I am not sure if I have ever posted so much...I don't know if things are getting worse or what.Again I am days before a period felt like it was coming the past week or so but nothing. yesterday I get so dizzy/out of it and heavy legged I have to use my walking cane to venture across the house and I am scared. Husband comes home for lunch and I am just balling because I am so scared. I feel like I am falling to the ground, I have had a headache AGAIN for the past 2 days...sometimes throbbing. My husband went to get me Dr Vliets books this morning and i have an appt for BHRT in 3 weeks. I am still baffled that dropping hormones can make me feel this awful...the brain symptoms are most concerning right now my head feels "funny" I feel very out of it and everything is swaying. I drove this morning and stopping and when I did everything kept moving...you know how you get the feeling as if your car is still moving when it is not and neither is anything else? I eyes go out of focus.......I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE HUGS TO ALL MIKKI

Mikki: You poor thing.....it's awful to be sick, but sick and scared is even worse. If it's any consoloation, I've now been up for over 36 hours and have a roaring migraine that hasn't responded to anything I"ve taken. I'm depressed and I feel useless...another day of work lost. I just took a shower and that made me feel a little better, but it seems I always get dizzy spells in the shower. When I step out, I have to hang onto the towel rack...I don't know if it's the hot water, or the blurry vision...

Yesterday I had an ultrasound of my thyroid and I got the tech to break the rules and tell me what she saw. And what she saw was an irregular thyroid, non-homogenous in texture, with possible nodules. I got out of the appointment at 11:30, and was useles.. just came home and cried myself into this throbbing headache I've had since 3:00 in the morning (I was posting here on the boards at that hour...it was like a ghost town...)

I feel like I'm not contributing anything to the world except complaining. Hang in there, sweetie---it's just GOT to get better. Be gentle and easy on yourself....do nice things that make you feel happy. Right now I'm wearing big snuggle pajama's and I'm gong to snuggle in bed with my little doggie. Tomorrow hubby and I leave for a short vacation in Maine, and I'm so afraid I"m going to ruin it by not feeling well.

Don't worry about posting too much...we're here to help each other out and share our experiences...the good, bad and ugly...

Hope you feel better real soon...

Hugs,

Robin

Dear Mikki,

I know how it is to feel horrible. I won't repeat my story--I am the one who suffered from menopausal psychosis--but believe me I empathize with you. In my case, yes, a hormone deficiency made me feel just awful. I was depressed, agitated, anxious, agorophobic, and desperate. Hormone therapy saved my life.

I have learned that there is no such thing as posting too much. You need all the support you can get and this is the place to get it.

I believe that if there was life for me after believing I was dead and talking to imaginary people (just a few of my psychotic symptoms) there is life for everyone.

Hang in.

Marcy

Mikki,

Post as often as you want - you obviously need the support at this moment and thats what we're all here for, to give support. If its any consolation to you, I've never been so scared in my life. I dont understand what's hapening to my body or why I should feel this sick. Like you, Mikki, I have a lot of dizziness 1 or 2 days before my period, but compared to how I feel during and just after it, its quite bearable. I'm on day 14 of my cycle, I haven't been able to do much at all and I've spent most of my days in bed and just resting. I haven't been out of this house in 2 weeks. Can you believe that? I dread my period coming because I know I'm going to have a very hard time - I struggle so badly - day 14 I see improvement but its not until day 17 or 18 that I really start to feel better again and then it all starts over when my period arrives. I can't stand this anymore so I found a very good doctor who had put me on a detox diet to prepare me for hormone replacemen therapy. She thinks my thyroid needs some support and she wants me to try a bit of progesterone cream once the thyroid is sorted out. I am sick of feeling this sinking feeling, this feeling of passing out when I'm having my period - and its not through heavy bleeding. I really sympathise with the dizziness - its a fairly new symptom for me thats become progressively worse over the months. I need to do something - I have to go the HRT route but I'm going to take bios - I cant live like this anymore - so I chose to do something about it - I dont care about the risks, I want to live my life and not exist just day to day, struggling, worrying, second guessing all the time and being scared.

