Hello everyone, sylvia here. I am 38years old, have had 3 children my youngest is 2and half. For a few years now I have been experiencing hot flashes, recently I have gone on meds for anxiety and depression and severe disociation at one stage, after my break down (I call it) 8 months ago. I was doing what they call (painting from the source) and I started to experience some weird phenomenon. Felt like I was falling in my head and body, seeing things, like energy moving in the air, my legs felt like they were going to give in and the floor felt like it was moving. Someone told me, it sounded like I was going through a Kundalini awakening. I didnt know what this was, so I read up on it and freaked right out as I read some scarey stories. Anyway, I had hot flushes, seeing flashing lights, this free falling feeling was apparently part of the symptoms of this awakening. I now know that anxiety and panic are also part of these symptoms, and maybe even perimenopause. Sorry to be off topic here, just wanted to talk about my experience. Could I be going through peri menopause? Also am in a world of my own most of the time. I am on meds now for the anxiety and depression, I have never experienced anxiety and depression as bad as this . Also am wondering, what sort of spiritual changes do women go through with peri menopause as the site mentions that it affects women spiritually? By the way I have also developed a phobia of all things being spiritual. sheesh. Cut a long story short, not so sure what has happend to me, I have just not been this down before and havent been the same since my break down.

Thankyou for listening
sylvia

Ps I hope i dont sound like a nut case lol.

I do not think you had an awakening,I think you are having health problems.Having a baby is hard on a woman,I have three also.I started having peri symptoms at age 29-earrly meno runs in my family.It can make you feel numb,detached,all sorts of things.I recomend trying to find more natural ways of dealing with this.I also recomend getting your hormone levels checked.I am on low dose birth control to help my symptoms,I do not take anti depressants,they made me feel so detached and sick.Get out and walk for about 35 minutes every day,make sure you are breathing right,eat healthy and drink plenty of water.forgive me for saying this but be careful of people who try to tell you this some kind of "awakening",they really do not know what they are talking about.As far as spiritual changes,I have gotten closer to GOD during this time,because I needed him so much.I really hope you get some help.GOD-bless

Hi,

I responded on the other thread you began, but want to speak to what you wrote here.

You were experiencing dissociation; some people also refer to this as personality disintegration. It is NORMAL with major depression! Although it feels terrifying, it's part of what we undergo when we have severe stress in our lives that leads to major depression. It's also normal to have a sense that one's balance is off, hence the "free-falling" you're talking about.

With a 2 and 1/2 year-old child, it's possible you're having some postpartum issues. Has your doctor mentioned this?

Do you have a counselor? It will help you to get some good treatment underway. AND to do your best to lower the stressors in your life. I know this isn't easy with small children... It helps to take things one day/moment at a time. Rest when you can.

Also, don't hesitate to ask friends and family for help when you need it. We women are taught to "do it all," and it's no wonder we suffer breakdowns MUCH more often than men!

I understand your concerns about the whole spiritual/Kundalini thing, but I frankly wouldn't give this a moment's thought. Going through major depression is an intense experience, so that makes it "spiritual," I guess, but do keep in mind that people all over the world, in all cultures, experience this. Each has its own way of "explanation." It really doesn't matter - what we are left with is the shakiness that major depression leaves us with, and that's what we have to cope with.

You ARE going to get better. Take your medication; talk with your doc, see a counselor. Slow things WAY DOWN in your life. Focus on the children, and the basics, and let the "big stuff" - including whether or not this is a spiritual event! - deal with itself.

My heart goes out to you. The experience of depression is the hardest thing I have ever been through. Yet again, EVERYTHING YOU MENTION IS "NORMAL" WITH DEPRESSION! Do consider getting Claire Weekes' book, Hope and Help for your Nerves. She mentions all the strange physical and emotional sensations, and helps us know that they are just part of being under severe stress. Hopefully, it will comfort you as it has comforted many of us here.

(((HUGS)))

JJ

Hi and thankyou for your replies. I am seeing a mental health worker, who is also a psychologist, he has helped me immensely. So I am getting treatment. I am slowly rebuilding myself. I have had hot flushes for a few years now, and tremours , shakes etc. I am 38 years old, and am thinking that I may be experiencing peri. I guess it doesnt help because I also have a mental illness (anxiety, ocd, depression). I am not sure about the post natal depression thing, as now my little one, is 2 and half, dont know how long after having a baby, post partum depression continues?


Thats all for now

thankyou all
sylvia

Reproductive hormones can greatly affect mood. You should talk to a gynecologist who has some expertise in hormones.