Hey everyone!Not sure what is going on with me?I feel so annoyed & I can't get back to myself. Everything everyone does it just annoys the crud out of me. I clean house & I feel like I never get anywhere, it looks the same EVERY DAY. Not sure where I am going wrong?Is it just going to be this way because I have kids?Can I not have a clean house?Everywhere I look I see stuff everywhere?I am at that point, that I don't see a point anymore?

I'm trying to lose weight, and it down right makes me want to curse. I just want to eat what I want to eat & be okay?If I do that I gain 20 lbs. I get up early to walk, I come in cool down, fix my hair. I am a sweating mess after I fix my hair, i don't even bother to put make up on anymore. I feel miserable by the time I get done. I'm tired at night, I feel so exhausted. My back hurts, my hips hurt, my knees hurt, my thumb hurts???I don't no what I did to it, but it hurts down to the bone in my knuckle?I can't even buckle my seat belt using my thumb. My sex life is non existant AGAIN. I was fine at first, it lasted for several weeks when I first started taking the EstraTest. I thought I was cured!HAHA.

I'm crying right now, which is something I haven't been doing alot of lately..It scares the crud out of me, I have done so much crying, I would like to never cry again.

My daughter, same ole thing...I put her in a summer class for school. Found out she doesn't know to many of her multiplication facts. I try to work on them with her & if she gets one wrong, I will tell her the answer & try to work on it with her on how I got the answer...OMG, she throws a fit & says THAT HAS TO BE IT!!!Won't have it any other way. And it is this big mess of a fight, just to work on multiplying?She made A's & B's in school???I'm thinking OK, if she doesn't no prefix and suffix, multiplying & how to tell time...HOW DID SHE MAKE A & B'S????????And if she made A & B's why did she need summer school?It just doesn't add up???I don't no what to do with her?She will not learn from me...I guess I will look into hiring a tutor, maybe she would listen to them?I dunno.

I feel like throwing my hands up and going on strike?I aske her to brush her teeth and it's a big whining mess. I told her last night, DO WHATEVER YOUR GONNA DO, YOU DON'T HAVE A MOM OR DAD TO LISTEN TO. Obviously, because you never listen to what I have to say????I had to go to bed or I was going to blow a gasket. She got to go to a Jonas bros. concert with a friend on Weds., she comes home & starts crying because she wanted to go to the one in Tulsa, but it's over?I never told her we were going to it, she had it in her mind that it was set and we were going to go?Now she researched Miley Cyrus concerts & is on to something new...She was trying to make plans to go fishing. She didn't even no when she was going to be home from being with her friend after the concert?I feel like she is on fast forward without a pause button.

Where did I go wrong, what did I do to deserve all of this?I was a pretty good kid & a pretty good person, and always try to do the right thing..Even with the things I had to go thru and deal with in my childhood. I consider myself descent...Sometimes I feel like I am being punished for something?I just want to feel good and feel normal again. Is that to much to ask for?

Kids are bored to death..I think the entertain yourself bone got left out of their body!We do things, but I just don't wanna go go go all the time?

I am sitting here crying & a mess. I hope this didn't sound scattered, i hope it made some sense...Need someone to talk to, I feel so lonely.

Amber

((hugs)) Amber.

I feel pretty much the same about the house cleaning. No one else in my house cares so why should I?
Bored kids can be a handful. I tell my kids you think you are bored? You should of grown up in the 70s/80s!!

So......at what part of the day do you focus on something that interests you? When does the day become about you? Where does your stuff happen? Gone to a movie of YOUR choice lately? Gone shopping? Bought new nail polish and sat down and did a decent job of it? Had a long bath with a good book?

Girlfriend, we get so wrapped up in taking care of everyone else's stuff that we forget to take care of our own. Delegate the chores and pamper your butt! And if they complain tell them that it is essential that you recharge your batteries because once you burn out, they are forced on their own.

Big hugs and all the best to you.
Angela

I haven't done any of the things you listed in a LONG time..I guess since summer hit?I guess 3 months of not having anything for myself is a lonnnng time!The only thing "I" do is walk in the mornings for "ME". That is the only time of day it is about me 7-8am in the morning. And I feel like I am busting my hump even then, because I'm not really having FUN!HAHA. I am at my limit!I told them we weren't going anywhere today. I talked to my niece on the computer for about 1 1/2 hours & I loaded the dishwasher & wiped the counters down in the kitchen. I sat down and painted my toe nails!That is all my brain can handle today!

Thanks for the idea, I might just invite my sister in law to a movie next week!

Bored kids are a handful!I thought she was going to totally freak when I told her we weren't going anywhere today!Eventually, she went to her room & listend to a c.d. and played on her drums for about an hour!!!!AMAZING!
I was born in 77, I was never bored. I didn't have parents to take me here or take me there..I had to entertain myself. My parents were wrapped up in alcohol/drugs & their friends. I played barbies, house, read books, colored, t.v., friends, listend to radio, made up my own games you know?I always had something to do..My daughter, you tell her to play by herself & she acts like she doesn't no how?My son on the other hand has always been good about playing on his own & he can figure things out to do on his own?Her mind is just running so fast!

I finally calmed down and quit crying at least!!

this too shall pass, and you will be longing for these days when they are grown and gone- really, you will......