My heart goes out to you - I dont know how old you are or if you're taking anything but my advice - dont suffer! See your doctor and ask him to help you.

We're here if you need us! Keep your sweet head up-

((hugs))

Gez~

Hi i'm new on this board, but boy oh boy i know exactly what u are talking about, that's why i think i'm the queen . i have been thru pure hell, nothing can compare to the difficulties i had been. I'm 53 and feeling 991/2 years old. I always check this board, but never took the time to put my complaints. My worst trouble is with my hypoglicemia, some times drop soo fast, that make think i'm dying. But in general of the 34 symptoms i have 68 or more Fell sorry for my mother, she didn't have this tecnology like us and find that she wasn't the only one. She whent thru a lot for almost 3 years in and out of the psychiatry hospital, electrical shot on her head , insomnia, tiers and more tiers, and nobody to talk to and her doc telling everything was on her head. But well now is my turn, the sad part of this is that my mother doesn't like to talk about it , no even to me. so you are my consolation, thank to all of you and to Dearest for the best wonderfull board. Forgot i have 2 kids and the most lovely 4 grand kids , and a wonderful husband.

HAPPY HOLLIDAY

menoqueen

Thanks ladies for the support...roundrobin sorry about your thyroid troubles, I don't exactly know what nodules means for the thyroid but can understand your being upset.

Marcy I will search for your story as I have not read it yet.

Gez I am 40 and was given BHRT a year ago this Dec. after hormone tests came back "normal" estrodiol 32 progesterone 1.4 and FSH 18. My husband brought me my books from Dr. vliet and these levels are not even on her chart of levels that we feel well with. I didn't take the BHRT since things just started to go really bad, I mean they were bad before but I was still functioning somewhat. I thought I would just ride it out it must level off at some point and thought if I really paid attn to my diet and vitamins surely that would help?? Not...I can't imagine what makes this dizzy thing so bad...I just got up from resting and here we go again. It comes and goes throughout the day. I can't count day 14 or 17 as my cycle is so messed up, I get these feelings any time now. It just all has blended together. I think I am just a couple days a away from a period, but at this point I wold not be suprised if I were wrong as it comes whenever now.

I struggle with agoraphobia now and I go out for a drive every morning just to avoid becoming housebound. We go no where special, just get out. My husband drives since my dizziness has suprised me too many times behind the wheel.

I have really never had headaches before...I am baffled as to how I am getting them almost daily now for the past 2 or so months and they last and last.

Menoqueen welcome, as you see when you are feeling bad we can come on and others help lift us up. My mom apparently didn't have a meno. like me she says she doesn't remember it being this bad, however I remember differently. I would see her have panic attacks because her heart would wig out for no reason, she didn't like to be alone, and many other things. She was almosy parinoid about things like for example does anyone remember skylab...she had pictures of it in our house and was certain it was falling on her when it came down.

I am going to try to go make dinner so thanks again. Mikki

Hi Mikki,
Sorry, I haven't caught up with e mails yet, but I wanted you to know that I'm going through the same thing and it is so scary. I had to leave work today because of the dizziness. Do you have pressure in your head and ears with the dizziness? I had to take an ativan today because I was starting to really freak out, thinking I was having a stroke or something. It comes and goes throughout the day. I've been dizzy pretty much most of today. I am at my wits end too. I am so darn sick of this. I just wish there were a Dr. around here who gets it and could help me. I've been in melt down mode for a couple of weeks now. I think some of mine might be allergy related, but am just not sure. I hope your Dr. can help, and I hope the BHRT helps. When do you start? You'll ahve to keep me posted. I tried the estradiol patch, but felt it made me worse so stopped. But I also have Dr. Vliets books and when I had blood tests done my estradiol was low. Maybe it just wasn't the right form of estradiol for me. That's why I wish I had an experienced Dr. that knew what combinations I need. Anyway, good luck, I really hope you feel better. I'm here if you need to vent.
God Bless,
Faith

Hey Mikki, don't worry about posting too much, heck I ain't been on here that long, and yea only what 30 something post, but like you I feel like I post too much. Heck what's it been a week..... I hear ya sister, at least we all have each other.....