Today I wore a skirt to work which hits me a few inches above the knee. A white turtle neck blouse and black and white blazer. I topped it off with a pair of knee length boots and coffee colored hose. I looked in the mirror and thought to myself..."Not too shabby."
But when I got to work, my back and legs began to hurt from the high heels. My skin itched from the hose. I kept tugging at my skirt, and taking my jacket on and off as the hot flashes ebbed and flowed.
After spending hours this morning applying my make-up, by lunch time the "newness" and fresh look was gone and I simply looked blotchy and tired.
Where did I go? Not even 10 years ago I was slim, trim and wore heels everywhere. I looked nearly as good at the end of the day as I did at the beginning and I felt so good about myself.
Today, after just a few hours of being "dressed up." I feel irritable and frustrated.
I kept thinking to myself. Where did the "old me" go? Is she here, under all this fat? Why can't I get motivated to even walk on my treadmill? In my mind's eye, I'm still young and attractive, but the mirror tells a different tale altogether.
The sad thing is that not only do I look bad on the outside, my "inside" feels almost as worse.
I think this menopause business is making me bitter.
