Hi Ladies

This board is so comforting to me. Basically I am 50 years old and have always been a fairly anxious person. I have been perimenopausal for the last 7 years and during this time my health anxiety has really gone into overdrive. I am constantly looking for health problems and then completely over-reacting when I find something to worry about. There seem to be plenty of symptoms to worry about during this time.

My latest problem is that I became obsessed with prodding my tummy as I felt it was bloated. Anyway I decided to go to docs as it didnt feel right. I expected him to put my mind at rest but instead he said he felt it was a bit fluidy! (Horror!!) I literally collapsed in the doctors surgery. He could see how worried I was and organised for me to have a pelvic scan. This in itself has worried me tremendously as the appointment is so quick (its tomorrow). I know that my doc is aware of my health anxiety and has organised it quickly so that I can get some answers.

Basically I have been googling and already decided that I am dying of the dreaded C word. I am constantly crying and cant function at all. I know that if I do find out that this is nothing serious I will just go onto the next worry.
I hate living life like this. I have been on anti-depressants in the past but spent the whole time I was on them wanting to come off them. I also put on a lot of weight and dont really want to go through that again but I just feel so tired and fed up with all this anxiety and worry.

My husband is very understanding but I feel this is awful for him to cope with. I can be quite horrible to him and 3 years ago he got to the end of his tether and left me. He only stayed away for one night as he couldnt stand to be away but begged me to seek medical help for my anxiety and this was when I went on anti-depressants. I also had some counselling which did help at the time but ended after 6 months.

If anyone has any thoughts on this I would love to hear from them.

Thanks for reading this. Will let you know what happens at the scan tomorrow.

KT57 x

KT,

you and I could be twins, honestly, we are cut from the same mold. I am exactly like you. I have high blood pressure and I cant' stop obsessing. We have taken care of everyone but ourselves for so many years that now that it's time to take care of ourselves we are freaked out. Why is that, I wonder ?
Everyone on PS knows about my health anxiety. My shrink says I was not protected as a child and that's why I live in fear all the time ...does that ring a bell for you ? Not trying to pry into your life but something to think about. Anti depressants dont' agree with me, but a mild dose of Ativan works for me to relax me, wonder why it's not doing a good job, LOL. About your pelvic scan. I know sometimes for a fact that there is something wrong me. Usually, there is nothing wrong with me, and then, I move onto the next physical ailment. What is up with that ? I feel your worry and anxiety over this. But let's say this, if there is something wrong, you will find out and they will fix it. I highly doubt that there is, being that feeling funny is the only symptoms but I'm only trying to settle you down like the girls have done for me here on these boards. Please, let me/us know what the results are. I will be keeping you on my mind when I pray for the other 15,000 thousand women on Power Surge. ( P.S. we are not alone with this type of anxiety).

Hugs,

Moozie
xpxoxoxox

Hi KT,

I too suffer the dreaded Health Anxiety.
Shugg do you know I have DX myself with everything from lupus to Shitzophrenia to Phechromocytoma (Adrenal Tumors) to BiPolar Disease to Pituitary Tumor to Heart Disease to Dementia to Diabetes to Alzheimers (I'm 32 mind you ) to that terribly insomnia disease ( which there are only like 3 cases in the world ) Shugg you name it and at 1 time or another I have sworn to Jesus I was DYING of it, but since all my labs have come back perfect,Now I have decided it's all in my head and I must be going INSANE. It's an awful-awful-terrible way to live, but I am with you sister.
Hang in there, sending you big hugs (((((KT))))))

HA !! that's funny I typed ****-zophrenia..I meant schitzophrenia...lol