Ok, I don't want to sound whingy, when compared to many, many ladies on this site I have nothing to whinge about: But since Saturday I have been SO bored, miserable and fed up! I have no idea why. In lots of ways I feel extremely guilty feeling and admitting to this, when in many ways I have nothing to moan about

I work in a school and am holiday for 6 weeks - see I told you I have nothing to whinge about - but normally at work I am so busy I don't have time to think. During the holidays, I am normally full of energy and raring to go out on days out with the boys, but this year, mainly I just can't be bothered

I suppose I have come to realise that I really don't know what interests me anymore. What will I do with myself when the children are all grown up and not wanting to go out on days out with me - at this rate with my miserable face looking at them - it won't be long before they would rather be with their friends anyway!

My DH is so patient with me, I feel for him - he would love to have a weeks holiday let alone 6. I feel so guilty for feeling this way, but I just can't shake this feeling off.

I was due on my period a few days ago, so maybe it has something to do with this - maybe this mood will lift when it appears!!

Does anyone else feel like this - and does it tend to be more prominent a certain times of your cycle.

Thanks for listening.

Jackie

Hugs Jackie I know exactly how you feel.

Thanks Fried - Hugs to you too.

Jackie

Yep.. I took work for the School Board here in the States, and I too have the Summer's off. And yep, can surely get into a rut. My co-worker pointed something out to me last year, she said that my son was my ring of fire, meaning that he is where I put all my emotions, energy, and thoughts. Yes, it is true. I try not to even think what it is going to be like when he leaves the house...

You know I read many books, and many of them say, don't let your dreams die, hold unto your dreams. I was like wow, what is my dream... Don't get me wrong, one of my best dreams coming true is my family. But yes, we must search deep inside ourselves and find something. And yes, it is hard. Funny when we were young, we were so full of dreams, I guess through the years of putting family first, we did let our dreams die. I honestly think that is part of the menopause process, and that we forced to re-examine our lives, we are forced to put ourselves 1st or atleast try, and you know what, I bet many women would agree, do you know how to put yourself first anymore... Can you put yourself first w/o the guilt.... This is what I struggle with.

I am trying to add little things of interest to my life. Perhaps that's why so many ppl take up reading as we getting older, cuz I do find myself reading more and more.

I have started a garden, which (when the heat is not unbearable ), I truly enjoy.

And now, once I get some $$$$ (ahhh, the joys of not working in the summer); I want to save up and buy a really nice camera. I want to start do photography. Nothing professional like as a job, but as a hobby. For I notice myself starting to look at the tiny things in life, like how the sun my be coming across the sky, or how the thunder clouds look when it's about to rain, the how an eagle flies... I would love to have some really great pic's of this, and frame them, keep them, give them as gifts...

Wow, thanks, I think there is something starting to peek my interest. Just writting about do that, feels good...

Keep searching, we will all find something... Just like lately, in the evening I love a walk just before the sun goes down... It's the little things that start getting our dreams going, I really believe that...

BINGO!!!!!

Thanks Becca, you said it so well. You are exactly right - menopause does make us re-examine our lives. It's quite scary and quite a process. But its something we need to do.

Well said Becca and thank you for your input.

Jackie

Yea, now if I can just practice what I preach... LOL

Funny, cuz your post got me thinking, oh boy...

So I am sitting, self, we are going to do something fun this week. My Lord I live like 15 minutes for Fort Lauderdle Beach, you know the place where ppl from every pay big $$$ to go, what do I do all day, sit in the house... So I am sitting there telling myself, yep that's what I am going to do. I am off for the summer, so I am going to get the kid up, 1st thing in morning, and I am going to the beach...

Do you know, I start in my mind, yea but I got to get this done, yea but, yea but, and yea but....

Then I started to think, it's like we get so use to be "alive" that we just don't "live". I am going to do it, (maybe not tomorrow lol), but this week I am going to do that. I am going to take my son to the beach, and like my grandma always told me, STOP AND SMELL THE FLOWERS, boy she was not kidding....

Funny too, cuz when I was younger, OMGish, I would ride the freaking bus, bike, or walk to go the beach.... Now nope, stay at home, no wonder, no wonder....

Hi Jackie,

How are you feeling today? hope a little better,although this lousy weather does not help.(British Summer )

Have alot of days like you spoke of and then feel guilty that you feel like this.

Take care

Kath

Hi Kath,

I do feel less miserable today thanks for asking. I think your right, this weather really doesn't help lift the mood does it?

Hope you are having a good day and managing to keep out of this pouring rain!

Jackie