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momzoffour

Jun 13 2009, 09:14 AM

Ok, I'm now going on a week overdue (maybe it's over????

) after a few months of shortened periods and I find my depression is skyrocketing...anyone else go through this? I feel like, any moment it may start, ( you know that puffy feeling all over) but nuthin' happens...mean while, I start self-examining my life and it becomes a big "I'm a loser" cry fest....I know this has happened before and then when my periods shows up, it's like a veil is lifted and I want to slap myself for being so dramatic and self-pitying......

Actually came across a brochure at the hospital while accompaning my daughter to her baby's (my 1st granddaughter

) ultrasound that was looking for women who were sexually abused as children and now suffer perimenopause depression....got the number sitting here and waiting to be done working for the summer to investigate it....

It amazes me how things that happened to us as young girls can have such a haunting effect on us as adults.....but really, it is the formative years that lay the path for our well-being isn't it?

Ok rambling...feeling better now so heading out to weed the gardens.....

Hugs to all,

Momz

DebraD

Jun 14 2009, 01:45 AM

QUOTE (momzoffour @ Jun 13 2009, 08:14 AM)

Ok, I'm now going on a week overdue (maybe it's over????

) after a few months of shortened periods and I find my depression is skyrocketing...anyone else go through this? I feel like, any moment it may start, ( you know that puffy feeling all over) but nuthin' happens...mean while, I start self-examining my life and it becomes a big "I'm a loser" cry fest....I know this has happened before and then when my periods shows up, it's like a veil is lifted and I want to slap myself for being so dramatic and self-pitying......

Actually came across a brochure at the hospital while accompaning my daughter to her baby's (my 1st granddaughter

) ultrasound that was looking for women who were sexually abused as children and now suffer perimenopause depression....got the number sitting here and waiting to be done working for the summer to investigate it....

It amazes me how things that happened to us as young girls can have such a haunting effect on us as adults.....but really, it is the formative years that lay the path for our well-being isn't it?

Ok rambling...feeling better now so heading out to weed the gardens.....

Hugs to all,

Momz

Hi Momz, I just wrote a post on my regrets and depression. I go through the depression not only right before but now it lasts all during my period and gets worse for about 3/4 days after period is over. Then, slowly, I start to come back around and feel semi normal. What is really getting to me is the brain fog. I feel like I am walking around in a semi sleep state all of the time and I hate it. I can't even stand taking meds because I risk getting that out of control feeling. Some people love to have a drink,not me anymore, it feel too much like the brain fog of this perimeno thing. The depresssion is also so ridiculous that I wonder if I am ever going to get over it. You are not alone. Hugs Debra

chaotichar

Jun 14 2009, 09:57 AM

Debra
I get the same feeling of depression and severe anxiety at least 5 days out of the month. I cannot function also. Walk around like a zombie (when I get out) but I' don't get my period. I haven't had one in 6 years. It just happened 4 months ago. I wake up early and have anxiety until 5 or 6 in the evening. I have a hard time eating because my stomach is in knots all day. I've been on paxil for 8 months and xanax.

Does anybody else feel like this who has been post for so long?
char

didgens

Jun 14 2009, 12:43 PM

my shortened periods (closer together ) went on for 3 years .. they are just starting to move apart,, I dont have the depression anymore .. that was just horrible .. I would get it cyclicaly for about a year .. very black .. was certain someone or I was going to die .. bad stuff .. now anxiety body aches as the move further apart

.. just want it all done. My darling 82 year old mom was here yesterday and she said she got such bad hot flashes .. so I guess I get to look forward to that .. she says she still gets them sometimes..

CaliRedwoods

Jun 14 2009, 08:46 PM

Oh yeah, I do the self-examination, I am a loser, bad mom, yada yada during pms. BAD sometimes, can't function around others. I actually had to get some ADs for awhile, it was so bad. Sometimes I consider going back on them because I am so weepy for a couple days during each cycle. Even when I rationalize that it is just PMS, I still can't control it. And, yes, when it starts, I can't believe some of the things that I had a hissy fit about! Apologies all around for my family. Literally, I will start and instantly by balanced again.

unsure@40

Jun 15 2009, 01:21 PM

Doing it right now...this is the week before my period though. I feel like a worthless piece of poo. And it will only escalate from here until several days after my period is over. I know I'm a good person and very fortunate, but this week...not so much! I changed my birth control to help with my PMS and it does so can you imagine how bad it would be if I wasn't taking them!?!?

didgens

Jun 16 2009, 11:45 AM

I dont feel like Im a worthless piece of poo.. I feel like my husband is

alinam

Jun 19 2009, 06:20 PM

I've been doing that, too. I look at my girls and how fast they're growing and beat myself up that I'm so anxious and depressed I can't do anything with them. I'm trying to stop crying in front of them because I know they're worried about me, but sometimes they catch me. Even my husband is fairly supportive, but we're all so tired and want things back to "normal". Actually, my husband would probably prefer better-than-normal because I've never been a bundle of sunshine (more like a bundle of boring).

Anyway, I'm on low-dose birth control to try to even out the peri-meno swings and an SSRI to try to control the anxiety/depression. Trouble is, I think my body is so sensitized that I have exaggerated side effects from everything, and it's taking me forever to taper up on my SSRI. (It's been six months since this started and I'm on my fourth antidepressant). : (

t_nikki

Jun 19 2009, 07:43 PM

QUOTE (alinam @ Jun 19 2009, 07:20 PM)

I've been doing that, too. I look at my girls and how fast they're growing and beat myself up that I'm so anxious and depressed I can't do anything with them. I'm trying to stop crying in front of them because I know they're worried about me, but sometimes they catch me. Even my husband is fairly supportive, but we're all so tired and want things back to "normal". Actually, my husband would probably prefer better-than-normal because I've never been a bundle of sunshine (more like a bundle of boring).

Anyway, I'm on low-dose birth control to try to even out the peri-meno swings and an SSRI to try to control the anxiety/depression. Trouble is, I think my body is so sensitized that I have exaggerated side effects from everything, and it's taking me forever to taper up on my SSRI. (It's been six months since this started and I'm on my fourth antidepressant). : (

I hear ya on the sensitized part.I tried 2 antidepressants that almost killed me and 2 birth controls with no luck also.So I am just toughing this thing out and it's no picnic that's for sure, Thank God for this site.Hope you feel better soon.

Sariah

Jun 19 2009, 11:18 PM

QUOTE (didgens @ Jun 16 2009, 10:45 AM)

I dont feel like Im a worthless piece of poo.. I feel like my husband is

alinam

Jun 20 2009, 01:20 PM

QUOTE (t_nikki @ Jun 19 2009, 04:43 PM)

I hear ya on the sensitized part.I tried 2 antidepressants that almost killed me and 2 birth controls with no luck also.So I am just toughing this thing out and it's no picnic that's for sure, Thank God for this site.Hope you feel better soon.

Thanks so much for your support. I need all I can get right now. For some reason I'm very shaky today-I can barely type. I'm due to start back on my bcp tomorrow night, but the first month was not fun-not looking forward to it again. I'm on the lowest, low dose bcp and my doctor doesn't want to change it, so I'm going to see a new gyn. Wish me luck!