I seem to be having real trouble remembering. Maybe its just because my days are routine and all seem to run together in their same-ness of a rigid and unchanging routine of animal care and feeding and being at home. Or maybe it's my meds - although its only a low dose of amitrip. But tonite if I try to remember this morning, it;s a struggle. Eventually I remember the day's events, patchily. I remember yesterday better, maybe cos I went to town and did a few different things. When I do recall things from this morning, it seems like it was longer ago than that. I have an anxiety disorder which is very bad at the moment, and stay home mostly because of agaraphobia, maybe the whole thing is a bit too much and brain is giving up!?
I am 20 months post and have had a very bad stressful 6 months, with health problems, a D&C, stomach endoscopy, my mother very sick, and a car accident. I suppose I am very fatigued. Doc has put me on Amitriptyline 30mg and I have started on 10mg for a week and just upped to 20mg today. And I take 1mg Ativan a few times a week. Now on top of everything else I am scared that I have left my depression and severe anxiety untreated for too long and now it's too late!

hi chico i have the same problem i keep a diary then i know what i have done even have to write down what time i have taken my tablets or i would forget i to find it hard to go out one of the ladies on here surgested takeing baby steps so thats what iv done first i just went in my garden then walked down the street and yesrterday managed to walk to the park you have had a lot to deal with lately so just do what you can hope your soon feeling better take care denise

Memory loss is very common in meno, also I too am taking amitryp and it too could cause slight confusion but it will pass, if not it,s the MENO, another great symptom to add to the list!!!!!

Thanks for that. Yes I guess it's "normal" for meno, whatever normal is these days. Lil, I think it was the amitryp that day I posted, I had tried a morning dose and it made me feel weird and slightly confused in the day time, and that was when I had trouble in the afternoon, recalling the evets of the morning! Yesterday I didn't take any in the morning but succumbed to ativan in the afternoon. Maybe I should take my amitryp doses at night. Maybe tonite I'll take 20mg instead of 10 and up the dose that way. What dose are you on lil? Did your doc prescribe it for anxiety or depression or both?
Madhouse, I hope you are getting better, I am trying with the agarophobia but it is so mixed up with other anxieties. Like I can leave the house, but can't get into a car or travel anywhere, so it's all a bit of a mess. Sometimes I wonder how all this is going to end up.

chico,

Anxiety and depression cause memory problems.

I know from first-hand experience and doctors have told me that, as well.

Hang in there.

Sukie

yes, the mind goes into overload, then you can't put one and one together........equals memory loss, i have it bad, sometimes, it's a good thing, most times, it's not

My mind just goes completely blank sometimes and it feels scary,it's like i forget who i am,where i am or what i'm doing,sometimes in mid-sentence during a conversation.

I don't want to lose my good memories!!

How about when you are in a pretty familiar place and for a second it seems somewhat unfamilar, has anyone experienced that? (Please say yes, or I will really think I'm going mad!)

Jones,

Yes, yes and yes sweets.......you are not alone with that one.......VERY twilight zone......LSD anyone?

Michah

Me too. But, I was on Wellbutrin at the time, lol. Sometimes I just feel disconnected from my surroundings. I will wander around my house and look at how comforting and beautiful it is inside and I don't connect it to myself, like this is my safe haven. Could be my childhood stuff, foster homes etc. Who knows. It's weird though. Mich

Chico,

My thoughts are with you on this one babe........I can barely remember what I did 5 minutes ago.......my poor brain........I also have lapses in time where I look at the clock and go "Is that the time?"......time distortion.....

A little while ago, I lived in 2010 for 2 weeks.......my family told me later that they kept reminding me, after I lost the plot one day because my son became very annoyed that I kept "living" in 2010, not remembering that they had reminded me it was 2009 over and over again. I burst in to tears accused my family of playing a trick on me........well....

I know it sounds strange, but I try and take a photo of important moments in time in my mind, sort of like visual recognition. So instead of trying to remember what was said or a long string of words, I remember pictures and then I think of it and slowly the memory comes back........doesn't work all the time but it feels less frightening than trying to remember a whole string of events. Writing down decisions I have made helps, otherwise my son tries to pull one over on me......."You never said that mum, you said this......!". Yeah, not that stupid honey!

So, scary scary!

Babe, why do you think it is too late to get help for your depression and anxiety? Meds didn't work for me, so I have a good psychologist for talk therapy once a month. Also, my psychiatrist said that oestrogen effects neuro-transmitters in the brain........during peri there is much going on......see if you can find someone good to talk to just to relieve stress and have some good old logic thrown in to this crazy equation.......you have also had a lot of stress which will impact significantly.

Take good care babe......

Big hugs,

Michah

That is the worst feeling I'm in mid sentence and totaly go blank and it feels like my head is floating behind body. Its so embarassing.

I forgot what day my own birthday was on....i kept saying it was the 28th but it's really the 27th....the person that asked me when it was laughed at me and i asked her why she was laughing and she said because i had to stop and think for a bit before i answered.....i didn't tell her later on when i realized it's the 27th,she had already laughed at me once,didn't wanna get laughed at agin....

meant to say i didn't wanna get laughed at "again".....i swear when i typed "agin" it looked right at the time....that's another of the memory things i hate......forgetting how words are spelled,i spend alot of time looking up simple words cause they just don't look right or i forget how to spell them....

The kettle decided to give up on Wednesday.

So ordered a new one. Except I didn't. I had ordered two kettles, the exact same kettle but from two different companies.

I have no recollection of ordering the first one.

I know the feeling of losing control and it is quite frightening. Right now I am trying to see the funny side of it.

Thanks all, just came back to the forum, been not coming for ages. Thanks Michah, too. Well, since I wrote that I have stopped the amytrip (due to bad palps) and cut out the ativan too, except for one or two times a week if I MUST. Last week just took one, week before 2. My memory is still **** but not quite as bad, ie I am better with recalling short term and it seems more "normal". I think ativan messes with immediate short term memory. When you already have memory worries, that is TOO scary. re the anxiety etc, well my doc tried to talk me into aropax (Paxil) but I haven't started them and I know I won't. Just aint going down that road, unless I get so bad that the nice young men in their clean white coats come to take me away.......Made a huge effort and "turned myself in" to the "mental health" help opportunities in my local area and this has resulted in a LOT of help and am now having cognitive behaviour therapy (which is supposedly a good alternative to medication, for anxiety disorders), plus narrative therapy on the alternate week. Here's hoping I get some improvement. It does make a difference getting some help. They made me see their shrink to get a "diagnosis" which was general anxiety disorder and agaraphobia. I guess anxiety and depression does wear out the mind and I suppose memory is one of the first casulaties. How do we STAND all this??!!