QUOTE (themainemom @ Sep 28 2009, 02:13 PM)

Oh Mich I am so sorry you are having it again! Mine was BAD this morning. I was pretty convinced I was going to have to go to the hospital and be admittted (I'm not joking!). Those thoughts are very scary. I think I know now what they mean by "racing thoughts". I finally just layed down on the couch and kept repeating over and over "just let the feelings be there" anytime I had a scary or stressful thought I would just let it float right out of my head. After about 20 minutes I had totally calmed down without even taking my xanax! Just goes to show you the power of the mind! I am not trying to make light of what we are going through. I was just pretty proud that the "cure" is not some "pill". The power lies inside of us somewhere! Xanax is a wonderful friend but I don't want it to take over my life. Believe me I am not cool as a cucumber right now, and I expect to have more bad "spells", but want to be able to use some of my own power and not be waiting for my next "fix". That is not a life. Don't get me wrong I plan on having a full supply of xanax in my cupboard and purse. I hope you can get on top of whatever your issue is today. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help!
Yes, sometimes I can talk myself down, at least I was able to the previous month. I am wondering if the Lexapro needs to be upped a bit. My issue that I was worrying about appears to be an overreaction on my part (I think) I did better today, only took .5 xanax today. I don't really think it works for me at that dose anymore when I am stressed only when I wake up early and can't back to sleep but am still a bit sleepy. Like you I don't want to rely on it and I think I need to back off, which I was, I wasn't taking my morning dose for a week or so. I don't get any kind of withdrawal symptoms when I don't take it, but, then again I take it every night for sure. Maybe the dose I take isn't high enough to cause a withdrawal reaction. I'm also feeling a little depressed too. I really didn't want to up the dose of Lexapro but may have to. I am so happy you were able to talk yourself down from your anxiety, when you can do that, it gives you another tool other than meds. The more tools in your "toolbox" the better. My anxiety seems to only be involved when I am worrying about my health which it seems I have been since last December. If there are no health worries I am overall ok. I hope yours doesn't get so bad you need to go to the hospital that is pretty severe anxiety. Have you spoken to your Dr. to tell him how close you are to going that route? Feel better and I am here for you as well. Mich