Talk about getting really confused and freaked out. You all know if you have read my posts that I am struggling with my health (like every other woman here) and I suspect it has something to do with my saline (silicone shell) breast implants. I started getting very sick directly after my implant surgery. I was 39 and started developing low back pain and a couple of weird symptoms. But as time went on the symptoms turned really crazy.....I was diagnosed with a rare form of Colitis and then my thyroid went nuts then I was so fatigued that I was bedridden at times. I was forgetful and had major panic attacks. Then after having a horrible nightmare pregnancy at 40 I had a beautiful baby boy and nursed him for over 2 years. Now I find out he may have some toxic poisoning from the implants. After delivery I had severe weakness and the diarhea lasted for years. Then came all of the joint and muscle problem. I hurt everywhere and had major exercise intolerance. Then my blood sugar became unstable. Oh then the mood swings, night sweats, cold sweats, insomnia and terrifying anxiety attacks that would last for days on end. Finally a depression that about took me down. I think I have spent the last 2 years sleeping, napping and resting. I still feel like total crap. Not as bad as I was last year and the year before that but just exhausted. Horrible menstrual periods, clotting, spotting and PMS from Hell. I even have Post menstrual syndrome. Here is the kicker: The women on the Implant Support Website have similar problems! In fact I just want to write to some of these women to check out PS because the symptoms they describle sound hormonal. I have had so many wonderful women on here tell me that they dont have implants and have been battling the same symptoms I have. I am seeing a plastic surgeon tomorrow to get these implants OUT! They are 10 years old and after reading all of the ladies posts and horrible problems and how toxic these stupid things are it has scared the crap right out of me. So now that I have this down pat here it is in a nutshell. These ladies and some experts claim that all breast implants including saline which I have with a silicone shell, breaks down over time and leaches into our systems and poisons us and causes damage to nearly every organ including the brain. Also, the foggy thinking and cognitive difficulties is due to the platinum possibly going into the brain and that studies have shown women are 20% more likely to have brain cancer with implants. So here I am, and you all know what a spazz I turn into with Panic and Anxiety.......Is it Implants or Peri? How about both for a double whammy.....and why are all of these symptoms so similar to peri/meno. Why is it nearly all of the women, unless they have been diagnosed with an auto immune disease, have perfectly normal bloodwork and labs coming back, just like here on PS. Are we all just a bunch of symptom surfing crazy loons, how do I know what the hell I even have?
Thank for listening....I had to get this off my Chest......literally!!!!!!!!!!! Debra

I think that it is good that you are getting all this off your chest. It goes some way to keeping us all sane.
I totally understand how you are freaking out with all your symptoms. On the dark days when I am feeling awful I do exactly the same.

However I would urge you to stop and take a breath. I understand why you might want to have the implants removed but are you rushing about like the rest of us just blaming anything in sight for your horrible symptoms?

Here is an exercise for you.

Jot down a list of your symptoms and then link them to:

Thyroid Dysfunction

Adrenal Dysfunction

Amalgum fillings

Immunological disease

Neurological disease

Fybromyalgia

Lyme disease

Pollution in our environment

Sleep apnoea

This list goes on and on and on and on..........................................................

I guarantee that if you take the time to research all these sites ( Please don't bother!) you will come to the conclusion that you have them all. Web sites can be dangerous places for your sanity because they can convince you that you are suffering the disease that you are researching. It is a bit like being recruited to a cult. Needy people can get absorbed into all manner of nasty cults because they are so desperately seeking help and comfort.

I am not advising you to ignore your symptoms but just to step back a tiny bit. For some women menopause is truly gruesome and because it involves the main endocrine gland in the body (thyroid) it can affect every system that you possess. Our symptoms are so far reaching that it does seem as though we are being poisoned from within. I even saw an article recently that said that women of our age are ill because of the Chernobyl meltdown. Yuk..................What a horrible thought and all very believable. However, I have just pushed it to the back of my mind to try and keep my sanity.

Sometimes the only thing we can do is keep plodding on..... [I can understand that you might want to have the implants removed just for peace of mind.]

Wishing you a better day.


XIII

Hi XIII,
Thank you so much for being the voice of reason. When I read some of the posts on the site some were suffering so badly but it's funny how misery can love company. I know I hate feeling alone in all of this. But it can almost become a mass hysteria. I cannot think of one symptom I have relieved, cured or healed myself from by stressing out about it. My new approach is going to be how can I calm myself and practice having hope and courage, no matter what the symptom is. Right now, I am going to take the necessary steps to have these 10 year old implants removed and go on with my life. Thank you for your sane advice........Hugs Debra