After reading my way around PS, I am certain that I've had some misdiagnoses. Along the way, I have become sleep-dependent on librium (20 mg) and Halcion (.25 mg). What a revolting predicament. Now in my 25th year and want OUT.
Here's the question: Have any of you been down this road? How did you end your dependency?
Background: a horrendous situation early 30s put me in serious spin-out. Over a series of weeks, I was diagnosed with (a) clinical depression, then (

bipolar. I now believe it was (a)
situational depression and (

ups and downs of cycling and PMS; the symptoms track with cycle. Anti-depressants never helped, but the above sleep meds
did, taken only at night. I've always been a crummy sleeper and these helped. By early 40s, things got worse but am 100% certain they were from peri. Now in my 50s, I'm still trying to get hormonally balanced but most of all want OFF these drugs for a variety of reasons. I have read that this class of drugs interferes with estrogen metabolism. I do not go near caffeine and have a healthy lifestyle. Otherwise.
Complication: I have lousy bouts with RLS which is exacerbated by valerian, hops, or 5-HTP. Chamomile gives me a rash and a headache.
Take me out behind the barn and shoot me?
I hope someone who's gotten into this psych med vortex can help me out -- literally.
Thank you.