JennaN
Jun 29 2001, 10:01 AM
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Quote: from SanMarie on 10:17 pm on June 28, 2001[br]Hi Everyone,
I posted on the 25th that the shaking was back and I had missed taking my magnesium. Well I have been taking it again and plus I added more protein to my diet and I have been shake-free for 3 days now. :-)
I have noticed though that when I am shaking I don't have any hot flashes. But when I am not shaking - I do. I'd rather have the flashes any day than the shaking. Just thought this was kind of interesting.
Sandi
Hi Sandi!I'm SO pleased for you that the magnesium and extra protein are helping. It's a wonderful feeling when something begins to help, isn't it?
Now that you mention it -- I don't think I've ever had a hot flash while in the midst of a shaking episode....although, I've had a hot flash BEGIN with internal shaking, and once the hot flash is over, the shaking goes away too. I'm convinced that in many cases, the internal shaking is a result of estrogen bottoming out. Last night I came in the house after some yard work and felt just great. Within a half hour, the %^$^%$(&*$ shaking began. Jumped up, used a dab of Tri-est estrogen cream on my wrist, and within fifteen minutes the shaking went away.
If this had happened once or twice, I'd guess it was coincidence, but a dab of Tri-est has stopped the shaking 99 times out of 100. Of course, magnesium and a little extra protein help day to day.
Hope you keep feeling better!
Hugs,
Aunt B
Jun 29 2001, 09:13 PM
Internal shaking has got to be the worst part of meno. But, I am baffled at all of the different explanations of internal shaking. IT Amazes me how differenet and yet so alike we are. You know what I mean.
If I stay off the sweets the hot flashes and internal tremors are not nearly as bad, but, it seems like I just have got to have chocolate. Jeez!!!
This is tough! Does anyone love chocolate as much as me????? :biggrin:
fiona
Jun 30 2001, 08:53 AM
Hello to everyone,I have just finished reading through all the pages on this board and felt there were many things I can identify with. I hate the thoughts I have, sometimes they repeat themselves over and over again, like a song being stuck in your head. Then there are the feelings that something bad is about to happen. This was really bad for me for over a year. I was so upset when I went to the doctor and told her everything and she just shrugged and recommended a phsyciatrist. I knew I wasnt going mad, these symptoms plus the unbearable shaking and blurred vision and not being able to eat at all set in exactly 10 hours before I got my period. They would last all the way through it and then stop for a few days and start again when I was ovulating. Some months I had the symptoms all month.
I am a little confused as I have had this for nearly two years and still have very regular periods, I even fell pregnant but the pregnancy didnt progress past 6 weeks. I was 39 when it started and am now 41. Could this be early meno?? My hormones when tested were all normal except my testosterone which was very very low.
I really feel for you Sandi, I am glad the magnesium has helped and I am going to start taking it again. After seeing the naturopath, I totally changed my diet and took homeopathic remedies and a lot of vitamins. Finally, after getting worse and worse I discovered a few things,1. I cant tolerate wheat and eating wheat makes it worse.2. I cant take Vit B. That brings the shaking on.3. I cant have too much sugar but cant have none at all either. Its a delicate balance as Jenna points out.4. I cant oversleep. Like many of you the shaking is worse when I wake up and if I sleep more than 7 hours it can be really bad. It also works the other way with too little sleep. I have to live this Goldilocks life now, you know, everything has to be just right or look out.5. I have yet to meet a doctor who knows about the shaky thing but have now met 3 other women in this small country town where I live who have the same thing!!!I tried many different drugs, mostly the seratonin uptake inhibitors of which I think Xanax might be one and finally in desperation ( I lost 17kilos which is around 2 stone because I could not eat ) I took a Stemetil which is Prochlorperazine and is used as an anti nausea treatment mostly. The doctor did not prescribe it, I had some for nausea from an ear infection, but it worked, it lessened the shaking and all the other dreadful symptoms. I went back to the Doctor and told her, she then gave me a 6 month script and told me that this drug has very few side effects, is not addictive and can be taken over long periods in small doses. I have since researched the drug and found out that in America it is also used as an anti phsycotic drug but in very large doses. 1200mg at a time. I take 5mg when the shaky thing is bad. The other thing I found is Maca. It is a ground vegetable root from Peru and it is very good but the dosage is so individual it takes experimenting with.
This is turning into a very long winded posting but I have so much to say as for nearly two years I have been going through this on my own. My husband has been wonderful and very supportive but I have 3 young children and a full time job. Sometimes I felt that if my life was going to be like that forever I didnt want life anymore. I am much better now though still get the shaky thing in the mornings a bit and still go through around 2 to 3 days a month that are really bad. The unfortunate thing is the panic attacks, I have had to retrain my brain to cope with these, for instance I used to get a terrible panic attack everytime I stopped for a red light. Sweating, couldnt breathe, felt like vomiting, racing heart etc... then I decided to change my mind about the way I felt about red lights. I told myself over and over that I enjoyed being stopped at red lights as I could have a drink of water, listen to the radio, relax and think my day through and to take that opportunity. It worked and I no longer having panic attacks at red lights. I know this sounds crazy but it did work. Sometimes I think maybe the doctor was right and I am losing my mind!
Anyway, enough from me for now, I wish you all well and I hope you do start a revolution in the medical world, it is needed. The ignorance and lack of caring I have experienced are heartbreaking. My gyn told me I was not going through meno and it had nothing to do with my hormones and to see a shrink. He spent 5 min with me and charged me $190.00(Aust). I was devastated.
Thank you to you all, I am thinking of you and hoping you all get through it.
Fiona
SanMarie
Jun 30 2001, 09:47 AM
Fiona,I don't think you are crazy. I have experienced the red light thing as well. It isn't too bad for me when I am the first one at the red light. But if there are cars in front and behind me - then I sometimes panic, because I wouldn't be able to get away to go get help for my impending heart attack (which is always what I think when I have a panic attack). Same thing for when I am stuck in traffic on the tollway and couldn't go anywhere unless I got out of my car and ran between the cars.
I was about to print off this entire link and fax it to Oprah so she can actually see how real people are suffering, and ask her to get some GYNs on to do a show - but I wanted to check first and make sure that this was not a problem with anyone - especially Dearest - who I, personally, am so grateful to for making this site.
Fiona, I called my regular physician when the shaking began and he immediately felt it was a meno symptom and told me to call the GYN. I was starting with a new one (due to insurance) and had to shake for a month before I finally got in. I couldn't wait for the visit and was very disappointed when she told me she never heard about it and really didn't seem too concerned. She said she would run tests for thyroid and sugar, but she had to get a referral and would send the scripts for the tests. Tuesday will be 2 weeks - no scripts yet. I am calling my regular doctor for the tests on Monday. We just have to get the doctors who don't know about this educated - so someone can find us something that helps. Or, at least acknowledge that they know about it.
