It was a very welcome cool morning this morning! I thought, "What a great time to be getting some work done around the house." I still have tons of junk that I need to get rid of after closing my business down. I arranged for someone who could use my junk to come pick it up today. I did little more than supervise the exchange of items, while the ladies (who btw are a few years OLDER than me) did all the physical labor. When I did lift a few boxes, I began huffing and puffing and I could NOT keep up as we walked together to the van. I began POURING sweat and I felt like I was literally on fire!
After they left I sat down and as the water pouring off my body began to cool, I began to feel like an ice cube!
I needed to straighten up the few boxes that were left, but as I began thinking about it, the anxiety hit me like a brick wall and I was not able to do it. They were here only a very short hour, but I felt like I had been run through a grinder! I took 1/2 of an Ativan, sat down on the sofa and drifted off to sleep.
I am 50 years old and I cannot deal with even the smallest amount of stress anymore, when I use to thrive on it! Stress was my motivator, now it stops me dead in my tracks!
What am I to do??
Full Version: Exertion/Hot Flashes/Anxiety
QUOTE (TidalWaves @ Mar 17 2009, 09:19 PM) 
After they left I sat down and as the water pouring off my body began to cool, I began to feel like an ice cube!
I needed to straighten up the few boxes that were left, but as I began thinking about it, the anxiety hit me like a brick wall and I was not able to do it. They were here only a very short hour, but I felt like I had been run through a grinder! I took 1/2 of an Ativan, sat down on the sofa and drifted off to sleep.
I am 50 years old and I cannot deal with even the smallest amount of stress anymore, when I use to thrive on it! Stress was my motivator, now it stops me dead in my tracks!
What am I to do??
I needed to straighten up the few boxes that were left, but as I began thinking about it, the anxiety hit me like a brick wall and I was not able to do it. They were here only a very short hour, but I felt like I had been run through a grinder! I took 1/2 of an Ativan, sat down on the sofa and drifted off to sleep.
I am 50 years old and I cannot deal with even the smallest amount of stress anymore, when I use to thrive on it! Stress was my motivator, now it stops me dead in my tracks!
What am I to do??
Oh Bev,
The same thing happened to me more or less and I posted about it a few weeks ago - dont know if you saw it? I cleaned my bathrom and kitchen floor and ran upstairs afterwards and ripped all my clothes off LOL! I flung the bedroom windows open and switched the fan on. I was also panicking... I was feeling very disorientated, and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I too took some ativan - It took me an hour to calm down but I was left feeling very sleepy and exhausted afterwards. I felt like a furnace to begin with and felt cold to the bone after it was all over. I laugh about it now but it wasn't funny at the time. I felt ill. I was always a very active person so it's very hard for me to accept that I need to slow down until things get better. I am such a stubborn person. Thats saying it politely! Hang in there darlin'!
QUOTE (EveningPrimrose @ Mar 17 2009, 04:29 PM)
Oh Bev,
The same thing happened to me more or less and I posted about it a few weeks ago - dont know if you saw it? I cleaned my bathrom and kitchen floor and ran upstairs afterwards and ripped all my clothes off LOL! I flung the bedroom windows open and switched the fan on. I was also panicking... I was feeling very disorientated, and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I too took some ativan - It took me an hour to calm down but I was left feeling very sleepy and exhausted afterwards. I felt like a furnace to begin with and felt cold to the bone after it was all over. I laugh about it now but it wasn't funny at the time. I felt ill. I was always a very active person so it's very hard for me to accept that I need to slow down until things get better. I am such a stubborn person. Thats saying it politely! Hang in there darlin'!
The same thing happened to me more or less and I posted about it a few weeks ago - dont know if you saw it? I cleaned my bathrom and kitchen floor and ran upstairs afterwards and ripped all my clothes off LOL! I flung the bedroom windows open and switched the fan on. I was also panicking... I was feeling very disorientated, and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I too took some ativan - It took me an hour to calm down but I was left feeling very sleepy and exhausted afterwards. I felt like a furnace to begin with and felt cold to the bone after it was all over. I laugh about it now but it wasn't funny at the time. I felt ill. I was always a very active person so it's very hard for me to accept that I need to slow down until things get better. I am such a stubborn person. Thats saying it politely! Hang in there darlin'!
EP, Even though I am doing so much better since starting the AD's, I am still not where I want to be. I am not struggling with suicidal thoughts and the obsessive thoughts are at a minimum. I do not feel as though I NEED to hurt someone, (mainly myself), but I get such horrid anxiety when I have to do anything that I don't want to do. I have always been the type to just GET IT DONE!! I could not rest until it was finished! I always had to be planning and working on a project or something. I could never watch tv or "waste" time doing anything that was not constructive. I am completely and totally the opposite now! I'm not complaining too much about it. I'd just like to be ABLE to do it when it HAS to be done......like NOW, when I'm trying to get ready for my family to visit. I am hoping this will pass, but it seems that no amount of down time is lighting that fire that I need under me
to get me moving.
