Hi all..........I have no clue what has been happening to me these last few days......I had been feeling fairly well for a few months then Friday evening it was like something started.........brief history.......Im post 2yrs this month and never had any problems til I was post 10months.......I was about 75 pds over weight and started Nutrisystem and lost 35 pds in 3 months then all my He** started...........I got off the wall anxiety and heart palps and weird adenraline surges......was put in hospital for 2 days and they said my heart was fine and this gyno that came in to see me told me that all this started because I lost weight and that" every idiot does not to lose weight during menopause".......because since E is store in your fat I lost my reserve and the only thing he offered me was ADs..........then I saw a GI doc who said I had an ulcer and treated it and I still didnt feel right..........I then went on to have so many test done and also a colonoscopy........and GI doc said I had IBS.......ok but my anxiety was still off the wall......he even tried treating the IBS with a AD elival(sp) and I tried it for 4 days and it didnt help just made my mind worse.......my gp I mean ex gp told me that I had to learn to live with the pain and go see a shink!.........which I did and he said he thought it was menopause and gave me konapin(sp) which made my heart race to 160.......and when I called him back to tell him I was in hospital from it he never even called me back.......so has time went on I was watching everything I ate and was doing better with abd pain........went to a NP and she put me on xanax .25mg 3 times a day and things have been going ok........I have continued to lose weight without trying because Im afraid to eat things and I have no appetite but when I do have an appetite I eat!........about a month ago my knee that I had surgery on about 18 months ago started swelling and was causing alot of pain..........went to ortho and he said I might need surgery on it to cut on inflammed part and he gave me vicadin for pain.......so this pass week all the symptoms have returned including the abd pain........it feels like the IBS plus my stomach is upset and I have NO appetite for anything.........I have been trying compounding E and P and thought a first it was helping but that lasted about 10 days....so am weaning myself off of the E and P just using a dab of P and .25mg of E........I feel like the xanax is not doing anything for me but when i told the NP she said then lets try Lexapro........I can not take ADs I tried them 7 yrs ago while going through a break up and I thought I was losing my mind when I was on them...zoloft made me want to jump out a window and paxil made me vomit for 3 days.........welbutrin had people talking in my head and gave me hives.......so I just cant try them again........I just dont know what to do....Im a single mom....I have an 11yr old son who needs me.........a married daughter who just found out she is preg!!.....she has been trying for a yr and I want to be there for her also..........I have another son who has been married for a year and his wife and he have been living with me.......and a couple of wks ago they told me that they were going to start looking for a place of their own since they had saved enough money......that totally freaked me out........I dont think I can live without another adult in the house........so thats one worry........then when this abd pain and off the wall anxiety started Friday that nothing seems to help I just feel like Im going to loss it(my mind)........I have lost about 5 pds in the last week and a half.........is it from the anxiety? or is there something new wrong?.......these are the worried that are keeping me awake at night....I need to stop the E because I cant tolerate the P.......and then lately I was increased the xanax to 1mg a day........which Im so worried about the addiction part of that....I just dont know what to do any more and wish I could just cry but thats one thing that I can never do anymore and I was a real crier before this all started......now no tears..........sorry to vent so much but Im scared again just like I was last year at this time........could the vicadin be causing this?........I never take more then 1 and 1/2 tabs a day/......I take a half at a time when the pain is bad......I have to work full time so i cant take anymore time off from work.......and I hate being home alone during my days off...waking up in AM is the worse feelings I have..nervousness is off the wall then...I dont know what I should do now........NP will be mad when she finds out I didnt fill AD script but Im not depressed just scared..and just cant take them.......Valerie
ps.......have had everything checked....thyroid.....adrenals and every other blood test and scan......all come back normal
Just wanted to add that I love all you girls for the support that you have given me over the last year.......Valerie