What on earth do I do now? I am not even going to go into personal details ( 17 yr od son, diabetic husband w/zilch libido, me in menopause). Do any of you ever feel like you will never be human, happy, normal again??????????

I feel like my stress level is out of control, that life is - I don't even know anymore "normal"-what is "normal" anyways????????

I wake up at 4:00am every morning, can't get back to sleep, get up at 6:30, make sure my 17yrd EATS breakfast, go to work, deal with people who HATE going to the dentist and HATE paying their bills, go home, make sure my diabetic husband EATS RIGHT, my 17 yr old son gets listened to and EATS! healthy,
try to exercise and eat right myself, and THEN try to get BALANCE in my life!!!!!!!

I have had a BAD day! I am anxious, I am unhappy and I don't know WHY!!!!!!!!! I feel OLD, UGLY, UNATTRACTIVE and YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK- I have vented. That's all

okayyyyyyyy- I am now crying uncontrobally (spelling???????????) WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?????????? Are we all thinking therapy now??????? Is this NORMAL???????

Hi Scardekat

Wow it sounds like you've had a really bad day. I am sending you a big ((hug)) right now.It sounds like you are taking care of everybody and everything and it's taking a toll on you. I know I've had days where I feel just awful,uunattractive and in your own words just plain yuck.Have you thought about going on an AD. They can work wonders. It also sounds like you need to try and take some time for yourself. As for anxiety when I'm feeling anxious I try to go for a good brisk walk. I hope you are feeling better!

Take care
Tara

Hi Scared:

I am so sorry that you are having such an awful day! (((((((((((scared))))))))))))))

I am having a pretty rough day as well. this head buzzing thing and my head swimming at the same time is for the birds. I take an AD every day but it does not always do the trick. Some days it seems the anxiety and emotional turmoil is more than the AD can handle. I refuse to be bullied completely and go up on the AD amount per day because I guess I am stubborn and figure one of these days it will be over. I am sufferinig in the meantime.

I hope that you are feeling better.

Hugs to you,
Jeaninne

Boy I hear you! My day sounds a bit like yours. My husband is also diabetic , type 2, and I am always on him about eating right. It is a full time job, seems sometimes, preparing meals because I worry that he is eating right.

I hope things are so much better for you tomorow!

Thankyou all for listening. It's the "day after" my meltdown, and even though I woke up at 4:30 AM- seems I am a bit calmer.I don't work Fridays-so guess I'll just tackle the huge load of laundry, and go for a walk-maybe have a bit of a siesta later on.

I am on Effexor-have been for years. And the same, I don't want to up my dose. I get these intense anxiety episodes now and then-so I just want to stay level with the AD.

Thanks for all the hugs-I think the biggest thing is knowing one is not alone in their suffering-they aren't some kind of alien-only one on the planet that has really rough times-and a time when we are supposed to have it "all together" "best years of your life" on and on....................

The "head stuff", Stitchnanny, is my worst symptom of anxiety-you have my sympathy. The feelings of unreality, the dizziness- I can all relate. Mine comes and goes-and guess thats the most important thing to remember-it doesn't last forever-just feels like it! You WILL get better-guantee! Know I'm here for you, too.

I think, sometimes, because I have suffered alot of loss in the past (lost both my parents, and my only brother all to cancer within the past 15 yrs)- I am actually grieving a part of my life that I know will never return. I will not have my regular period anymore, that I had for 30 yrs, I won't have any more children, I never had to watch my weight before & now I have a huge Mcmuffin roll that won't go away, I always felt I could pull myself together in the morning, and the results were pretty good, I used to have a love life----------------------------guess I just give time just like I did with my other grief.

Anyways-Love to all of you Scardekat

Scardekat,

In reading your original post here, I thought this poor woman has toooooo much on her plate!

You are doing so much caregiving! At a time when you yourself need to take things a bit gentler. Working at a job with "needy" people, and then coming home and trying to get everyone to eat and take care of themselves! It's a lot of giving...

Your family is so lucky to have you, but it's essential that you, too, get "fussed over" a bit. Where would they be without you?

(((BIG HUGS)))

JJ