Sandi
Kari
Jun 30 2001, 01:24 PM
Hi ladies,
I am another one who is appaled by the lack of knowledge among these doctors. I have been shuffled between doctors and each one has tunnel vision into their own specialty. Not one of them has treated me as a whole person and stopped long enough to say to themselves " what's wrong with this picture'", here we have a 45 year old woman who is experiencing, panic attacks, dizziness, internal shaking, heart palps, heart pain, numbness, and a host of other problems. Could this be menopause?" Instead, they look at me as if I just came from another planet. My latest doctor knows 2 things.....statin drugs, and SSRI's. I'm totally fed up with this. I've had to do all my own research into this matter and feel like sending each one of THEM a bill! On Monday, i am going to do a lot of calling until I find someone who specializes in menopause. This is horrendous to have to live this way. Thank God for the internet and Power Surge. Without them....i'd be a basket case by now.
maggie
Jun 30 2001, 01:26 PM
Hello Everyone Remember me? I decided not to post the boards for a while because I was getting nowhere with my symptoms. So this is my latest news.... I now take 400 mg Magnesium a day, 2 calcium tablets plus my usual vitamins. I also took up Yoga and am trying hard with meditation. I am determined still not to start tranquilizers as I really feel that if I can be TOTALLY reassured that the internal shaking is caused by hormones then it will be no more a source of anxiety for my mind to work on than knowing that a hot flash is caused by hormones plummeting. Because everyone KNOWS about hot flashes and night sweats they are annoying but not a reason to panic about them. The other symptom I can identify with strongly is a sudden overwhelming feeling of dread and being very ill at easefor no reason and then after a time this passesoff but while its happening it is almost trying to break out as a panic reaction......UGH!!!Then everything goes back to normal till the next time.Anyway I really feel the Yoga is helping .....dont know about the tablets yet. I also saw a homeopathic doctor who is conventionally qualified too and he said that my symptoms were caused by a combination of hormones and anxiety about them. I started PulsatillaX 30 one every five days and aconite X6 twice a day. I'm interested to see what happens. I am in control in that I won't let a full blown panic attack happen.. NIce to meet with you all again but I wish I didn't need to if you know what I mean.........MAGGIEXXXXXXXXXXX
Aunt B
Jun 30 2001, 01:43 PM
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Quote: from maggie on 2:26 pm on June 30, 2001[br]Hello Everyone Remember me? I decided not to post the boards for a while because I was getting nowhere with my symptoms. So this is my latest news.... I now take 400 mg Magnesium a day, 2 calcium tablets plus my usual vitamins. I also took up Yoga and am trying hard with meditation. I am determined still not to start tranquilizers as I really feel that if I can be TOTALLY reassured that the internal shaking is caused by hormones then it will be no more a source of anxiety for my mind to work on than knowing that a hot flash is caused by hormones plummeting. Because everyone KNOWS about hot flashes and night sweats they are annoying but not a reason to panic about them. The other symptom I can identify with strongly is a sudden overwhelming feeling of dread and being very ill at easefor no reason and then after a time this passesoff but while its happening it is almost trying to break out as a panic reaction......UGH!!!Then everything goes back to normal till the next time.Anyway I really feel the Yoga is helping .....dont know about the tablets yet. I also saw a homeopathic doctor who is conventionally qualified too and he said that my symptoms were caused by a combination of hormones and anxiety about them. I started PulsatillaX 30 one every five days and aconite X6 twice a day. I'm interested to see what happens. I am in control in that I won't let a full blown panic attack happen.. NIce to meet with you all again but I wish I didn't need to if you know what I mean.........MAGGIEXXXXXXXXXXX
Maggie I am glad that you are doing the yoga thing. I find that it has helped me tremendously. No one seems to understand what we women are going through except us. Most people look at me as though I am crazy. But everyone morning I do my a.m. yoga and then walk for 30 minutes and in the evening I do P.M. yoga and walk for 30 minutes again. I still have the symptoms but not as bad. Again I am one that has to stay off of chocolate and I am having a hard time w/this. LOL. :smile:
I am trying to eat the right foods, but I do slip there too.
Hope you get better Maggie.
ladybird
Jun 30 2001, 04:25 PM
I have been going crazy with internal shaking. It seems to escalate after doing heavy work...lifting, vacuuming, anything that takes a little effort...I have been tested for everything Parkinson, MS, nerves you name it. I seems to be the worst after I go to bed. It is a constant trembling and takes me forever to go to sleep...any solutions?
SanMarie
Jun 30 2001, 09:09 PM
Well, guess what? The shaking returned today. I was so upset I could barely stand it. I kept stuffing down a ton of protein all day and only now, at 8pm, has it subsided a little - not gone, but just slight
Dearest....please give me the go ahead to print this link off and send it to Oprah and beg her to get some doctors on to discuss this shaking issue.
Sandi
fiona
Jun 30 2001, 11:22 PM
Sandi,I would be really happy for you to go ahead with your ideas for Oprah. I know the others and Dearest would have to O.K. it too but desperate times call for desperate measures. I was thinking of starting a little action group here in my town. I thought of putting an add in the paper - but what would I say, Does anyone with Internal Shaking and other mad symptoms want to start a group???
I too told my doctor about this site when Mum found it for me but she didnt even look into it. I think someone else said before that it is not a very glamourous sickness to have and the symptoms are so varied and everyones responses so different that it is hard to treat.
Dianne, try everything you can. I found that I had to eliminate nearly everything from my diet and take no pills of any description. I just drank water for a day and then slowly reintroduced foods and one by one vitamins etc... It is a slow process but it works. I have found many 'triggers' for the internal shaking. Onions, wheat, sugar, aspartame is dreadful. But we are all so different and what works for one may not work for another.
I hope you are all having a good night, it must be night now on the other side of the world. If any of you wake up in the middle of the night with the dreadful shaking remember that I am awake over here in Australia and sending positive thoughts to you. One more thing that I found useful is to realise that I wasnt going to die of a heart attack (l can so relate to you Sandi) and that the symptoms would pass. This really helped me.
Lets all get well,Fiona
SanMarie
Jul 1 2001, 12:32 AM
Fiona,
It is 11:28pm here in Illinois. I am shaking slightly and dragging because I took Xanax to try to calm it down a little. Your post did make me laugh though - about setting up the group.
I don't know - it seems like most of the men doctors don't understand and the young women doctors haven't gotten to this point yet - so I guess we have to look for doctors to treat us that are female, old, and shaking too.
Maggie - I was so glad to see your post. I have been thinking about you every day.
