QUOTE (themainemom @ Sep 26 2009, 11:29 AM)

Anxiety is getting worse and worse. I've called my psych two days in a row and I'm not at all impressed with his responses. Basically he just tells me to up it one day and decrease it the next. He asks me if I am still taking the xanax (I'm now doing .5) and getting little to no relief, but he says nothing about that, except keep taking it. Other than that I feel I get no feedback or compassion from him. I have also been in touch with my pcp who is a wonderful woman and willing to spend lots of time on the phone with me (I know her somewhat personally because she works at the hospital where I do). She doesn't want to give me too much advice on dosing, since she know I am working with the psych and doesn't want to override what he is saying. At this point I feel he is pretty much a quack because I am not getting better, but worse!!! I even went so far as to call our local mental health clinic(a neighbor goes there for anxiety and really likes the counselor), I went in yesterday for an "intake" but did not have a real session. She sad it would take about a week to get someone. I have put myself into complete panic mode over thinking about going to work on monday. Then I pretty much convinced myself that I need to call HR about how I can utilize my sick time, fmla or whatever. That did calm me for awhile, so that does that tell you! Anxiety! Anyhow, that's more stoy for today! Yuck!
I'm so sorry this is starting up for you again. Psych Dr.s tend to just talk to you for 10 min. and give you your meds. Mine will speak with me and give me some feedback, he's okay and he listens, but, I'm not in there for more than 15 min. If you aren't feeling good on the Zoloft and feel like you have given it ample time then demand to try something different or ask how to wean off of it. I went through what you did and finally just decided to take a medical leave and went on disability, between body pains (from falling at work) and the mood swings, the thought of going into work made me ill. I will say taking time off from work is really helpful right now. I just couldn't be focused and my co workers deserve that from me and I deserve to be able to take care of myself without guilt. I'm doing okay, the Lexapro, is working decently I guess. I actually drove myself to Kaiser (on impulse) to get an urinalysis, you have no idea how terrifying it is for me to go to the Dr. it puts cold chills down my spine. They did the test, and, there is nothing major enough based on the urine test, though she did give me Cipro. I was in the office deep breathing, my blood pressure surprisingly was 120/84 which the 84 part is a little high for me, but, she said my heart was beating a little wildly. There were a few little abnormalities which of course I mildly am obsessing with. I hope the culture doesn't come back with anything serious..... My point being I guess the Lexapro has helped me, I'm not crying my eyes out worrying (as stupid as that sounds) plus I have extreme lower back pain where I couldn't walk.... My mind just takes off. I went and got a massage, came home and took 1mg of Xanax, screw it. I'm scared of hearing the stupid culture test. Frankly, like you I am sick of this symptom of the month club, it's exhausting (yet I don't sleep). Anyways, sorry this is about you not me, I do tend to go off on a tangent, sorry about that. Take a little more Xanax if you have too. Please don't suffer. I hope you get in to see the other doctor soon. Sometimes you have to kiss alot of "frog" Dr.s before you find the right one who becomes your "Dr. Prince".
(((Hugs)))
Mich
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