Doany of you ladies just don,t feel like yourself? Like somethings just not right?

Yes, I think that there are many of us that don't feel right and don't feel like ourselves any more. For about 11 months now I've experienced intense depresonalization and derealization so that for me it's not even not feeling like myself, I literally don't even feel human.

I've posted in a number of other theads about this. I've found that whenever I did, lots of other women responded saying they felt similar things. Hang in there. We're here for you...

Cindy

BTW, I can't help but notice that you're from Connecticut. If your symptoms get really strange, maybe you should get tested for lyme disease. That's a big part of what's going on or me. I was originally told by my HMO doctors that my crazy symptoms were menopause relted anxiety and that there is no lyme in Northern California even though that's ultimately what I was diagnosed with and am being treated for. Although I still feel really weird most of the time, I am SO much better since taking antibiotics. (There are several threads here about peri and lyme, check them out.)

Cindy

Oh Yes, I couldn't agree more. I am not myself at all and I am having such a hard time right now with it. I have been like this for over a year now and I don't even remember what normal feels like anymore. I get soooo discouraged sometimes and today is one of those dreaded days. The tears are flowing as I am writing this. It is such a struggle but there just has to be a way out of this I know. Hang in there.
Bev

I havent felt like myself for a few years now, ever since I started in the menopause crap. I want me back !!!!!

Hey Bev,

I got your email and will respond more later. I'm not crying now, but have had a few bad episodes over the last few days. I'm praying for us though, this too SHALL pass. Hang in there, dear sister, please hang in there.

Cindy

I was tested and results were neg. The funny thing is when I was on HRT I didn,t feel this but due to other sideffects I had to come off them.

Helllloooo, I can't figure if I'm coming or going half the time, although mostly I'm not going anywhere. So I decided to be like a bear and hibernate, or maybe like a catepillar and then I will emerge like a butterfly.... who the heck knows, most likely I will emerge looking like a big ole fat hairy bear. I know for sure when I look in the mirror (which is less and less these days) I'm looking more like a crazy bag lady (no offense to bag ladies) with some bearish qualities. Ughhh.... nope don't recognize myself whatsoever and on some level I just don't care.......for now. Hopefully, eventually I will again.

I think we have to come to terms with the fact that we will never feel exactly the same as we did pre peri. However, I think with enough time and/or treatment we can feel close to how we used to feel.

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well, i was wondering it you could be more specific as to what other symptoms you're having.
I t hurts me to read posts like yours because i remember once upon a time i was in your shoes...i don't like to see others go through it

Here is a (((((HUG))))) from me!!!

i feel like that all the time. I haven't felt "right" for about two and a half years now .... which is when this peri thing began ... I don't feel like me, I feel "off", strange, different ..... and Floater, i agree with you ..... I think we'll probably NEVER really be the "old" us again, not really ..... I think we'll end up being SOMEWHAT like our old selves, but not exactly the same, not totally the "old us" ..... yeah, that's kind of a hard thought to deal with, it's kind of destabalizing, and creepy, but I think it's true ..... so, then, we are really and truly changing ..... like a caterpillar into a butterfly .... who knows, maybe once this cacoon is over, we'll emerge into some beautiful being, not like our old selves, but better!!!!

All the time, babe, ........all the time.

Take care and big hugs......

Michah

Bev, I am having a cry with you(or trying too......crying ids REALLY difficult for me)........I so hear how you feel......I am with you

Take real good care of you babe.......there is only one

Cindy:

My best friend has/had Lyme disease and she was helped by using the hyperbaric chamber.
She has little or no symptoms.

Thank you. I've heard about people having good results with that. I'm going to talk to my doctor. He's a regular MD, but also into all kinds of alternative treatment as well. I've been taking a new antibiotic and it seems to help some, but I still feel like I've got a ways to go and am open to trying just about anything to get past this stuff and get well.

I'm also looking like a bag lady. I feel depressed, anxious, I don't care to get dressed. I wear the same old comfy things. I rarely put make up on anymore and that is a biggie as I wouldn't be caught dead outside my house for the majority of my adult life w/o a little make up. I now go out to dinner with greasy hair, no make-up and ugly clothes. I think that my husband is a jerk (only some of the time). I just get by taking care of my 9 year old, just 3 blah meals and give him a few snacks and wash him. I take him out when I can, but mostly I'm just sitting around reading or watching TV. I can get the shopping done and I do get out once in awhile for breakfast with a friend, but I really feel so off now for the last few years too. I never thought much about it until I read this post. It's true. I feel like something is happening during this meno stage and hopefully when it's all over I'll be back.

Tonight I told my husband to go to dinner with his Aunt even though he didn't want to. I'm sitting all day in bathrobe, bag lady look watching the Kennedy funeral and I said he'd be so much happier away from me. I told him I am so useless to him now, just a depressed, anxious, person with daily aches and pains, and now a bad stomach problem, who has no get up and go. I told him I look horrible, feel horrible and he's not happy either, so maybe he'd find some nice younger person who was of some use to him and go out. So he did. And, I kind of really mean it. I am useless in this stage of life.

When will I be out of this hell hole? It is so not fair. And anyone who says, change your thoughts, change your life, I will scream at them. I've read every positive thinking book out there by all the greatest authors, philosophers, etc. but when hormones this strong get a hold of your psyche it is very hard to change your thoughts, change your life.

corky...

is there room in that boat for me, too?



(((hugs))),
gyz

I am definitely NOT myself these days either...and that bothers me terribly. My poor hubby, bless his heart, he is being so patient with me. I know this has taken him by surprise because he's mentioned several times "honey, you're not yourself anymore"...and I struggle with not answering back with a smart azz response. I KNOW I'm not the same...I know this. I am definitely entering the halls of menopause...and why couldn't someone have shut the door! I feel like a hag, I have all but quit trying to look nice, even at work. I cry if someone looks at me wrong (gawd, that sounds like my childhood!) and I wanna sleep all the flippin time. My blood pressure has hit the roof...on meds for that...my diabetes and asthma are not so great either...and let's not talk about my skin! Who needs sandpaper from a home store...I have a whole body full of it! Wanna talk about joint pain? GAH! Wanna talk about gastric disturbances...let's just say I'm making huge deposits to the methane banks. This crap is just in the last year. I feel like I am falling apart...and there ain't no glue for this!

I know it's menopause...the gyno confirmed this. I just started my period (gotta love Aunt Flo) so I started Yaz. I hope to god this helps. I need my sanity back. I have a 10 yr old that doesn't understand what's wrong with mommy. I need ME back.