Well, I am still hoping to hear from Dearest to tell me that it is okay to print this off. I can print it and retype it - taking off all the names if that would make people feel better. I, personally, don't care who sees this with what I have said. I just want this shaking to stop.
Has anyone taken Estroven? My doctor says I can take it - it is natural and you get it over the counter. She said it probably wouldn't work, but I could try it. Now there is some positive thinking. :-)Sandi
fiona
Jul 2 2001, 08:39 AM
Sandi,I hope you have had a better day and night. What is Xanax?? I
'm going along quite well at the moment, still a bit breathless from time to time but the shakes are only in the morning when I wake up for a very short time so I can cope. Hope the magnesium keeps working, I havnt started it yet but will get some tomorrow.
Does anyone get the shaky thing after taking a nap or does it only strike in the mornings. I get it even after a nap. Must be something to do with the sleep chemicals??
Maggie,please let us know how the homeopathic remedies work, I would really love to know if you have any success with them. Hope you are feeling better today.
Has anyone reading the board heard of Maca???
Fiona
SanMarie
Jul 2 2001, 11:01 AM
Fiona,
Xanax is an anti-anxiety drug that I was given in 1985 for panic disorder. I have been taking it ever since. It sometimes takes the edge of the shaking, but doesn't take it away.
I am having a horrid day today. I am shaking very badly. I contacted my regular physician and he is out of town until next week. I called the GYN and they said they mailed out the scripts for the blood work, but I never got it - so they are faxing over a copy. Can't get it done today because I have already eaten something. Since this doctor never heard of shaking due to meno, she is testing me for diabetes and thyroid.
I can't stand this anymore. It is over-shadowing my entire life. I went to the grocery store yesterday and started sweating profusely and then got shaky and very weak. I actually bought this soy drink stuff and started drinking it right there in the store. It was gross. I had gone to the store to purchase the estroven - but they didn't have it - so I ended up with Health Woman - which consists of a lot of soy. (These were prescribed by my GYN). Started taking it yesterday. Do hot flashes also come with the shaking and weakness part, or just the sweating? It is still going thru my mind all of the time that this is my heart.
And yes, Fiona, I get the shaking after sleeping as well - even naps. There again I think that because I have gotten up and I am moving around it must be caused by my heart. I am turning into a real nut case.
I contacted the producers at Oprah last night. I am praying that she will put this problem on the air.
I am about ready to contact the GYN for HRT. Can anyone tell me what would be the best thing to ask for? I kind of like the idea of the stuff you rub on yourself.
Other than staying away from sugar, caffeine, chocolate --- what does everyone eat? For instance - what is a good breakfast?
Sandi
fiona
Jul 3 2001, 10:06 AM
Sandi,how horrible for you. I know that feeling well of it overshadowing your entire life - it is terrible. You cant get away from it no matter what you do. I really hope you are feeling better when you get this reply. Keep working on the ideas offered up by everyone on the board, I know you will find one or more that help you. I know now that it is many things that can trigger the shaking.
I cant eat many types of food at all. Fruit for breakfast, mainly bananas as they suit me, maybe an apple. Then natural fizzy mineral water to drink. Dont know why but this settles my tummy. I eat around every 2 hours, just little amounts and this also helps.
I am 99% sure that its not a heart thing. I know you must have it checked out to be sure but my heart does the same sort of things, I even get pains in the chest but only when I have my period. Then I worry that it is the stress of the shaking and feeling so bad that is giving me the pains in the chest. What a cycle we live in. I actually dont get hot flashes at all, when the shaky thing is about to hit, I get deathly cold. We live in the tropics and everyone else will be sleeping with no covers and the fans and I am under the doona trying to get warm!!! I must be the weird one as have never had a hot flash.
Dont give in, try reading some Louise Hay (Heal your Life), it may not have the answers but it does uplift and help you to come up with positive thinking to help you through. I'm so glad you have gone ahead with the Oprah idea.
Stay positive, you will find the things you need to help you deal with this.
Kindest thoughts,Fiona
ladybird
Jul 3 2001, 12:57 PM
Hi Fiona...
Can I relate to being cold. It is so hot outside and I have goosebumps. But it is a different kind of cold then what is weather related. My coldness seems to freeze my bones and it is an internal chill rather than a skin cold. When I am chilled like that, nothing will warm me up...I just have to let it run it's course. Geez...somedays, freezing, otherdays hot flashes. I wish this body of mine would make up it's mind. LOL
Hugs
SanMarie
Jul 3 2001, 08:44 PM
Hi Everyone,I had my blood work done finally today. They tested my hormones, thyroid, glucose, and lipids. Now I just have to wait for the results. Expected since I had to fast for 14 hours to be shaking like a leaf today. Just the reverse. No shaking at all. I am totally confused. Just yesterday I was shaking like a leaf. And getting tired of sitting on the couch because I am too weak and shaky to walk around and get things done. They better figure out what to do with me. This is my 3rd day on Healthy Woman - the soy supplement.
Hoping to hear something back from the Oprah producers.
Sandi
SanMarie
Jul 5 2001, 05:14 PM
Hi,I got my blood work results back and I do not have a problem with my sugar or my thyroid. Sad when you get results back that you should be happy about but were hoping might be the cause of this infernal shaking.
I am still shaking. I HATE THIS!!!!! My FSH level came back at 38.6 - which they said shows my levels to be rated as postmenopausal. I haven't had my period for 3 months.
Okay - now if I go on HRT - can anyone tell me what worked for them when they were plaqued with this shaking? Hot flashes/night sweats are not really a big issue with me right now.
Sandi
Kari
Jul 6 2001, 01:04 AM
Hi Sandy,
Did they check all your hormone levels or just your FSH? I'm in the process of looking for a doctor who will do it MY way. I'd like to know exactly what i'm lowest in.
I know we all have one symptom that is the worst for us. Mine is anxiety and although it's somewhat better, it's still number one on my list of complaints. The estrogen patch did help with my heart palps and dizziness, i'd just like to know how much I need without all this experimenting i'm doing. Maybe some estrogen/progesterone would help with your internal shaking. I'm reading "Screaming to be Heard" and Dr. Vliet seems to think lack of estrogen is causing most of our problems. Sure hope you find something that works for you. I know that after 3 years of this,i'm ready to try anything to get some relief. Good Luck!
SanMarie
Jul 6 2001, 09:10 AM
Kari,
They did an FSH and only part of the results are back. They said that something like the estroven (don't know if I even spelled that correctly) hasn't come back yet. Should be back on Monday. So I guess there are 2 parts to this test. Are there some other hormone levels that should be checked?
Thanks for listing the book you are reading. Can anyone else recommend books that they have found particularly helpful. From the looks of it, I am going to have to figure this out for myself - so I better get educated.
