gbrowne: You are not a collection of test results; you are a human being who knows what is giong on with her body better than any laboratory. Your story is all-too familiar; we feel one thing, and the guys/gals in the white coats tell us something different.
They're wrong, plain and simple. Blood and saliva tests show reveal a snapshot of you for
one day; you woud need continuous testing (maybe set up a little tent and sleeping bag at the lab?

) to find out what is really happening. I was told I was "completely post menopausal" and all my symptoms would go away. They did. For exactly 8 weeks. Now I'm having a resurgence. Hot flashes, night sweats, mood swings, and yesterday, a lovely 4 hour window in which I had intense period-like cramping. (No bleeding though.) When I ask my gyn about it, she literally shrugs and says "Anything is possible; your bloodwork says you are all done. Some things we just don't know." At least she is wise enough to admit that she doens't have all the answers.
I'm tempted to end this post here, but I've just got to share one story with you, because it exemplifies how dead-wrong the medical profession can be, and how important it is to believe what our bodies are telling us:
When I was 23 year old (my God I'm twice that age now, how did
that happen?) I started getting awful cramps in my lower left pelvic area. They didn't go away with my period; and they grew worse each day, each week, each month. My gynecologist did a thorough pelvic exam and told me there was abosultely nothing wrong with me. So off I went to see a gastroenterologist...who did not one, but TWO colonoscopies---both 'normal.' Off to a urologist, then an endocrinoligist...well, you get the idea. This was back in the heyday of HMO's and the one I belonged to had ALL the speciliaties in one building, so I basically was seen by every department.
Their conclusion: Nothing wrong with me. Totally normal. All in my head. It was recommended by 4 different doctors, from different specialisties, that I seek a psychiatric consultation, to find out why I "insisted on stating these symptoms existed." Talk about not be validated. The pain got so bad I couldn't lift my left leg to put on my underwear, or climb any stairs. I thought I was going crazy. Remember, I was 23 years old and not as aggressive as I am now. I left doctor after doctor in tears...afraid to speak up for myself.
Until.
On a hunch, I made an appointment with a gynecologist outside of the HMO. I pretended it was my first time seeking help for my symptoms--basically I lied. AND...I gave myself 3 enemas before the pelvic exam and ate nothing for 2 days...so the new doctor could really get a good 'feel'. And guess what he found? An 9 cm tumor on my left ovary that was retro-peritoneal (it was sticking
into my body, which is why it was so hard to detect on previous pelvic exams.) It was growing and interfering with my bowels, my muscles, everything. I was scheduled for surgery 3 days later and had it, and half my ovary, removed. I remember so keenly being wheeled into the operating room and the surgeon bending over me and telling me that "if it looks like cancer, I'm just doing to sew you back and up and we'll have a talk." Luckily, everything was benign.
So much for needing a psychiatrist. I felt so angry and betrayed at all those so-called professionals who told me that there was nothing wrong with me when I knew perfectly well that something was VERY wrong. My husband, at the time, was a doctor at the HMO, and several months after my surgery, we were at some function of some kind. I saw the gastroenterologist who had done the 2 colonscopies...she had been particularly condescending to me---in fact, she had given me this long speech about how young wives, especially doctor's wives, feel neglected and less important than their husbands, so they feel the need to make up dramatic medical symptoms. I marched over to her and told her that she had been wrong; that I had indeed had a tumour, and that I had undergone surgery for it. Her reaction? She looked at me cooley and said "I don't recall your case." And then walked away. GRRRRR!!!!!
You are going to have to take your own health into your own hands...I believe you are in peri-menopause, no matter what the blood tests say. Hang in there, have faith. Luckily, and hopefully, this journey ends at some point...
Thanks for letting me vent...
-Robin