Going through depression is one of the tiringest (is that a word) things I believe I go through. It has been so hard lately. I stay busy, as busy as I can, but then I've wore myself out that I almost feel exhausted. Then when I'm quiet and resting that deep sadness just starts crawling back in. Its so hard to deal with.
Lately I've felt the need to cry, but it just won't happen. It's like I almost get there and then its just gone. Nothing! I used to be able to cry with no problem...now I almost feel like I have to dig for it to happen and it doesn't. It's like being on the edge all the time.
It's wearing me out!!

Are you on any ADs? Because that will do that to you. You feel so numb with no feeling what so ever. I couldn't even cry at my own daughters wedding. Now that's bad. I know too well that feeling. It ***** the life outta you. Once you get that one tear drop it feels good then after a while the water works start. Embrace it cause it does feel good....

i too cant seem to cry at a drop of a hat any more either, which is ok most of the time, but i think crying washes the soul and is healing some times......

I feel just as you do...depression does make you so tired---I remember once my counselor

saying that just keeping up a somewhat normal routine is exhausting, because of all the effort that

goes into trying to appear "normal". I do take ADs---and I think that the dose needs to be adjusted because

I seem to remember that it shouldn't be like plowing uphill....

We are with you

Jan

Yes. I am on Wellbutrin. Had been doing Ok there for a while now it seems I'm dropping again. Right now I think I'm in the fake it till you make it mode. I think its just the time of year, but I'm not 'real' sure.
Today was a pretty rough day. I was back to work after having a week off. I couldn't concentrate, kept getting the blank stares at the computer screen. Would forget what I was doing and just stare. Once in a while I'd feel that deep in the stomach well up feeling but it would go away as quick as it came, which is good. I can't be having a breakdown at work.
I have this overwhelming sadness that just hits...and that is what makes me feel like I want to cry but can't.
I am so exhausted this evening...and yes, this *****!!!

Glad some of you understand what this feels like, but sad that you have to deal with it too!!

(and if that's not bad enough, I have vertigo and its acting up lately )