Sandi
Kari
Jul 6 2001, 10:34 AM
Sandi,
Maybe the rest of your test results are still coming. They should be able to test your levels of estrodiol, progesterone, testosterone, dhea, and cortisol. Also your thyroid test should involve the T-3, T-4, and antibody count. Sometimes just testing the TSH level of thyroid is not enough. My doctor just does the bare minimum on anything, so I feel i'm being shortchanged here. I'm now looking for a clone of Dr. Vliet. LOL! Did your doctor have any input as to what causes internal shaking? Sure hope you get some answers soon.....this is maddening, isn't it.
Aunt B
Jul 6 2001, 11:35 AM
Hello Ladies,
I have stayed off the boards for a while b/c I am having a time w/meno. I have been slaking in my exercises and walking and it shows. Would you believe that this blasted internal shaking or electrical woke me up this morning. I just can't stand feeling like this anymore. I am losing my mind. Hot flashes and sweats have subsided for a little while, but they are still there. I feel as though I have no peace.
SanMarie
Jul 6 2001, 12:08 PM
Aunt B,I am so sorry. I know exactly what you are dealing with. I am right there with you. My family is starting to get upset - because I am basically sitting around cause I am so shaky. I did contact the Oprah show and absolutely begged them to get some doctors together that know about this shaking problem and put them on the air. I also gave them this site URL and asked them to take a look at our posts and see how we are suffering with this and looking for help.I wish I could tell you what to do to help yourself, but I haven't a clue - because mine is just as bad as yours right now.Then you start to wonder ---- could this really be meno. Could it be MS, Parkinsons, brain tumor, my heart not being able to take this anymore. Then you get panicky and things go numb, your chest starts to hurt, your head starts to hurt -- makes you just plain crazy! I got almost no sleep last night. I alternated all night from being way too hot - to freezing. The blankets were on and off all night.Sandi
maggie
Jul 6 2001, 02:50 PM
Hello Sandi ande all of you wonderful shakers! I too have stayed off the boards for a little just because it reminded me of how stuck with this dreadful symptom I am. I have been shaking on and off since about the end of March. I just believed that the body would eventually right itself and all these up and down hormones would gradually level out. Now I'm not sure I can trust my body. I asked a helpline on menopause about the trembling and I was told that the hormone oestrogen interacts also with a lot of the other hormones in our bodies and throws them out of line too and that it was the surges so caused by adrenaline that makes us anxious and tremble . We in turn have to let the rushes come and go and really ignore them. That is so difficult to do when you start to think you're having a stroke or beginning to get some awful neurological disease... I am determined still that I will not take any medication in chemical form as I think it would add to my problems. If only a doctor somewhere would come out and name this shaking internally as a fairly common menopausal symptom the same as they do with sweats and flashes. Anyway in spite of my homeopathy, yoga and spasmodic meditation I still have the tremors. i am not pannicked by them so much and i can get through them but they are certainly not lessened. does anyone want to say how long the periods of shakiness last each time/I actually start mine as soon as i am coming back to consciousness after sleeping even before I open my eyes and the vibrating inside lasts about ten minutes and then it all subsides. When I get up I feel as IF i HAVE HAD A BAD SHOCK and something bad is about to happen and after about an hour or two the feeling passes and then I might get it out of nowhere later on in the day. If I should ever take a nap in the day I know I will get the "shakey wakes" But then I always did even before the meno with that bit. Good luck all of you Istill readthe boards every day and pray for all of us that we will come through this and be our old selves again.......LOL MAGGIE..XXXXXXXXXXX
SanMarie
Jul 6 2001, 04:30 PM
Hi Maggie,It is nice to hear from you. It is funny that you posted what you did, because I was just about to post that maybe we should develop some kind of survey that each of us takes, and journals that we keep, and try to find things out things we may have in common that would make us have this. Like how early did you get your periods, how many children, meds you take, what makes it stop for you, what makes it start, eating habits - just anything and everything that we can think of to start looking for a reason that this happens. If the doctors can't help us, maybe we can help ourselves, maybe we can stumble across something that will make it stop. My personal email is steward@ameritech.net. It would be good if we could set up a group or chat line somewhere where we could talk in real-time without cluttering up Dearest's board with all of the basic details, and then we could post findings and results here for people who didn't want to participate. After waking from sleeping ALL DAY today because of the shakes I am determined to stop feeling like I am sick or incapacitated because of this. I am determined to make this go away. I feel the depression returning and the anxiety building.
Maggie, in answer to your question. I am absolutely fine when I am asleep and when I first wake up. I have sweats during the night, but no shaking. When I wake up I have no shaking. Then after I am up and walking around a bit - the shaking usually begins. And it lasts continuously for most of the day. Toward late in the evening, around 9 to 10 pm - it usually either lessens a great deal, or goes away. Then it comes back the next day after I am up for a while. The one day when I fasted from 8pm on, in order to have my blood work done, I didn't have it at all. I felt pretty good in fact until we stopped at a restaurant for lunch and I had a steak. Then I got very tired - but still no shaking. Just extremely tired. Go figure, maybe I have to stop eating. Usually, though, if I skip breakfast and don't eat, the shaking is much worse. It used to be that I would wake up, walk around, begin to shake, take Xanax and it would make it go away. But Xanax isn't doing that for me anymore.
I take my blood pressure meds and Inderal before I go to bed. I am now wondering if the shaking lessens and goes away in the evening because those meds are wearing off, and then I take them and start it all up again.
