Sorry this turned out to be so long...............
Hi everyone... This is my first post and I'm not even sure I am posting this in the correct discussion so correct me if I'm in the wrong place.
I can honestly say my hormones have been unbalanced my entire teen/adult life. I've always been moody and on an emotional rollercoaster. Married my high school sweetheart right out of high school at 18 and had our first child at 19. Pre pregnancy weight I was 115 and during that pregnancy I gained 50+ pounds. Through my marriage we had 3 children and despite what everyone else thought I had no sex drive. I guess if you have children people assume you have a normal sex life but I can prove it only takes sex one time in the month to get pregnant. I have tried to explain to my ex that my lack of sex drive wasn't his fault because I actually feel I have never in my life had a sex drive. It was always something I could go without but my ex on the other hand had a high sex drive...Not a good combination. Back then my hormones were really out of control and I directed my anger and frustration on my husband. Eventually I convinced myself my lack of sex drive wasn't only my fault and since I married the only man I had sex with my imagination got the best of me. I truly thought the grass was greener else where but unfortunately I learned that lesson the hard way.... I cheated one time on my husband and found myself pregnant...The second time it was a one time thing...I then realized my sex life wasn't so bad after all. Cheating once would have in it's self taught me never to do it again because it was the worst sexual experience I've ever had all 60 seconds of it. At that time in my life I felt I had made my bed so I had to lye in it so I divorced my husband of 7 years to be with the last man on the planet I wanted to be with. He and I eventually became best friends but never should have gotten married. I only wish I could see things as clearly as I can see them now and I may not have made some of the decisions I made all those years ago. I think I was so unhappy with my life I concentrated on the only good things and that was being a Mom to my 4 children at the time. Being pregnant I was always happy because I had something to look forward to...How could you be sad when you were going to be given such a wonderful gift as a child. When my 4th child was about a year old I got pregnant and had a miscarriage...The first for me and for some crazy reason I felt I just had to have another baby. My only daughter was born second and I always wanted to have another girl. I think that drove me to keep having children with a man I wasn't supposed to be with in the first place. Now I see it as denial and believe I just wasn't in the correct state of mind to make decisions like having more children. Never the less I did have another son with this man. At that time I had 4 boys and one girl. After I had my fourth child I decided to go to my doctor for help. I was severely over weight, depressed, had 0 sex drive like always and had no energy. One of my children had ADHD and I had been doing research to figure out what it was exactly I was giving my child when I came across the side effects if a person was to take this medication and didn't have ADHD. It would be pretty much speed and I thought it might give me the energy I was needing or at least a temporary fix. When I went to my doctor I told him that I was over weight, I hated my husband, and had no energy. I then requested to be put on the same medication my son was on for my lack of energy. I left with a prescription for the medication to give me the energy I desperately needed and an antidepressant. I know my life took a drastic change for the better. I lost 90 pound over about a 12 month period and my brain fog if that's what you can call it cleared up. I was able to see my mistakes learn from them and for the first time ever in my adult life I took charge. I left my husband and on best friend terms unlike the first time around. He was very hurt of course but I let him come over to visit us on a daily basis until he felt better. My goal was not to emotionally destroy this man that had never been anything but a great man to me and my children. He and I still to this day and good friends and he is a wonderful Father to his two boys. At that point I felt great and I did compared to where I was two years before that. I was on my own and it felt wonderful. That was when I actually had a sex drive... I think it was because I had only been with 2 men I felt free to go out there and see what the world of men had to offer. It ended up being a very positive time in my life and I met a man that I wanted to be with for no other reason than because I wanted to be with him... It was the very different than any relationship I had before. I even had the best sexual relationship, I believe it had a lot to do with the emotional connection. He was 8 years younger than me and this was his first marriage and he didn't have any children. After about a year of marriage I agreed we would have one child together. I didn't think it would happen within the first 6 months of trying. I had planned this one after doing all my research on how to have a girl.... All the vitamins and sexual positions didn't help because I had yet another boy. Now that my children are older I thank God I only have one girl and very thankful that I have her... She's great but expensive... Cheerleaders!! LOL Ok well my story it getting way too long so I better get to the point. After my last pregnancy a lot changed...I can't really put my finger on exactly what but I wasn't feeling the same. I haven't felt the same since he was born and he is 3 years old. My sex drive has almost totally gone away and the only way we have kept it going is because we make sure we continue doing it... If I stop then I will feel I can go forever without it and as it is now I love feeling close to him. When I made the decision to just do it I figured out that was helping to bring back the feelings. As crazy as this sounds when I make my husband happy sexually it comes back to me positively in all areas of our relationship. When I was married before I felt like he doesn't make me happy so I sure as hell am not going to make him happy...That makes for some really unhappy people. I feel someone has to step up and be the bigger person because not so long ago my current relationship was going down hill because we weren't having sex and it started to destroy my relationship. I then started to test him to see when he was really grumpy if I had sex with him the next morning he would wake up feeling on top of the world. Making the one you love happy really can in turn make you happy. I have been working with my current doctor which is great and always willing to do the things I ask him if we can try. I explained to him that I had always had hormone issues and no one ever tried to figure out what was going on. They only put a band aid on it...I think the antidepressant I have been on for the last 8 years and the speed like medication that has helped me greatly is just covering up the underlying issues that need to be corrected. When I has this discussion with my doctor I was on Yasmine birth control pills. He suggested I get off them for him to be able to help me with my hormone problems. I then decided to get my tubes tied after being on the birth control pills for 2 years. When I went off the birth control pills everything got worse. I gained like 9 pounds in one month and I has not gained a single pound since I lost my 90. After loosing that much weigh you are always on high alert when it comes to gaining a single pound. He checked my thyroid and it came back 5.384. Despite him telling me it was in normal range I asked him to please put me on Armour thyroid. Before he put me on the Armour I wasn't sleeping at all, I would just toss and turn. My hair has been shedding for 3 years now and that really concerns me. I almost had too much hair in high school so I could stand to lose some. Even now I have plenty of hair but it scares me because I lose so many hairs in one day at this rate I'm going to run out. After the thyroid medication the hair didn't stop falling out. I am sleeping a little better but still far from what I need to be healthy. Lat month I had my doctor run my Free T3, Free T4, TSH, testosterone, progesterone, and estradiol. He wasn't happy with the TSH because it is suppressed to 0.076 but from what I have read he should know Armour would suppress my TSH. He wants me to lower my does of Armour but after my research I figured out on 90mcg of Armour I am not getting enough T4 and I am getting too much T3. Currently I am only getting 54mcg of T4 when I should be getting a mcg per pound of body weight. Therefore I need about 100mcg more not less. I don't want him to lower the dose to make me feel worse when I was just feeling a little better.
On top of the fact from what the nurse on the phone told me about my other hormone tests he seems happy with them being in range. I think this is another case like with the TSH that just because it is within range doesn't mean it is good. I think I need to be put on natural progesterone cream because I think my progesterone is low. I will put my test results below... I would greatly appreciate any feedback because my doctor will do what I ask of him...At least he will let me try something if I suggest it unless he feels it is totally out of the question....
Thank you so much for all of your help...
TSH: 0.076 (0.35-5.50)
Free T3: 4.3 (2.3-4.2)
Free T4: 1.1 (0.8-1.8) (never changed after being on Armour should it have changed?)
Testosterone:44 (14-76) (was 77 when on Yasime)
Progesterone: 7.5ng/ml (luteal phase 3-20ng/ml) It was 4 days after blood test when period started
Estradiol: 86pg/ml (50-241pg/ml
Thanks again!!
