Many times when I have been there lying in bed WIDE awake for no apparent reason my minds starts wandering

I will exercise, eat better, move around more at work...

then I get home from work fix supper, do some laundry and then sit down...then it's time for bed

I am such a slug.

i feel ya...i've turned into this person that sits on the couch thinking about all the things i wanna do but i never muster enough energy to do them.I realized how bad it is when i sat and ate a cookie while watching my pilates dvd instead of actually exercising...

thats hysterical !

i feel like the most unmotivated person in the world. I don't want to do ANYTHING and to be brutally honest. I pretty much don't. At least some of you get up, go to work, handle your day to day business and then come home and plop yourself down. I have some minor guilt about how I am but again to be brutally honest, I just don't care. My husband let's me be and will take care of stuff like dinner and dishes. I will say once or twice a week, I will run out and pick up dinner so he doesn't cook and maybe do the dishes. Whoopdee doo for me. I just can't believe how MUCH of a slug I have become. Maybe I have created a slug monster. I'm just not interested in anything that much. It seems anytime I get an inkling of rejoining the human race, something pops up for me to obsess on or worry about, which when I get like that means I freeze. I'm not one of those that pushes through (I used to be THAT woman) but I am not that woman anymore. I am just emotionally drained and unwilling. This has been going on for 2 months, with occasional moments of feeling like myself. I am on an AD and I think I may need to up the dosage which I was hoping not to have to do. I don't know how my husband puts up with me, really. I guess the only good thing is I am very quiet and don't yell at anyone (at least that's a plus, lol). Just throw food at me (when I even feel like eating) and give me a kiss every few hours and I am good. At least I am low maintenance

Thanks for being honest. Have you told your doc all this?

It use to be that I was not able to sit down during the day. Thought I had to be up doing something all the time! Not anymore! Don't know if it's from being sick and unable to and now it's just a habit, or what. And here's the real clincher...............I really don't care!!!!

Ahhhh go easy on yourself Fried!! Anyone working, fixing supper, doing housework is NOT a slug!

Hi Ladies:

I too am suffering from crashing apathy. And in the past it would have bothered me...

I just don't care that I don't care....

Oh, and my SD is high, but don't have the initiative to get with the H & do wild stuff. I feel the need, but my mind & body are not hooked up, just like this topic says....mind willing, body is out to lunch...LOL.... Of course H has health problems, so our sex life is not exactly boiling anyway.

I exercise, but it takes a really bit kick in the bottom to get going. Once I do it, I feel good -- at least it seems to be a cure for this. Yet I need to do it everyday & often don't. I was running about 4-6 miles on alt days until about this time last yr. About the time my menses became wacko that is when my motivation dropped.

On Friday, was not feeling my best & had party to go to. I really fought going, almost cancelled...then went anyway & had a very good time. It seems my old self is buried under hormonal angst...hate it! Maybe just need to go to lots of parties???

Today am weepy, a little tired & it's a beautiful day. I need to get my butt out & enjoy it...hope everyone else does same....WV

PS -- A nurse F at the party was discussing T supplementation for her H & how that really perked him up. His Dr did not hesitate to prescribe. Of course, there is no Men's Health Initiative Study that has explored if T is bad for men or not....so I guess Drs do not find it scary to give men hormones or tell them "Low T is a natural process..." I tell you, I certainly do not feel so natural sometimes...

thanks

I will at my next appt next month. It is two weeks before my supposed period, so I am getting the shivers and all the junk, nausea... well at least I did the dishes today and working up to taking a shower before hubby get's home so he doesn't see me in the same clothes looking as bummed out as I feel. It's all smoke and mirrors and trust me I don't do that all that well either. It's been a cruddy couple of weeks.

Take care fellow hermits
Mich

you could be me ,, I went through the exact same thing for about 6 - 8 months ,, I am better now .. not great .. I still have a big list of complaints .. but I have found some things i actually want to do. I think its because we cant do what we used to .. but dont know yet what it is we now want to do.. I have found a new hobby,, gave up some stressful obligations and am now becomming more content. Its ok,, take this time .. then it will hit you ,,and one day you'll say,, "hey ,, I want to do that ! "

Thats good to hear, I'm glad you are feeling better. I was doing fairly well so far as the health anxiety and anxiety in general, but, I still wasn't motivated beyond that. Now it feels like the anxiety is coming back and that darn black cloud. Well, I did take a shower and blow dry my hair and did the dishes, for me that feels like an accomplishment, how sad is that? I feel like I'm not a part of life in some way, it's hard to explain. Like I have stepped outside of it. I can put on a "face" somewhat at times, but, inside, so so so disconnected. Not a lot of joy coming through my being. I really can't stand this, it is a bit scary. I hope you are right and one day I will be excited about something. For a brief time 2 weeks ago I was so excited about offering my house for the family Xmas Eve party. Maybe if I don't get any worse, it will be a good thing for me to get out of myself. I loved decorating and having family/friends over to entertain. Maybe the season will bring out the joy in me. It was about that time last year when I had my last completely content and happy moment. I keep thinking 51 is going to be better for me. Cross your fingers I am right. Thanks Didgens, Take care, Mich

Know how you feel same here Everything is going change tomorrow until tomorrow comes still at lest the thoughts there!!

I am finding I can still do most things just to a lesser degree. The thing that bothers me is I don't WANT to! Once I am out and doing it I usually enjoy myself but getting the motivation to get up, dressed and going is the hard part! Weird thing is, I don't really care about much anymore. I watch one day merge into the next knowing I am going to look back in ten years going WTF!!! The emotional detachment that meno causes is very stressing. Makes you feel like you are in the fishbowl looking out at the world huh?

Exactly how i feel. It is the motivation to get up, showered and dressed that is really the thing. Sometimes if I am not getting out of my car, I will just keep on my pj bottoms and I'm usually wearing a T shirt of some sort and I brush my crazy hair and off I go to the drive thru. I don't really care. I just don't want to feel like this for too much longer (like I have a choice... do I have a choice?) That's the hard part to discern, am I just buying into this and not trying hard enough or am I truly this person for now? I'm debating whether to up the Lexapro to 30mg, my psyche Dr. suggested it several weeks ago but I wanted to give it the full 6 weeks to kick in. Well, it's been 7 weeks or a little more and I am starting the health obsess again which at the beginning I had some blessed relief from, no anxiety was heaven sent. I wasn't and still am not motivated but for a minute there I thought I was coming out of it. I just took Cipro for a suspected bladder infection, could that have made me feel a little anxious combined the Lexapro I wonder. Anyways, ladybugs it's sad and nice at the same time to know I have compadres in this nonsense we are going through. Take care, Mich

oh yes i got the
mind of an 18yr old
and the body of 80