{{{{goingcrazytoday}}}} I hear you...it sounds like hormones are rampant in your house...your daughter is dealing with them and so are you...you are NOT being punished and you are NOT a bad mom....just a Mom stretched to her limits right now...I agree with what others have said...when is ther time for YOU? You need it and deserve it!! When I don't get some me time, I got very, VERY cranky. I love my kids, but man, when I don't have some time to myself everything ticks me off!!!

You're not alone and this will pass. Be gentle with yourself and cut yourself some slack...you're dealing with a lot.

NAIL ON THE HEAD THERE!!

I'm so busy doing for everybody else that my life *****!

Amber -

I could have almost written your post. My house is always a disaster, despite my attempts to clean it. I feel like I constantly want to rip someone's head off and it's usually my kids or my husband! You didn't say how old your daughter is, but when you mentioned the Jonas Bros. and the crying and whining I guessed she is in the 10-13 range. Mine are 11 and 14 and I tend to get into more arguments with my younger daughter than the older one because she is at that age where EVERYTHING is a drama! Although I have to say the older one is just a sassy-butt! Yes, my house is just one hormonal horror show - it's no wonder my husband travels for business as much as he does!!

Can't offer you anything but support and the fact you are definately not alone in all of this!

Haha, you are smart!!She will be 10 in October!I think she has been dealing with some hormone issues for awhile now I really don't no how to deal with her anymore?It just seemed so much easier when I could take them to the park to play or push them outside on the swing set. I just don't no what to do anymore?She has me in tears, because I just don't no what to do with her?School is starting on the 19th & she doesn't no how to multiply or tell time?I try to work with her on it and she just doesn't wanna have it?She gets something wrong & she just goes balistic & says it's the right answer. I try to explain it to her & she will NOT listen. I'm going to get her started in an after school class so someone else can work with her, hopefully she will listen to them!My niece, her hormones weren't to bad until recently. She will be 13 in a few months. But, my daughter I wonder how long she has been having hormone problems?I'm not sure of signs or anything? I had to buy her deodorant at about 5 or 6 years old?She had body odor so bad. People would always say she was to young for deodorant. I told them it wasn't an option, she had true body odor like an adult?She has hair under her arms. She hasn't started developing yet tho. She is so hateful & moody, she has been for quite some time.

Support is all I need!!Just someone to say it's going to be okay & I'm not alone...Thank you!!!
Amber - Crying AGAIN!!!!!!OH MY!

Yes!I think they are running very rampant in my house HAHA. I really didn't no it was going to be this rough raising a girl!! I don't remember being this hard to deal with???Seriously!!

I do need to get out!It has been about what they wanna do all summer long. Normally, is fine, but I think I need recharged!
Amber

School starts in 2 and half weeks

Girlfriend- I am right there with you. And IT WILL BE OKAY!!!! I have an 11 year old daughter, 10 year old son, 7 year old daughter and a 6 year old son plus my husband and 2 very big dogs, and my mother in law living in my house. I jumped everyone's little behind yesterday about messing up my house. My husband didn't know what to do. He just sat down and said are you finished yelling. I told him yep and stomped off. The two boys kept apologizing but of course my hormonal 11 year old was crying and saying she hated life and how come I don't love her. I said that is it- I am going to retire and if you want to live like trash continue on but not in my house.

This morning all is good! I am back to my cheerful self.
It is okay to cry!!!!

Amanda

Yeah, I know it seemed much eaiser when they were little, at least they listened back then! I'd say if she is having to use deodorant and has hair under her arms, she most definately is hormonal!! I feel for you, I really do, I told you I deal with the same thing day in and day out. I cannot wait for school to start - it starts on the 24th here. I hate to say it, but I really like that time I have to myself!!! I attend school myself, so I usually use most of that time with school and homework - but it's MY time. The best to you, Amber, hang in there!

Wow, I don't blame you for acting the way you did!!Sounds stressful. I guess it is normal to just wanna go on strike sometimes huh?I'm glad you are back to yourself today I am starting to feel better. I have been on them about picking up their things, so it has been working out better. They don't understand the concept of picking up the mess after they are done. Hopefully, they will learn something for when they are adults

I got it thru my daughters head that we weren't going anywhere today, so it has been a peaceful day!

I just wonder sometimes, how long she has been having the hormonal moodiness?She has had to wear deodorant for so long. When my friends were saying, my daughter is to young for deodorant it will do something to her glands (something or other, about kids shouldn't be wearing deodorant at an early age) it just wasn't a choice it was a must?

I don't have a full time job. But, when the kids are in school I help with our business. I work 3 part time days doing paperwork, bills, filing, cleaning. I enjoy getting out!!I have tried to work more times than I can count on my fingers & toes. I think my hormones have gotten in the way!I am a basket case when I work out of the home?

Yep, I feel the same way! Maybe I've just gotten too old or haven't worked in so long. That's why I went back to school, so I could get a job, but I graduated in May and decided to go on in part to get a higher education but, maybe in large part due to I'm scared to death to get out there!!! Am I a baby or what?

hi hon -I am putting 10.00 in an envelope each week and hiding it - when it gets to 80.00 -I am getting someone in every 2 months to give the house a good going over!! i hate all the housework!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did it already and it felt WONDERFUL!!!! I DO NOT MISS THE 10.00 A WEEK. hOPE ALL GOES GOOD WITH THE KIDS - MINE ARE ALL 'GROWD UP' AND GONE -but I do know what you are going through! Get a cleaning lady -it sure helps me! love From'the princessgod of menopause.