I,ve been going through this nitemare for 3 yrs now and it seems that,s all I think about and talk about trying to find ways to feel better thinking I,ll never be the same again ,thinking what happened to me and why can,t someone help me!!! This is all I,ve known for 3 yrs !!! How do I brake the habit of thinking about it and talking about when it,s there everyday the anxiety, not feeling like me, I try to be positive and think positive but this has been with me for so long I can,t seem to let go!!!!Sometimes I feel like I,m just going to go crazy if this doesn,t stop. I was never like this I just let things slide or if something was wrong I knew how to fix it and went on, but I have no control over this and that drives me nuts!!! I just want to be the person I was, happy go lucky, nothing bothered me, did what I wanted when I wanted now I feel like all this junk has taken over me and I don,t know how to beat it Is anyone goig through the same thing? The constant thinking about it?????? Thank you for your reply,s

It is very hard not think about all of the time because it effects your whole being. I have about 4 days a month where I'm almost myself and almost symptom free they come after my period. For about 6 days starting on the 17th day of my cycle its pure hell. I cant function. Anxiety and depression take over me and there just wasted days I barely get through them If werent for having a great husband that is there for me for whatever I need him to do and ativan I honestly dont think I get through those 6 days of the month. The rest of the month I have all of the symptoms but the anxiety and depression arent as bad. On those days I do the only thing that gets me out of dwelling on it for me thats interior house painting. I'm so at peace when I paint. The problem is I'm running out of rooms to paint.

Do you having any decent days at all? Do have a hobby that you enjoy.?
Lara

Hi Lil,
I feel the same way you do. It's been a year for me. One long year! So many happy things happened in my life in this past yr that I couln't be happy for. I've been in the er twice and hospilized for a week. No luck on any thing but anxiety. I'm not anxious about anything! It starts every morning T 6:00am and gets worse through out the day until evening. I'm relaxed at night until bed then all over again the next day. My therapist keeps trying to show me ways to think positive but this has taken over my body for too long I can't think about nothing but negative. I often think this will never be the same. I'm at a loss and feel hopeless. Like you I was happy go lucky fun person to be with. Now I'm a debbie downer. We need some major help sweetie. Keep me informed on how your doing.......

Are you peri or post? I,m post due to total hysterectomy my life hasn,t been the same since. This obsession with the anxiety drives me nuts because at times the physical symptoms are so severe and happen at the most simplest things I,m doing, I know anxiety causes the constant thinking about it but it,s tough when it,s always there to some degree. I sometimes do get moments or I should say times when I,m ok but the littlest thing can trigger it!! People say let it go get involved in something and I try to but it always finds a way to rear it,s ugly head.I know the mind has alot to do with it but when you,ve battled it for so long it,s almost like automatic like it says ok we,re going to do something let,s get anxious. I agree the moment I wake up it starts, somedays I can get a hold on it other days I can,t then I start crying because I hate all this ,I too try to stay positive getting alittle better with it but it,s like y our always waiting for it to pop up.I was never like this and just can,t accept it,If I,m alone that,s when I really start having the pitty party and everything gets going, I have to place my life in God,s hands and pray he leads me through this.

I may get a day where things aren,t bad, but the anxiety is there everyday to some degree, I do notice slight improvement and I try to hang onto that but if I get a bad day that,s my main focus. I love working outside but that too at times can trigger it it makes no sense to me!!!Before Meno I was a totally different person yes I would get anxious over things most people would be anxious about but NOTHING close to this.I never obsessed about anything!!!! This loss of Hormones is a nitemare!!!!!!!!!

Lil:

I could have written your post word for word. You have managed to write EXACTLY how I feel most of the time. I want me back.

Hugs to you,
Jeaninne

Been 6 yrs for me
I obsess over everything toooooooo!
Hard not do when you feel like c*ap!
Throw in strange symptoms etc!

Do you get the surges out of the blue you feel ok then bang like a flow through your body then your head feels strange anxiety up, slight trembling can last for minutes or hours?

I can go for a few days feeling better, never really great, but managable and others, well, let's say it starts when I step out of bed and wish I could go back and stay there. I find exercising helps alot. Not just a walk, a real cardio for at least a half hour. Also, on days when I am super busy I dont' have time to think and that's good too. Unfortunately I am not working much due to the economy and have too many days where I have idle time to worry and think about every ache and pain and wierd feeling and that just manifests into more worry. I feel like I am the only one i know having such a rough time, everyone else just goes about their business. I thank God for all of you so I can feel normal. Not that I wish this on anyone, but I am glad to know I am not alone.

