months due to the lack of any real jobs left around here, and he's still paying off his schooling! ouch!, also had a beautiful daughter, and he is totally worried he won't be able to provide for her.
I think we're all going thru alot of issues that we cannot control. I actually eat ravioli out of a can to provide my son with money, he works 5 days a week, yet, the pay is not cutting it!
take care of yourself......you're not going crazy, life just *****
big hugs to you
boo
Thank you ladies!!!
I really needed to hear from you all and appreciate the blessings and hugs.
Hugs back at you,
Jeaninne
I really needed to hear from you all and appreciate the blessings and hugs.
Hugs back at you,
Jeaninne
((((((Jeanine))))))
You are not crazy my sweet......nor do you have Bipolar Disorder.......
I think any issues on top of hormone chaos, creates fright, dread, anxiety.......
lets face it, there are days where I feel so full from all this discomfort, that I will lose my mind.....
Who wants to take on anything else on top of that.......even if it is a positive outcome.....I find the relief of a positive outcome just as physiologically draining as a negative outcome.....
Sometimes everything is just TOO much......
"Anticipate the difficult by managing the easy"Taoist proverb
Take good care babe.......and BIGGEST hugs and prayers to you.......
Michah
You are not crazy my sweet......nor do you have Bipolar Disorder.......
I think any issues on top of hormone chaos, creates fright, dread, anxiety.......
lets face it, there are days where I feel so full from all this discomfort, that I will lose my mind.....
Who wants to take on anything else on top of that.......even if it is a positive outcome.....I find the relief of a positive outcome just as physiologically draining as a negative outcome.....
Sometimes everything is just TOO much......
"Anticipate the difficult by managing the easy"Taoist proverb
Take good care babe.......and BIGGEST hugs and prayers to you.......
Michah
QUOTE (stitchnanny @ Oct 17 2009, 05:24 PM)
I did fine until I start a period this month that was late (was hoping it would not show up at all). I finally started and the anxiety began (no big deal at the time).
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hello Stitchnanny,
I am really sorry to read about what you are going through. I hope your son surgery will be going and that next week will be bringing you relief. I can relate so much to waht you are writing. it seems that there is suddenly too much to handle and that you are just going to sink into all of this. trust me, you are not different than most of us going through this electric storms of hormonals furries. I wish I could tell you wonderful fairy tales that our prince charming will come and that we will be happy ever after and trust me, every morning I wake up but it is my dog that kissed me to wake me up so I can feed him! BTW, in French fairy tales, the last sentence is : and they had many many children! quite a difference from the English version! Anyway, I hope you are feeling better tonight. I know I do now since I started my klonopin but god knows how it is going tomorrow. I am also so concerned at times that this anxiety is taking the best of me. I am getting so forgetful! I forgot an appointment with one of my client and it has never happened to me. I stopped in middle of sentences wondering what I am talking about! I cry all the time and I feel that I ahve no control over my feelings. Total mess! Today was a little better as I took my dogs for more 2 long walks but hubby was getting frustrated with my compulsive research on the internet of breast issues. My head is always going from one problem until it is somehow solved, then I find another one.
every day is a new source of worries. So don't worry (well you will anyway), we are all part of this annoying boat and we just have to hope that we are not on the Titanic... I know I feel I have been changing cabin a few times now finding new problems in each of them. What gives...
Mrs Buff
take c
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hello Stitchnanny,
I am really sorry to read about what you are going through. I hope your son surgery will be going and that next week will be bringing you relief. I can relate so much to waht you are writing. it seems that there is suddenly too much to handle and that you are just going to sink into all of this. trust me, you are not different than most of us going through this electric storms of hormonals furries. I wish I could tell you wonderful fairy tales that our prince charming will come and that we will be happy ever after and trust me, every morning I wake up but it is my dog that kissed me to wake me up so I can feed him! BTW, in French fairy tales, the last sentence is : and they had many many children! quite a difference from the English version! Anyway, I hope you are feeling better tonight. I know I do now since I started my klonopin but god knows how it is going tomorrow. I am also so concerned at times that this anxiety is taking the best of me. I am getting so forgetful! I forgot an appointment with one of my client and it has never happened to me. I stopped in middle of sentences wondering what I am talking about! I cry all the time and I feel that I ahve no control over my feelings. Total mess! Today was a little better as I took my dogs for more 2 long walks but hubby was getting frustrated with my compulsive research on the internet of breast issues. My head is always going from one problem until it is somehow solved, then I find another one.
every day is a new source of worries. So don't worry (well you will anyway), we are all part of this annoying boat and we just have to hope that we are not on the Titanic... I know I feel I have been changing cabin a few times now finding new problems in each of them. What gives...
