Dont even know where to start!, I have been sneekin a peak on this website when I am at my most wierdest...(thats what I call it), it seems to show me I am not crazy and other have the same thoughts as I do.
I guess I am peri..but not even sure anymore what the two are...peri, or menopausal? been 6 months no period.. have had my estrogen checked and it goes from non to the right amount...eeek.
I just feel so bad, and of course the anxiety is not helping. Some days good some way not good. Diazapam time. I dont take any hormone replacement but I am seriously thinking about it. I get these really bad, surgy vibrating feelings that I think trigger the anxiety. My GP great guy, but wants me on an antidepressent, which if I am not depressed hate to take that. But the diazapam is an needed, but lately more needed than not. Somebody tell me this will pass. I wish I could find a doctor that understands and knows that this is hormonal and wants to help.....but this is a dream I know.

Anyway, today is just a bad day...actually changes hourly sometimes. Just wanted to vent a little! I will take any ideas.

Thanks for listening...I guess I will be on this site more and more...

ToniJ

hey welcome to the funny farm, you,ve got alot of company, i too take the diazapam, and if it helped id take dog do-do in a pill- to get thru the day, im not like some of the women on here that says " oh no i dont want to take this or that" im like give me drugs, what-ever stops this insanity im for it..... good luck to you, and many normal days to you !!!!

Dear 'wierdheat'
Hello and welcome!
No you are not crazy although it certainly feels that way.
It is very hard to test exactly where you are on the Menopausal journey as Hormones do fluctuate.
I am on HRT and it works well for me.You could give it a try and see how you feel.Anxiety is one of the most annoying symptoms at this time and your GP probably suggested an AD as constant anxiety may lead to depression but ultimately the choice is yours.
Anyway,you will meet lots of interesting and well informed ladies on this Site.
So keep posting.
Warm Wishes
Elizabeth

Hi weird:

You are not alone. Welcome to the board and please come back often. It is the best therapy in the world.

Hugs to you,
Jeaninne

I have to second what Jeaninne said--this site is THE best therapy in the world as you're going through this. I have found that whenever anything is bothering me, if come here, I am comforted by the many ladies on this board as well as Dearest's articles. I'm happy for you that you've found power-surge.

Thanks so much, I ended up not taking a second a little happy pill!, it just kinda worked out ok. It is just so frustrating to have it come and go with such force! ugh...it will be nice to get over this (if it ever stabilizes). Anyway, this place is a God send, I will visit regularly.
Again, I guess, misery loves company hahahah

Thanks again
Toni (wierdheat)

Weirdheat, sounds like you found PS just in time. I found it after I just about went crazy but better late than never. I have been post at least 2 years (stopped counting). I too had lots of weird symptoms; some of them have been gone a long time, some have returned again lately and some never really went away. It's as if I passed through an open door, bringing with me all these strange symptoms and the door closed as soon as I got all the way through and I can never return. I am left on the other side with all this baggage.

I took ADs for 6 months just before finding PS. I don't know if I would have needed them if I had found this site earlier, but I do have to say they changed my life for the better at that time. I hope I will never need them again. Now I am considering looking into some BHRT, just not sure which doctor to go to. There is a doctor here in Phoenix that another PS sister recommended. I may make an appointment because I know my GP would never give me Ativan which is what I need right now from time to time as my latest symtom is nervousness. I love it when doctors know what we need better than we do; so arrogant. Anyway, my point is you are not alone and we are here to help each other, so please visit often.

Hi Toni,

This forum has helped so many times.....the women are wonderful. There is such a comfort in knowing your not alone and not going crazy! When I was in the midst of my panic attack phase I would literally run to my computer and read the post to remind myself that I'm not the only one and others are going through this also......again welcome to the forum.

Oars

gee, thanks so much...this place is great. And of course today, I feel a lot better...that is what is so wierd..one day symptoms the next non...ugh! Still not sure how long all this last..I havent got to the year yet, going every 6 months or so...and my GP is good, my OBGYN says I am all about done..yea right!!! Oh well...I am just enjoying the good days, and trying to enjoy and get through the other days...
ToniJ