Sandi
Jools
Jul 7 2001, 06:43 AM
I also get the internal (infernal!) shaking. But I use progesterone cream, and although I still shake a lot of the time - it truly doesn't bother me any more. I think it's because the cream has calmed me down, and I can now accept that it's not my heart, or a disease, but is some strange manifestaion of meno and can be safely lived with. I was also terrible strung up about my eyesight, numb skin etc., and all that has become less worrisome.At the risk of sounding like a salesperson (!), I do honestly think you could try the cream to see if it would help you. It really has helped me so much,HugsJools xxxxxx
maggie
Jul 7 2001, 09:55 AM
hello Jools... Did you mean for me to try the progesterone cream? Can you buy it without a prescription? I will try anything except chemical tranquilizers.. Is it safe? I long to be in the place you are where you KNOW that it is the darned meno and you can tell the shakes to do their worst 'cos they don't scare you any more. Its just that it scares me to death and I am afraid that I am losing my mind and I will spin off into somedistant place in my mind . Then it all comes back to normal till the next time... UGGGGH! It really does make me feel so lonely......Thanks everyone and Dearest How incredible is she!!!!!Love always MAGGIE>>XXXXXXXXXX
SanMarie
Jul 7 2001, 11:31 AM
Jools,I was going to ask the same question - the progesterone cream - that is a prescription correct? Also, tell me about your eyesight. I must have missed that somewhere. I am having trouble as well - not consistently - off and on. I have read that people use bi-est cream (I think that is what it was). This is prescription too isn't it? If I have to do hormones I would prefer to use the ones you rub in.I am also wondering if dwelling on this symptom is making it worse. I can't figure out why in the evening it stops. I thought it might be because I take my dyazide (blood pressure) and Inderal (for migraines) before I go to bed. And that it stops at night because those two drugs are wearing off. So I didn't take it last night. Still have the shakes today. So I guess that wasn't it.Sandi
Jools
Jul 7 2001, 06:46 PM
Hello Maggie and Sanmarie! You could be me a few months ago, when I used to regularly post here BEGGING for support and help (and I always got it from the wonderful souls on this board). Yes, I have had problems with my eyesight - hard to describe but pick one of the following: feels like I am looking through a mist - as if I've got greasy eyeballs - colours look distorted - supermarket lights do my head in - things look as if they are in a dream....sort of hard to describe really!!!!The cream cannot be bought over the counter in the UK or canada, but I believe it can be bought in the USA easily enough. Try and get a cream that contains at least 900mg of progesterone per 2oz jar or tube. Follow the instructions on the jar or tube or post under the 'progesterone' board and we 'users' will help you all we can! It is COMPLETELY safe, and whatever else it does or doesn't do, it certainly seems to help the vast majority of women with anxiety. I have not had a panic attack since about the third week of using it, and I am MUCH calmer. All my symptoms (and believe me I had them ALL) are either gone, eased, or I don't worry about them anyway.If you need more confirmation, ask on the progesterone board about its calming effects and I think you'll get lots of positive replies. If you are on HRT already, you will have to stop the progestin element at least, and preferably the estrogen as well. If you're not on HRT then just slap it on straight away! You could ask on the other board for brands that other people use, to see which is most common. I use one I get from South Africa, but I have used Serenity which I believe you can buy in the USA and seemed fine.Once you feel calmer and not so scared, I think you may find it easier to cope with your shaking and other horrible symptoms. You have all my love and sympathy, because I know exactly what it feels like to lay awake scared and begging for it all to stop. I really never thought I would feel any better, and I thank my stars every day for the support I found here and the fact that I came through and discovered that I AM okay. And so will you be - as soon as we have helped you find a way to feel calmer.Good luck and keep in touch - you are never alone; we are always here to support you,hugsJools xxxxxxxxx
Dearest
Jul 8 2001, 04:21 PM
Maggie, Jools doesn't mean to be telling you to use progesterone cream. She is sharng *her* experience with it.
Power Surge wishes to remind any woman using HRT who wishes to make changes to the modality, or get off HRT, to see her doctor before making changes of that nature.
I must comment on the statement regarding progesterone cream: "It is COMPLETELY safe, and whatever else it does or doesn't do, it certainly seems to help the vast majority of women with anxiety."
That's a bit of a sweeping statment about what helps the "the vast majority of women." Women who frequent the progesterone board exclaiming their success with it do not qualify as the "vast majority of women" who have tried it. They only represent the women who frequent that board.
I tried many brands of NP cream and had no reaction to it at all. I tried in my early perimenopausal days/years and during the throes of perimenopause. It didn't help my symptoms, although I don't think it was a waste of time to use it for a while. I have communicated with thousands of other women who've either had no reaction to the creams after trying them for months and many who've experienced depression, irritability and more anxiety from using natural progesterone cream.
Bear in mind that every woman is different -- different chemistry, different physiology, different health history, different allergies, hence, different reactions to various methods of treatment.
What works for one person may not be what works for you.
Case in point, I asked my doctor about the Clonazepam / Klonopin some women had successfully used to treat internal shaking on this board. I will post later about my experience yesterday and today with Clonazepam. It wasn't a positive experience.
There are various levels of internal shaking and/or anxiety -- sometimes so severe that they aren't likely to be impacted by over the counter progesterone creams.
Please remember that what we are doing here is sharing *our* personal experiences. Everyone on these boards has a story to share. That's what this is all about. However, everyone reading these boards is educating herself -- garnering all the information she can to make educated choices for her own healthcare. No one can tell another woman what product will work for her, or that she can't help but have success with what she's using because no woman knows how another person will react to the same product.
The notion that a woman can "slap on the cream" and feel better and/or not as fearful is a bit extreme. It concerns me for those women who won't have the same positive reaction to those raving about a product, or perhaps are having a more intense experience of internal shaking than others.
Were it so that this cream could help every woman's peri or postmenopausal symptoms, every woman would be using it.
Would it were so that these things were so simply resolved. The severity of internal shaking some women experience during peri and postmenopause often requires more serious treatment.
SanMarie
Jul 8 2001, 04:44 PM
Dearest,The scary thing for me is that my doctor doesn't even recognize this as a symptom of meno. So how is she even going to begin to help me? I have never felt so low as I do today. Everyday I wake up hoping that the changes I am making are going to help. But they aren't. And my husband just came right out and said that I am using this shaking as an excuse not to do anything but sit around. Sometime I literally feel like my legs are going to collapse if I walk around. They don't, but this is so uncomfortable. I just want to sleep so I don't have to feel it. I can't stand it anymore.Sandi
carole
Jul 8 2001, 07:18 PM
Gosh Sandi I am sorry you are feeling so awful and struggling with this. I DO understand how you feel and it just feels like all this will go on forever. It can make you feel this has totally taken over and ruined your life. Its got to get somehow.....sorry I can't offer a bunch of answers..I'm in the same damn boat

but you are not alone, hope that helps. Sorry your hubby is not supportive as he could be, mine has been supportive in thsi are, but he is not in other areas so I know the resentment.
Dearest
Jul 8 2001, 08:08 PM
Sandi, perhaps you should print out the messages on this board for your doctor so she'lll "recognize this as a symptom of meno." Can't be we're all making it up.
"And my husband just came right out and said that I am using this shaking as an excuse not to do anything but sit around."
Sandi, that's wrong for your husband to say. Some people don't understand. The last thing any of us need when we're not feeling well is to have someone 1) not believe us, 2) make us feel as though we have to give excuses for our behavior or how we feel and 3) try to make us feel guilty about not feeling well when it's not our fault.
I understand how you feel. The internal shaking we've endured is awful. Obviously, it's a major issue for many others because this board is so active. Sandi, you must keep trying to find something that will help -- some way to cope with it. I know it's very difficult, believe me, but there has to be something out there that can help -- even if only to get you over the hump of the shaking until you're finished with menopause.
