Having a BAD few days. It's been awhile since I posted, but always here reading for the support it lends me. My anxiety is rolling on me like oceans waves. My heart is pounding feesl like it's going to beat out of my body. Can't quit crying. Grief and anger keep popping up.(whole other issue-mother stuff) I know it's good to process feelings, but jeez!I jacked up my knee saturday, LOTs of pain haven't slept in 2 nights, went to to doc today and I apparently have a "maltracking patella", got a cortizone injection..more pain.I can only take tylenol (allergies to NSAIDS) taking my xanax 2x day. I am upset, overwhelmed and on day 21 of my crazy cycle to top it off. I feel so alone. I know you ladies understand.
I can't take HRT ( past breast biopsy issues) and I have diagnosed hypoadrenia ( extreme adrenal fatigue). Have HBP (take med for) I just all gets to me sometimes. I am so jealous of women who just sail through meno. I try to do the best I can everday, think positive, count my blessings but I feel like having a pity party today. There is just that irrational fear, fear, fear over the things we all seems to fear ( all medical stuff). I guess i'm riding the hypochondria train today too.
Thanks for letting me vent. I am worn out by all this,

Hi Feelnhelpless, I will come to your pity party because I hear misery loves company . lol wow sounds like you are really having a crappy day . I'm sorry ,wish I could help but I am sending big hugs to you ((((((((((feelnhelpless))))))))) hoping you feel alittle bit better . Hang in there , Cathy

I will join the pity party too!
I have been feeling anxious, painful, and just dowright alone lately. My cycles keep changing and I am frustrated with it!
You and I are not alone.
Big hugs to you,
Jeaninne

Pity parties are a good thing. Sometimes we just need to hybernate and LET IT ALL OUT! You hang in there, and keep venting!!

As Dearest always says.. this too shall pass!! HANG ON!!!

It helps to let it all out. we have all been there many times over and totally understand. It is frustrating and scary and annoying to not feel like yourself and know you are trying so hard to make it better and it doesn't always work. If it wasn't for this site and all the wonderful women I have "met" here, I would have been in a loony bin by now.

You can come and yell, scream and complain anytime you need to.
feel better.

I was so much there today, feeling lonely, scared confused. Having no sleep the night before set it off. I had forgotten to take my meds for sleep. Found them on my dresser later on in the day. I urgently sent an PM to Tidalwaves this morning, and she replied. Which really helped, I didnt feel so lonely any more. Thankyou Tidalwaves. I called my Dr, the nurse said this can last for years, not what I wanted to hear.
Jpie

Thanks to all of you for the support. The knee is a bit better today thanks to the cortizone shot. The anxiety is still rolling but oh well. What can you do..oh yeah take a xanax! I don't like to take it but some days it's needed. Now if I could quit the constant worry/obsession over my blood pressure or even taking my BP I'd be happier. The constant anxiety drives me nuts.I can deal with some of the other symptoms ok it's this constant humm of nervous,worry,fear and anxiety that get to me. Thanks to all of you for being there.
Elizabeth

Thanks to all of you for the support. The knee is a bit better today thanks to the cortizone shot. The anxiety is still rolling but oh well. What can you do..oh yeah take a xanax! I don't like to take it but some days it's needed. Now if I could quit the constant worry/obsession over my blood pressure or even taking my BP I'd be happier. The constant anxiety drives me nuts.I can deal with some of the other symptoms ok it's this constant humm of nervous,worry,fear and anxiety that get to me. Thanks to all of you for being there.
Elizabeth