I have received some of the most priceless advice from the women on this message board so thank you, thank you in advance for the input - I trust you all 100% more than my doctors at this point!
With your suggestion I hammered and insisted and finally GOT a prescription for Climara and Prometrium; 0.025 patch and 100mg of the progesterone. Thing is, after I got the meds I still went to get two other menopause specialist's opinion and they both feel the scripts may be incorrect dosage - I had my hormone levels tested in August of 2008 and now its eight months later... my doctor told me that "I don't go by the tests anyway to prescribe the hormones, I went by what you were telling me your symptoms were." Am I crazy or is that a rather lax way to go about prescribing something as altering as hormones??? I am SO scared to take these and then be more screwed up with bad reactions and side effects from the hormones than if I'd done nothing at all.
The other thing that to me is SO important (thanks to all the suggestions here) I started eating more soy (tofu, soy milk, soy creamer) eating flax seed daily, using creams containing parabens (for the estrogen stuff) and the hot flashes have decreased... is this all in my head?
How can I go a week with virtually no hot flashes or anxiety attacks to today, panic creeping up on me out of nowhere like I'm right back where I was? Is there no remedy to feel sane without taking flipping hormones or anti depressants???