I had a spell I went through last year with internal shaking and/or tremors. I went to the emergency room a couple of times, and went to a clinic a few times also. My doctor had me tested for low blood sugar (hypoglycemia), but another doctor told me it wasn't. Along with these tremors, I had some weirdfeelings, felt like I was going to pass out, weak, when I would get up to walk, lost alot of my motor skills, etc.They have since passed, but I really was scared and the doctors never really could tell me what caused them.
Jools
Jul 9 2001, 04:46 AM
Dearest - I take your point re the cream, I am a bit over enthusiastic about it because it has helped me, and so I am keen to share my experience with everyone else!But of course, everyone must be guided by their doctors, and use what helps them.
Dearest
Jul 9 2001, 07:01 AM
"Again I am one that has to stay off of chocolate and I am having a hard time w / this.AuntB, boy, can I relate to what you say about staying away from chocolate. I, too, am having a hard time with it, but keep coming to the same conclusion over and over again -- that sweets are poison for me. Sugar seems to set off a chain of events, from palpitations to internal shaking, yet as much as my body suffers from the sugar, it still craves it -- albeit to a lesser degree this week. I still believe that sugar plays a big part in many of our internal shaking issues.
Dearest
Jul 9 2001, 01:24 PM
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Quote: from Jools on 4:46 am on July 9, 2001[br]Dearest - I take your point re the cream, I am a bit over enthusiastic about it because it has helped me, and so I am keen to share my experience with everyone else!But of course, everyone must be guided by their doctors, and use what helps them.
I understand, Jools, but in the final analsysis, I am responsible for this site and the information imparted, although I can't be held responsible for what every person posts. However, I feel I must always caution women that no two people react the same way to the same method of treatment. A perfect example of this can be found in my message on the Anxiety / Clonazempam board.
We try. We keep trying. Hopefully, we find what works for us.
SanMarie
Jul 9 2001, 10:29 PM
Hi Everyone, Well, I finally broke today and contacted my regular physician - after sitting on the couch last night thinking it might be better just to take all my Xanax and go to sleep. In fact, I faxed him with a bunch of questions, my blood work results from my OB-GYN, my symptoms, and all about this internal trembling. He contacted me and we discussed it and he prescribed FenHRT. Has anyone heard of or taken this HRT? I have it sitting in front of me and I am afraid to take it. It seems ridiculous, but when you read the things it could cause, it gets as scary as the trembling itself. I especially don't like the part about blood clots. Geez - I don't know what to do. He said he recommended either Prempro or FenHRT and this one had less break-thru bleeding than Prempro - but both were fine. I don't know how fine things are that carry so many scary risks though.
If anyone is taking over-the-counter soy products and isn't having a lot of success with it - don't worry as much as I did about it. I thought for sure it wasn't working because my problem must be something more serious (like meno symptoms aren't serious). But my doctor said that the over-the-counter soy products (which he stated should be discussed with your physician before taking them) work best for people with mild symptoms. He said that it is relative to a person with a very bad migraine taking a baby aspirin to get rid of it.
He also said that if I take the HRT he prescribed and the trembling doesn't get better in 2 months, I will be tested for Parkinsons. :-( He doesn't think it is that though because people have not noticed me physically shaking on the outside, and I haven't had any trouble writing or typing or navigating. And even then, he said, it wouldn't necessarily be Parkinsons.
He did tell me that he HAS heard of internal trembling as a symptom of meno. He said that menopause changes your chemistry so much, especially if you just stop your periods abruptly (which I did), that there are so many different symptoms that can occur that he can understand how frightening it is for a woman going thru it.
Would be interested to hear from anyone taking or having heard of FenHRT. He said he isn't prescribing it long term - just short term to get me over this hump. What do you think?
Sandi
Carol S from PA
Jul 10 2001, 08:04 AM
Sandi: Hi. I really hope you find relief. I have to disagree with your doctor's opinion of soy. I had anxiety and panic attacks almost every day during peri. I did take Prempo, and those symptoms stopped. Your doctor is right about the Prempo, it caused bleeding every 10 days, complete with terrible cramps, headaches, muscle aches, etc. Therefore, I stopped it. Then I decided to give Revival a try. It took 3-4 weeks before I noticed any change, but Revival exercise, vitamins, and deep breathing breathing/meditation had the same affect as the Prempo; only without all of the ugly symptoms or HRT. I know we are all different, and I know you are desperately searching for relief from all of these awful symptoms, but I had to let others know my experience. I truly hope you find relief, Sandi, through HRT, natural, etc. You say you're scared to take the HRT your doctor prescribed. Have you tried soy? Would you consider Bi-est, progesterone cream, etc. before taking the one your doctor gave you? I'm surprised to hear that your doctor even recognized any symptoms of meno, but I am convinced that if it doesn't come from a drug company, they do not think it has any validity. Good luck to you, Sandi. I hope you find your relief.
fiona
Jul 10 2001, 08:15 AM
Hello everyone,boy, I havnt posted for a few days as I was feeling pretty awful and only just scraping through work, the kids etc... and I just had to get back to the board to hear from some others who are going through the same things. Everyone seems to have similar things happening, I too have been shaky for a few days now and had to take some medication to get me through.
As I posted earlier I take a completely different type of medication and it helps but doesnt take it away entirely, just smothers it a bit.
I am still a bit confused as I have said before, I have had the shaky thing for 2 years in October but I have regular periods and even fell pregnant (even though it did not progress past 6 weeks) and I am 41. So why the meno symptoms???
Anyway, I can relate to all of you in many ways, the eye problems, my eyeballs feel tight. The terrible cold I get before a shaky attack, the fear, the panic, the feelings of dread, the heart palps, pains in the chest, tingling face and feeling like I cant breathe. Wierd thoughts and a fog over my brain. What we go through.
I think sometimes you have to make your family understand that this is a real thing and you need their support. It did take a while for mine to understand that I couldnt drive or go here or there when I had a bad day. My husband had to come home from work and drive the kids to school and me to work and then pick us all up because I couldnt drive when it was really bad. Why would any of us make this up!!!! Who would want to sit around and do nothing when theres such a great world out there. Keep trying to explain to them.
Anyway, I wish you all well. I wish I had the magic cure but am just learning what works by trial and error. If only we knew what was really wrong in the first place we could work on fixing it. I for one like Sandi's idea of the questionaire to try and find common things. Does anyone else have Hep C. I contracted it from a transfusion after childbirth and the doctors often blame that. But I have had it for years and I am not convinced that that is the problem.
Love to you all, think positive and trust that you are not going mad. I know I'm not even if it feels that way sometimes.
