I posted a lengthy topic here http://www.power-surge.com/php/forums/inde...showtopic=22164

I have one week to go before I leave and I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin. All my symptoms...anxiety...stress...nausea, etc. are ganging up on me full time right now. I know this is to be expected right now (even if I wasn't in peri) but I just need some kind words from you wonderful ladies right now.

Very few people know that I'm going. I certainly haven't discussed this with my husband as I would find my butt sitting out on the sidewalk and I'd like to be able to take a few important things with me obviously.

I'm really trying to keep things on an even keel so there are no 'outbursts' but I feel like I'm going to blow up. Everything he does is making me crazy right now...even though I'm counting the days that I have to be here. Walking on eggshells has taken on a whole new meaning right now.

Any kind words would be greatly appreciated. Thanks guys.

[quote name='lcypt' date='Aug 13 2009, 01:02 PM' post='303922']
I posted a lengthy topic here http://www.power-surge.com/php/forums/inde...showtopic=22164

I have one week to go before I leave and I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin. All my symptoms...anxiety...stress...nausea, etc. are ganging up on me full time right now. I know this is to be expected right now (even if I wasn't in peri) but I just need some kind words from you wonderful ladies right now.

Very few people know that I'm going. I certainly haven't discussed this with my husband as I would find my butt sitting out on the sidewalk and I'd like to be able to take a few important things with me obviously.

I'm really trying to keep things on an even keel so there are no 'outbursts' but I feel like I'm going to blow up. Everything he does is making me crazy right now...even though I'm counting the days that I have to be here. Walking on eggshells has taken on a whole new meaning right now.

Any kind words would be greatly appreciated. Thanks guys.
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I am here for you. Please feel free to PM me. I was in a marriage that caused me to lose family and friends. I do understand some of what you're going through. It took me 3 years of planning to extricated myself from my marriage. Once I left I never looked back and it was the best thing I could have done for myself and two children.

Sorry about the "jumping out of your skin feeling" but that can be attributed to peri and the added stress you're currently experiencing. Take some deep breathes and maybe a walk to stay calm until you leave. Hugs to you.......a new (and better) life awaits. Kind regards, JZZ

lcypt, I completely understand what you are going through. You are a very brave lady! And very wise! It's just not worth sacrificing your health over!

Try to take care of yourself and find your peace in whatever way you can.

Love and hugs,

bev

lcypt,

You are a very brave lady like bev says. Try and focus one day at a time. You need to look after yourself so you are as strong as you can be when the time arrives. We are all here for you - to listen - and to help give you strength whenever we can.

Take care and ((((big hugs)))) coming your way.

Jackie

I read your post and I can relate. You talk like you are blaming yourself and although some responsiblity does fall on your shoulders, you can't take all the blame. For now you have to focus on what you feel you must do and take with you the knowlege that 'sometimes bad things happen to good people' and you can deal with how you got here and what happened later when the dust settles. Life happens and we do the best that we know how at the time, so there is no judgement here. Leave the guilt behind.

I remember asking someone how you knew when it was time to leave and I was told 'when you start walking' and it sounds like you are there. That decision takes a lot of courage and you will have to summon up a lot more when the sh#@t hits the fan but you will be fine. The hardest part was making this initial decision. Yes, your life will be much better later because you desire it to be so and are willing to take the steps to do it. My prayers are with you.

I learned something valuable after my own personal journey. I learned that I was a lot braver, stronger, smarter and more resourceful than I ever thought I was before. And so are you.

Angela