DANG IT!!!!
QUOTE (TidalWaves @ Mar 17 2009, 07:42 PM)
but I get such horrid anxiety when I have to do anything that I don't want to do. I have always been the type to just GET IT DONE!!
I feel the same way TW, I just can't cope with that additional pressure anymore. I loathe going to work even though I love my clients but the demands of beautifying them is just getting too much, I feel I've lost my mojo
. My daughter has an entire school trip to the capital city which is over 2 hours drive away next week and I really want to go but I don't think I can cope with a full on day of an entire school of kids it's just too much to bear, but I don't want to disappoint her yet again, she really wants me to go. We have to be at school by 7am and won't be home till 5pm but the thought of being around all those people the day my period is due is just too daunting. What if I panic, what if I can't cope, what if, what if, the thought's just go on and on. At least we'll be going on a bus so I can take my MP3 and zone out with my relaxation music or maybe some hard core rock depending on my mood
. Oh decisions decisions I just can't seem to make one and stick with it, what's with that, I used to be so capable and in control and organised and now I'm useless to say the least
QUOTE (roxursox @ Mar 17 2009, 05:56 PM)
I feel the same way TW, I just can't cope with that additional pressure anymore. I loathe going to work even though I love my clients but the demands of beautifying them is just getting too much, I feel I've lost my mojo .
My daughter has an entire school trip to the capital city which is over 2 hours drive away next week and I really want to go but I don't think I can cope with a full on day of an entire school of kids it's just too much to bear, but I don't want to disappoint her yet again, she really wants me to go. We have to be at school by 7am and won't be home till 5pm but the thought of being around all those people the day my period is due is just too daunting. What if I panic, what if I can't cope, what if, what if, the thought's just go on and on. At least we'll be going on a bus so I can take my MP3 and zone out with my relaxation music or maybe some hard core rock depending on my mood . Oh decisions decisions I just can't seem to make one and stick with it, what's with that, I used to be so capable and in control and organised and now I'm useless to say the least
. My daughter has an entire school trip to the capital city which is over 2 hours drive away next week and I really want to go but I don't think I can cope with a full on day of an entire school of kids it's just too much to bear, but I don't want to disappoint her yet again, she really wants me to go. We have to be at school by 7am and won't be home till 5pm but the thought of being around all those people the day my period is due is just too daunting. What if I panic, what if I can't cope, what if, what if, the thought's just go on and on. At least we'll be going on a bus so I can take my MP3 and zone out with my relaxation music or maybe some hard core rock depending on my mood
. Oh decisions decisions I just can't seem to make one and stick with it, what's with that, I used to be so capable and in control and organised and now I'm useless to say the least Ya know, Rox, you reminded me of a time when we were at a New Year's Eve Celebration at a friend's house. It was about a 3 hour trip one way and we were spending the weekend. She had invited EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT SHE HAD EVER KNOWN to drop by anytime of the day and all the way past the midnight hour!
When I couldn't deal with the people any longer, I did exactly as you said. I got my son's MP3 player and found a dark room to sit in. She accused me of being unsociable, but guess what.......I didn't give a big fat monkey's butt! I had socialized all I was able to. Then I ended up finding a bed to lay on and I went off to sleep. I did it because I HAD to. I CANNOT pretend to enjoy something that I don't and I won't.
It would be very nice for you to go with your daughter. Might even be a welcome reprieve for you too. Just do what you have to do so YOU can enjoy the trip too.
Let us know how it goes.
I can't even wash dishes anymore without getting overheated. I had to throw my windows open during the last snow storm. There I was standing at the sink in my bra with snow coming through the screen. What a sight! 
A few minutes later, I had to run into the living room and turn up the heat because my teeth were chattering.
This is not funny. I want my old life back!
A few minutes later, I had to run into the living room and turn up the heat because my teeth were chattering.
This is not funny. I want my old life back!
QUOTE (TidalWaves @ Mar 18 2009, 01:19 AM)
It was a very welcome cool morning this morning! I thought, "What a great time to be getting some work done around the house." I still have tons of junk that I need to get rid of after closing my business down. I arranged for someone who could use my junk to come pick it up today. I did little more than supervise the exchange of items, while the ladies (who btw are a few years OLDER than me) did all the physical labor. When I did lift a few boxes, I began huffing and puffing and I could NOT keep up as we walked together to the van. I began POURING sweat and I felt like I was literally on fire!
After they left I sat down and as the water pouring off my body began to cool, I began to feel like an ice cube!