Lil,
I've been post for 6yrs at the age of 39. Doctor seems to think it was due to my thyroid. Never had any symptoms back then. I think I'm paying for it now!!


Enough,
I feel like my friends don't have any idea how I feel either. And I sometimes think they don't understand and are tired of hearing about it. I hope I can be there for them and share my terrible state of mind if I'm strong enough...

lil and all here,

I have had this same peri nightmare for the past 5 years. I know exactly how you feel. It does consume you, I think about trying to get back to the old me all the time. I thought I was alone too until I found all the wonderful women here experiencing the same thing. I have had trouble finding emotional support during this process, so thank you to PS. Who ever thought that this natural process would be so horrible? Not me. Hormone replacement has not helped me much but am still trying to find a combination that might. The few things that do help are talking it about (or writing about it like on this board), a good cry to release the anxiety, getting totally immersed in an enjoyable hobby or some easy yoga ( I can't do much physical activity yet because of the constant weird spacy feeling in my head ), and surrounding yourself with people you like and make you feel secure. Don't give up hope !

Spacecadet

my panic is out of control this morning ...i cant stop shaking and crying...im scared im going to fall down dead...help me please

Aaaah Angeleyes,

Just read your post,I,ve had many times like these,have had to ring my mum,as I,ve gotten so scared,and I,m 43!!

How are you feeling now?

Just so awful isn,t it.

Warmest wishes to you

KathS

The key for me is to distract myself with other things though it is really hard to ignore when it is a physical symptom like heavy bleeding. A shocker for me recently was looking at a list from my insurance website of all my doctor visits in the past year or so. I realized that there is indeed a strong hypochondriac element to many of my symptoms at least for me. All of the things bothering me that led to a doctor visit went away on their own (palpitations, anxiety, etc) . I had the mental agony described by angel eyes when all of this started ten years ago but except for obsessive thinking it is barely there now so these these things do pass with time. You won't fall down dead but you will make yourself miserable. I really think some women are just more fragile and sensitive than others so certain symptoms bother them more.

OMG -- all you have to do is search for my posts on PS and you'll see that I'm the QUEEN of dwelling on symptoms. My mom -- who didn't go through this nightmare so doesn't get it -- thinks PS is what is causing it. I've told her that PS actually makes me feel better because I know there are other women out there who are suffering just like me. So no, you are not alone. Not by a long shot.

Hey my mon thinks the same as yours. She thinks I should throw my lap top away! She never went through any thing like us.
hugs

Listening to all the PS sisters really helps! Thanks! Everyone tells me to quick thinking and obsessing about the way I feel. I just can't seem to do it. It's hard when I NEVER feel right! I dread the days because I feel like crud all day and I dread the nights because I can't get more than 4 - 5 hours of broken sleep. It's a cycle that never changes or improves. Everything changed last December. Bam! I have been through every test only to be told there is nothing wrong. If there is nothing wrong then why do I not feel good? I have been given countless AD's, Benzo's, sleep meds , natural remedies and I either can't handle the side effects (SSRI's) or they do nothing for me. I feel like I have been in a constant state of drug withdrawal for the last 9 months even though I haven't taken any drug for a long period of time. I just want "me" back and I'm really scared that I will never find her again. I am in a constant state of anxiety, cry at the drop of a hat, have acne worst than when I was a teen, am dizzy, and just don't feel "real" if that makes sense. I have gotten to the point where I have told my husband that he needs to focus on his health and happiness so he can carry on. I'm just not sure I can pull through this

I talked to my sister in law about this .. she said what has really helped her is helping others. She and my brother have started an organization called "Promise Child" ,, they travel all over the world and raise money for education of children in war and poverty stricken lands. They just came back from a trip to Uganda and the Sudan. They fund a girls school in Nepal. I know this is extreme .. but maybe by stopping looking inward and reaching out to help others we can get outside our misery. I know that I am deeply involved in my sons music program at school am on the board now and chaperone every trip, do the band website and volunteer alot.. its hard some days .. but when I see a kids who needs my help .. all the anxiety goes away.. good luck