Fiona
SanMarie
Jul 10 2001, 10:58 AM
Carol,
Are bi-est and progesterone creams prescription? I plan to call my OB-GYN and talk to her today. It was my family physician that gave me the FenHrt. I sat looking at it all evening, but haven't taken any yet. I read the packet insert and I hate the side effects. I suffered from horrible migraines until I started on Inderal. Now that I am free from them I certainly don't want to start them up again with this HRT. Plus I have one breast full of fibroid cysts and a fibroid cyst on my ovary. If the HRT can make them worse, then I am not to fond of that idea either. I think my doctor is just trying to break the chain over symptoms with the FenHrt. I don't think he is thinking of it for me for an extended period of time. I woke up and felt horrible again today. Then I got out of bed, got down on my knees, and prayed for God to heal me and give me guidance to make myself better, and to be able to help other people as well. I am feeling a little better now. I am trying to feel more in control. When I feel out of control the symptoms seem to increase and take over and run my life.
I have been taking soy in the form of an over-the-counter med called Healthy Woman. My OB-GYN recommended it. Although when she did she told me it probably wouldn't help. Isn't that a good thing to tell someone? I haven't noticed any difference, but I have only been taking it for 2 weeks.
Carol, please let me know about the bi-est and the progesterone cream. Even if it isn't prescription - I won't take anything without talking to my doctor first. I don't want any more symptoms to deal with than I already have. I like the idea of rubbing something on instead of taking a med.
Fiona, I haven't had Hep C. I started my periods when I was 8. Was pregnant 4 times, had 2 children, one at 20 and one at 23. I had periods every 35 days that stopped 3 months ago. Was on a birth control pill for about 1 week and it made my breasts hurt so bad I never took it again. Used barrier methods, rhythm, and prayer. :-) Have panic disorder - take Xanax (since 1985). Take Inderal to control migraines. Have a lot of gastrointestinal problems. Rheumatoid arthritis. Slight high blood pressure (take dyazide). Have poor eating habits - which I am trying to change. Anyone see anything that sounds familiar?
Thanks.Sandi
Aunt B
Jul 10 2001, 11:24 AM
What is Vertigo?
SanMarie
Jul 11 2001, 11:34 PM
Hi Aunt B,
Here is a definition I found on the net:Vertigo and dizziness are symptoms linked to a variety of inner ear disturbances and other systemic illness. The sensation of dizziness is frequently accompaniedby other symptoms, such as unsteadiness, lightheadedness, oscillation of the environment, anxiety, nausea, etc.
Now I have to tell you my experience with vertigo and dizziness. A few years back several secretaries that worked in the same company as me (that is what I used to do) got vertigo symptoms that wouldn't go away. We all went to doctors, some had MRI's, etc. and nothing was found. It lasted a long time and we were all scared. It was hard to deal with. We were all about the same age. No one ever found out why we got it, and then it just went away.
I found two things that helped me during this time. Xanax helped reduce the dizziness, and dunking a Q-Tip in alcohol and dripping a little of the alcohol into my ears to dry them often cleared it up.
Of course, you should contact your doctor about any symptoms like this. You could have an inner ear infection - that is the most common cause of vertigo. And if they don't find any reason, don't panic, no one found a reason for mine. There are meds to help though.
Hope this helped you in some way.Sandi
SanMarie
Jul 11 2001, 11:51 PM
Okay everyone - here is an update.....
I told you I got down on my knees the other day and right after I posted the trembling went away. I got down there and prayed again today and still no return of the trembling. Just have to think that isn't a coincidence. I told him - he was the only one that could help me - and he did. :biggrin: And those HRT's are still in the container and I haven't taken even one.
Also, I was talking to someone today who had the trembling and was told to take the antacid TUMS. For some reason the calcium, etc. takes the trembling away. It probably is worth a try - I don't see how it could hurt you. Just don't take heaps of it.
Sandi
Aunt B
Jul 12 2001, 07:00 PM
San Marie,I am not having a good day or week as a matter of fact. Symptoms of all kinds and they are driving me nuts. To top it off my husband wants to rebuild and I am not interested. Can you imagine a woman not wanting new home and all. Jeez :biggrin:
And then my son wants to join the marines. I cried yesterday half a day and today I have not stopped.
I am doing my yoga and am walking and of course I pray. But I think I need to do as you did. Get down and really pray. There is a difference.
I was feeling good for a while, but now, my goodness I am about nuts. :shocked: :cheesy:
And as far as the internal shaking - it is all over my body (I mean inside my body). Everywhere. I even feel the shaking in my lips.
Thanks for the tip Sandi. We need to be reminded every now and then. :smile:
maggie
Jul 15 2001, 05:13 AM
Hello everyone again. I'm so miserable ! After all my attempts to bring the shaking monster under control I am still no better off. What has complicated things now is that I'm having terrible panic attacks where I really feel as if I am losing control. We have a specialist Trust here called "The Amarant Trust and they deal with all aspects of the menopause and HRT. They have helplines and clinics-- though in London-- I rang them in a moment of despair and they said that internal shaking is definitely caused by the menopause. To qualify thatthe falling hormones cause anxiety which in turn cause the shaking in the nerve endings because excess adrenaline has been secreted and there is no work for it to do. Can anyone tell me please, that if you do nothing but go with the flow during this change will the symptoms eventually subside? Also will panic attacks and anxiety eventually cause damage to the heart or the nervous system? Though I said I wouldn't I have started to take my HRT again. Does anyone know if this combination( Oestrogen 2mg Progesterone5mg can make anxiety worse. I have been told to take it for three months to test it out fully but I think I will be outy of it i.e. nuts by then. I have said this so many times before it would be so good to meet or talk one to one with someone who has the same symptoms. Anyone in the U.K. preferably England willing to give it a go? I still battle with my yoga, breathing techniques, prayer(do feel so let down and abandoned)homeopathy etc... but I feel such a lonely mess.. Think of you all often and pray we will all be back to our old selves soon.. LOL MAGGIEXXXXXXXXXXXXX
SanMarie
Jul 15 2001, 09:36 AM
Maggie,
Don't feel abandoned with your praying. When you pray you have to believe that what you asked for will be done. That is what I have done and it has helped tremendously. It is almost like I have given my burden of this to someone else and I am letting them take care of it. It has taken such a load off of me.
My shaking hasn't totally disappeared. When it starts up I think that God must be testing my faith and I look up and say "Okay - I know you are going to stop this again - right?" and it goes away pretty quickly. I think that I was totally dwelling on it before. And, I have found that chewing a couple of Tums does take it away (during the times when God is a little too busy).
Since I have stopped trying to be in control of the shaking it has diminished almost entirely. I still haven't touched my HRT's that were prescribed for me. I know myself well, and I know that something with so many side effects would scare me and cause me to have more problems mentally. But I know a lot of women on them and they make them feel absolutely great. So I am not saying that I will never take them.