I needed to straighten up the few boxes that were left, but as I began thinking about it, the anxiety hit me like a brick wall and I was not able to do it. They were here only a very short hour, but I felt like I had been run through a grinder! I took 1/2 of an Ativan, sat down on the sofa and drifted off to sleep.
I am 50 years old and I cannot deal with even the smallest amount of stress anymore, when I use to thrive on it! Stress was my motivator, now it stops me dead in my tracks!
What am I to do??
After they left I sat down and as the water pouring off my body began to cool, I began to feel like an ice cube!
I needed to straighten up the few boxes that were left, but as I began thinking about it, the anxiety hit me like a brick wall and I was not able to do it. They were here only a very short hour, but I felt like I had been run through a grinder! I took 1/2 of an Ativan, sat down on the sofa and drifted off to sleep.
I am 50 years old and I cannot deal with even the smallest amount of stress anymore, when I use to thrive on it! Stress was my motivator, now it stops me dead in my tracks!
What am I to do??
Dear TJ
I think you just have to keep your pace a little bit slower,drink lots of fluids and give yourself a small break when needed
Stress never used to get me but it does now and I really do things only when I feel like I can cope.Also avoid being around toxic people"Nag Bags" as I call them.
Anxiety is a real little Devil and I use Xanax when I feel it coming on.It is just amazing how the body and mind feeling it creeping up so stealthily so am now pretty good at nipping it in the bud.
Hope you feel much better soon
Best Wishes
Elizabeth
QUOTE (roxursox @ Mar 18 2009, 02:56 AM)
I feel the same way TW, I just can't cope with that additional pressure anymore. I loathe going to work even though I love my clients but the demands of beautifying them is just getting too much, I feel I've lost my mojo .
My daughter has an entire school trip to the capital city which is over 2 hours drive away next week and I really want to go but I don't think I can cope with a full on day of an entire school of kids it's just too much to bear, but I don't want to disappoint her yet again, she really wants me to go. We have to be at school by 7am and won't be home till 5pm but the thought of being around all those people the day my period is due is just too daunting. What if I panic, what if I can't cope, what if, what if, the thought's just go on and on. At least we'll be going on a bus so I can take my MP3 and zone out with my relaxation music or maybe some hard core rock depending on my mood . Oh decisions decisions I just can't seem to make one and stick with it, what's with that, I used to be so capable and in control and organised and now I'm useless to say the least
. My daughter has an entire school trip to the capital city which is over 2 hours drive away next week and I really want to go but I don't think I can cope with a full on day of an entire school of kids it's just too much to bear, but I don't want to disappoint her yet again, she really wants me to go. We have to be at school by 7am and won't be home till 5pm but the thought of being around all those people the day my period is due is just too daunting. What if I panic, what if I can't cope, what if, what if, the thought's just go on and on. At least we'll be going on a bus so I can take my MP3 and zone out with my relaxation music or maybe some hard core rock depending on my mood
. Oh decisions decisions I just can't seem to make one and stick with it, what's with that, I used to be so capable and in control and organised and now I'm useless to say the least Dear'roxursox'
You are not in the least useless but just not up to the same stresses that we all handled better on days gone by.No way could I survive a day's outing with a bus load of school children.I would have to take a Xanax before boarding the bus and then zone out to soothing music.
This seems to be very important to your daughter so you will get through.Fun? I don't think so!but you will survive. It is great that she wants you to be involved in what you are doing
Let us know how it goes
Warm Wishes
Elizabeth
QUOTE (TidalWaves @ Mar 18 2009, 02:42 AM)
EP, Even though I am doing so much better since starting the AD's, I am still not where I want to be. I am not struggling with suicidal thoughts and the obsessive thoughts are at a minimum. I do not feel as though I NEED to hurt someone, (mainly myself), but I get such horrid anxiety when I have to do anything that I don't want to do. I have always been the type to just GET IT DONE!! I could not rest until it was finished! I always had to be planning and working on a project or something. I could never watch tv or "waste" time doing anything that was not constructive. I am completely and totally the opposite now! I'm not complaining too much about it. I'd just like to be ABLE to do it when it HAS to be done......like NOW, when I'm trying to get ready for my family to visit. I am hoping this will pass, but it seems that no amount of down time is lighting that fire that I need under me
to get me moving.
DANG IT!!!!
to get me moving.
DANG IT!!!!
Dear 'tidal Waves'
You are doing great girl. At least your mind has shut up a little.Have had the thoughts of hurting myself or another so know the torment.
I too have had a hard time relaxing but now am quite content to potter in my pyjamas and promise myself I will tackle it all another day.
Hope the time with your family goes o.k..Is it just a day visit,or are some planning to camp down?Not sure I could handle that!
Good Luck
Elizabeth
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