Mrs Buff
take c
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
QUOTE (stitchnanny @ Oct 17 2009, 02:24 PM)
I did fine until I start a period this month that was late (was hoping it would not show up at all). I finally started and the anxiety began (no big deal at the time).
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Hello Jeaninne - Were you the kind of mom who really got into her children's lives? Really loved them up close and personal? Maybe you are like me in that regard. As they grew up (and drew away) my head knew that this is the way things must be...but my heart fought it tooth and nail. I suppose that I could tell you to focus on the positive (your daughter has met someone she wants to spend the rest of her life with) - but the reality is that she is leaving for a state far away and if you like physical proximity to your kids (I sure do) - this is one heck of an anxiety producing state of affairs. A girlfriend of mine told me something that has stuck with me and may help you in those "out of body in space" moments....ps I get those too....anywho, she said that I am seeing the big picture TOO MUCH. I was confused but she told me that if you see little things at a time, they are more easily handled, and that you can address them without feeling overwhelmed. Sometimes this works for me - maybe not tonight, while my anxiety is exploding and I'm having palpitations, but your post really struck a chord with me and I wanted to reach out. I do know this for sure - people who are worried that they are going crazy are rarely "crazy" - it's that self awareness that is the index of sanity! LOL You are not alone.
QUOTE (stitchnanny @ Oct 17 2009, 05:24 PM)
I did fine until I start a period this month that was late (was hoping it would not show up at all). I finally started and the anxiety began (no big deal at the time).
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Now my daughter is leaving for Alaska on Monday. She is getting married, moving onto the AF base there in North Pole, starting college. My son is having surgery on Friday morning, this week. I had bad news from the neurologist last week about my physical stuff. UGH!!!!!
One minute I am ok and going along fine. Then I feel out in space and frightened. Then I tell myself, people go through stuff like this all the time, you will be fine, stop thinking about it. I cant!!!!!! I feel down and mean one minute, then up and ok for a minute.
What the heck is going on now? I hate this!
Am I feeling normal? Someone please tell me. I am afraid that I will become manic-depressive or go crazy or something equally as bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please pass on some reassurance and prayers. PLEASE!!!!!
Hugs to all,
Jeaninne
Jeaninne, I think you're quite normal. I've felt this way many times, but I'm sorry you're dealing with all this at once; seems like that's the way it goes, doesn't it? Everything hits at once.
Regarding your daughter marrying and moving, I know it's rough, as my own daughter lives out out of town, but you should be proud that she is independent and responsible. That is how you raised her to be, so it means you have done your job well. I will pray that all goes well for your son and that your own health issues can be resolved quickly.
Remember, you're in God's hands. I ask Him all the time for help with my anxiety. I'm sure He's probably tired of hearing from me. LOL
Thank you so much!!
You beautiful ladies have come through for me again.
I am so very proud of my girl. she is beautiful and intelligent. She is so excited about this "adventure" and I am happy for her.
I just cant help feeling the pain of my heart breaking into pieces. Alaska seems like a world away. I cant be there when she marries and I want to.
I alternate between crying and smiling. It is so much harder than I thought it would be.
I have put my daughter and my son into God's hands because I know that I cannot do this alone.
I ask Him for help with alot of stuff especially anxiety!
Hugs to all of you,
Jeaninne
You beautiful ladies have come through for me again.
I am so very proud of my girl. she is beautiful and intelligent. She is so excited about this "adventure" and I am happy for her.
I just cant help feeling the pain of my heart breaking into pieces. Alaska seems like a world away. I cant be there when she marries and I want to.
I alternate between crying and smiling. It is so much harder than I thought it would be.
I have put my daughter and my son into God's hands because I know that I cannot do this alone.
I ask Him for help with alot of stuff especially anxiety!
Hugs to all of you,
Jeaninne
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