No Maggie, panic attacks will not hurt your heart. I asked that over and over again when I was racing to the emergency room. I have had them since 1985. Not too long ago they were horrible. Now that I have decided to remain calmer, they have subsided greatly too. I can't believe how much I have decreased my Xanax intake lately (gradually).
Hang in their Maggie. It will get better. I am praying for you too. When it happens - try not to control it to stop - I think that makes it worse. I think our minds are playing a big role in this. Not that we are making up the symptoms - but we are trying to stop them as soon as we feel them - and then we panic - making them worse.
Am I babbling? I feel like it. I am not in the UK Maggie, but I think about you very often - so know that even though we can't talk on the phone - I am with you in spirit.
Sandi
maggie
Jul 15 2001, 12:23 PM
Thanks Sandi for getting back to me so fast. Sometimes when there is no posting on the board I get sad because I think I am the only one stuck in a rut and all the rest of you have got better and are where you should be enjoying your families at the weekend. You are right about the hormones. I have only taken three this time but already it is playing on my mind and I think the body should figure this thing out itself and when I do come off them My body is going to start all over again with the menopause symptoms.There are about two times in the day when I have the shakes: first thing in the morning and then around 5p.m. As you say I'm sure our minds play a huge part in expecting the course of the symptoms to run along certain lines. If I could only have someone to turn to to reassure me through the shakey/panics I feel I would be O>K>I have prayed' pleaded and begged and I don't seem to get any strength. I rang another helpline today, obviously an anti hrt group, and she told me that hrt CAUSES anxiety states and one woman on their database actually committed suicide after one week on it! What are we to believe? Its a real minefield out there in menopause land. IJUST WANT TO BE BETTER!!! Itseems such a tall order. I must go now. I am supposed to be going away on business for the next three days and I am so scared of having attacks in public and people will think I'm crazy.. Bye for now and I'm so very pleased you are getting better Sandi..
LOV TUNS>>>>maggiexxxxxxxxxx
Jools
Jul 15 2001, 12:50 PM
Maggie - we definitely will not damage our hearts or any other part of our bodies through anxiety and panic, even though it feels as though we must! The heart is a muscle, and actually BENEFITS from the exercise that a bout of pounding heart brings it! Anxiety and panic are horrible - I know because I've been there and still go there sometimes (like the other day, zooming along the motorway- sudden blinding panic and such peculiar feelings that I really thought I would have to pull in to the hard shoulder. But, it did pass...) Have you read 'Help and Hope for Your Nerves' by Dr Claire Weeks? In fact, any of her books are excellent and very reassuring. Also, Brownwen Fox has written a terrific book - she was interviewed on Power Surge so you might find the transcript.Lots of people find that HRT really does help them a lot; some people feel the 'dangers' are rather exaggerated! Perhaps you could try it for 6 months and see how you feel? Your GP is obviously keeping a close eye on you, so you could perhaps tell him of your fears and see what he says?I live in the UK - if you would like to email me, I would be very happy to keep in touch!HugsJools x
Aunt B
Jul 15 2001, 01:21 PM
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Quote: from maggie on 1:23 pm on July 15, 2001[br]Thanks Sandi for getting back to me so fast. Sometimes when there is no posting on the board I get sad because I think I am the only one stuck in a rut and all the rest of you have got better and are where you should be enjoying your families at the weekend. You are right about the hormones. I have only taken three this time but already it is playing on my mind and I think the body should figure this thing out itself and when I do come off them My body is going to start all over again with the menopause symptoms.There are about two times in the day when I have the shakes: first thing in the morning and then around 5p.m. As you say I'm sure our minds play a huge part in expecting the course of the symptoms to run along certain lines. If I could only have someone to turn to to reassure me through the shakey/panics I feel I would be O>K>I have prayed' pleaded and begged and I don't seem to get any strength. I rang another helpline today, obviously an anti hrt group, and she told me that hrt CAUSES anxiety states and one woman on their database actually committed suicide after one week on it! What are we to believe? Its a real minefield out there in menopause land. IJUST WANT TO BE BETTER!!! Itseems such a tall order. I must go now. I am supposed to be going away on business for the next three days and I am so scared of having attacks in public and people will think I'm crazy.. Bye for now and I'm so very pleased you are getting better Sandi..
LOV TUNS>>>>maggiexxxxxxxxxx
Oh Maggie,
You sound so much like me. These panic attacks are horrible. Remember this that you are the only one that get you out of them because you are the one who started them. I am the same way.
Prayer does help tremendously. We women have so many symptoms in meno no wonder we lose our minds from time to time.
I have stopped crying today but, I still feel so alone in this. Like no one understands.
I am afraid to take any kind of medication. OUr mothers went through meno with no meds. I am like everyone else. After reading all of the side effects who wants to take them. Jeez!!! :biggrin:
We just have to help each other Maggie. I do hope we all get better soon.
Huggs!!!!!
SanMarie
Jul 15 2001, 01:42 PM
This is such a rollercoaster ride isn't it? On good days we are trying to help and on bad days we are looking for the help, feeling like we will never have a good day again. Geez, I am surprised we aren't all just nuts. Or, are we, and we don't know it.
I mean really.....doesn't this sound nuts?....I have been walking around with my HRT's in my pocket since I got them. Well, why I am I doing that? I am not taking them. I am even afraid of them. Is this some particular security blanket for me? They are right in there with my aspirin that I always keep around - just in case that heart attack happens (I feel like the guy on Sanford and Sons). And my prescripton of Xanax. Now, I have begun to carry water around (just in case I have to take those aspirin in a hurry). Not to mention the cell phone. Geez - I need a backpack for all the stuff I think I have to keep close.
Also, does anyone know why I am getting about 40 copies of every post sent to my email? Is it a plot to make me think I am even more crazy than I already think I am? I keep thinking I am very popular when I see over 100 emails downloading but when I look there are actually only two that are the same - the rest are duplicates (laughing).
I am trying to look at this like this. If I had a pounding migraine I would understand why my head is throbbing, and although I would hate the pain, I would not be afraid of it. So, when I am shaking, I tell myself, this is something your hormones are doing to you. I hate it, but I am trying not to be afraid of it - which I think is lessening it. I started to shake in the store the other day and, outloud, I told myself - "No you don't. You aren't going there right now. You have too much to do." It actually went away. And so did all of the people standing around me watching me have this conversation - very quickly I might add - lol.
Take care ladies. When we are all better and we can laugh at this (please God make that soon) I hope that we will all stay in touch. This is an important time of our lives to be sharing with each other. Only each of us knows how the other person is actually feeling, because we have felt it ourselves. God bless us, each and every one.
Sandi
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