ok,most of the ladies here know I am going through a very hard time right now with illness in my family,my mother in law is dying of cancer-she has a few months left at the most,and my brother(age 40)was just diagnosed with lou gherigs.I have three kids and school starts back in about two weeks.This is my period week,and I am having a very hard time with anger and irritability.I feel an inch away from blowing up all the time.I know that the stress is making everything worse,but I am so tired of feeling this way.I am angry,tired,and the kids are driving me nuts-my husband won't be home till after three-so I can't go anywhere.My son is supposed to have a friend over tonight and I can't go back on it now.Oh,and the kicker today I got my new cell phone in the mail,my husbands works-but my phone number has not been transfered yet and they say it could be two days.why?My husbands number was transfered two days ago!Sometimes I feel like I am destined to get pooped on.I have a new cell phone and cannot even use it.Normally this would not seem like a big deal,but right now it is a huge thing to me.I could break something,or scream,or punch a hole in something-or better yet lock myself in my room and cry untill I can start taking my birth control pills again and feel better.I may take them early this week-I cannot bear being so upset and mad.Ladies is it selfish of me to want to go away and be by myself?I wish that I could go on a day vacation,but I have no one to watch my kids and my hubby works.he trys so hard to help me,but I need to be alone.Pray for me and thanks for letting me blow off some of the built up steam.GOD-bless---Lady e

so sorry to hear about your mil and brother, Lady E -- and I think you said before that your MIL lives with you, right? That makes you one of those "sandwich generation" people, and it's not surprising at ALL that you would be stressed. Who wouldn't be? It's not selfish in the least to want a day on your own. I think it's actually required to have a mental health break like that every once in awhile. Maybe you can escape for a few hours after hubby gets home, and then once the kids are back to school (not too long from now as you've said) you'll get more free time. Tonight you should just order some Chinese or pizza or whatever take out you enjoy for the family, and then go off for a little Lady E time.

My MIL does not live with me,but we are close.I appreciate your quick response-I may try to get out later,I just feel so angry and blue.Thanks and GOD-bless

(((((((LadyE)))))))))))) Don't be so hard on yourself. You have so much going on it's quite understandable how you feel. Can you take some time for yourself for a few hours and do something to relax like a massage or something else you like to do. Perhaps hiring a sitter and taking a day? Is there somone you can trust like a neighbor or another parent who can help you out at all?

I sure hope you feel better too.

Hugs again,
Karen

I don't have anyone I trust with my kids-I have no close family.My husband is always willing to watch them,but he does not get home till after 3-which thankfully is not much longer! Thanks for the support.GOD-bless

Just read your other thread on the acne problems you are having. Have you had your Testosterone checked lately? Not that this is the answer but both of these things point in that direction.

I don't have insurance,but if it doesn't cost much maybe I can get that tested.Thanks!

Hi, sorry that your feeling so bad. One of the things I'm totally grateful for is that I dont have young children while going through this. It must be so hard dealing with them and going through all that you are. Hang in there! I'm sure things will be better for you when the kids are back in school. Be grateful you dont live out by me. Most schools dont reopen until september after labor day.

Lara

Thanks.It has been hard,mostly because I feel guilty when i don't feel like doing things with them.Have a great day.GOD-bless