Hi,
Just curious I have had pain in my side when I ovulate since my 20's every mo. The past few mo. I had noticed I didn't get this pain as usual and my periods started getting closer together. When I have ovulated like now My symptoms are horrendous. I get all the typical peri symptoms, but they seem ten fold. My ovulation instead of coming on day 14 it is coming directly after my period like the next day whether it be 4 days long or 10 days long. A couple of times I was still spotting lets say on day 5 or 6 and I ovulated isn't that a bit early? I know hormones are at a low days 1-6, so how do I manage to ovulate at this time when hormones reach a peak during ovulation. I am just trying to regulate my body with progest and phytoestrogen creams and don't know what I am doing.

I was prescribed bio's last week and can't seem to pull the trigger on that one...am scared that it will have the same side effects as birth control pills.

I just wanted to say thanks to all of you here who have listened to me go on and on about many things lately. I don't know any of you, but feel as if we are all friends . this has been a safe place to fall through this time, I look forward to the day where I can do some of the helping. This time is not just about symptoms as I am learning, you begin to evaluate everything about your life. Who you are, where you are and what you want to do the rest of your life. I never thought I would turn philisophical( now I know the spelling on that one is wrong) at 39. I just don't feel content right now and everything I thought I would be doing seems to be changing rapidly, like I'm being forced to evaluate who I am and my future. The big one being I have a cleaning business, or had, may be the more appropriate word. All this started happening and I suddenly have difficulty working and basically am not working. Now in the past few yr's I have been thinking cleaning is not something I want to do in my twighlight years..., but it is where I am most comfortable and stepping out of that is difficult. I have been thinking of other options for awhile, but again too much comfort and fear of something new can keep you stuck. I have talents as we all do and would love to use them for a career, but never had the self confidence to do anything about it, suddenly I have this overwhelming need to explore it. I draw and paint so much so that family and friends want pictures that i've done for christmas and so forth. I am still lacking in the confidence department, but my husband said it is about time you do something with that. I have so many ideas on what to do with this, but am afraid to fail I guess. I am going to try somethings seeing as I have alot of time on my hands lately and have had afew things seemimgly fall into place for this new option.

I wonder if if I am having difficulty with aging also. I mean I was thinking women in their 40's get pregnant and I am 39 and was told last week , while showing me a fertility chart, my days are done in that department according to my blood work. Not that I want more children...I have 2 one turning 18 next mo. Anyway just thoughts I have been having and sometimes this place is like journaling ot me soooo.... there it is Thanks all Mikki

Hi I know exactly how you feel, I am just 39 and I have a son of 18 and one of 12
I thought I was to yooung to be going through any of this, and i must confess i thought a few hot flushes and missed periods and I would be done how wrong was I,

I like to draw and paint i have reached for them a few times at the begining of this a few months ago, it helped me relax, I have no confidence in myself, either, i havent since i was young, i think so many people told me what to do and most importantly the things i did wrong I was always afraid of failing like yourself its held me back alot in my life, even gave me agoraphobia lack of confidence, i thought people would judge me, everyone else seemed to so i stayed in.

Peri has given me something else to think about, so a small silver lining there, once the mood swings and the rest of it kicks in you will not care less what people think anymore. yu will be to engrossed in getting through this without worrying how others judge you believe me, which is good,
i promise you.

My advice is you are not long in this life you do it, you try everything and so what if things dont always go the way you hoped be proud of yourself for trying, dont go to your grave full of regrets and if onlys, it will be to late then to change anything.

The past 4/5 months I have had so many changes with my body i dont recognise me anymore, once i feel a little less lightheaded and a bit more normal i am getting out there and starting to live my life properly, i am not going to waste anymore time, believe me i have wasted years, with agoraphobia in some ways i feel lucky when i read some of the posts on here, i dont fear anxiety i have lived with it since I was eighteen. so whats new,
You take care and try whatever you want to, I am sure you will do just fine at it. x

Just wanted to add i had the mid month symptoms i used to call them when i ovualted, i got sore boobs and stomach cramps, since last november i have had nothing, like it, now a few days before my periods i wake in the night with cramps. then come on a few days later strange.
I used to come on say the 2nd of the month and go right round until that time within a day next month, now i dont I have periods sometimes twice a month, my body has gone mad at the moment, but i am not alone i only have to read the posts on here to see that.

Hello you two...

seems like we all agree, this is indeed the time of change. I suppose that's why its called "The Change" Personally, I think it should be called "Having the Rug Pulled Out From Under You"

Ok, about that pain, I also had it. In my case, it occurred as the egg was being released. It was so sharp that if I didn't get to the medicine cabinet in time, I could't get there at all. I just collapsed and sweated. I know a number of women who had mid cycle pain, for a variety of reasons. The Germans call this mittelschmerz.

What I can tell you is this: My doctor put me on BHRT, a patch for estrogen (I'm taking a tablet now) and 100 mg prometrium (that bio-identical progesteron) every single day. I do not have a period and I do not have mid-cycle pain. Hope that helps, and listen the two of you: We'd all love a peep at your artwork, if that can be arranged.

Cheers!

I have been agoraphobic since I started this peri thing..it started slowly as symptoms started. I was able to at least venture out until a few mo. ago now I just want to sit around, I used to say I have good days and bad days now that has gone to good hr's and bad hr's. Daily is a challenge. I felt ok this morning and got my hopes up and by noonish palp's started, I'm dizzy, tired, ears plug up, I feel stuffy and just want to lay down anxiety goes through the roof when I get like this wondering if I will go down. Wondering if it is all that is wronf with me...seems like some severe symptoms for just hormones...none of my friends are affected like this.

The pain goes on for about 4-5 days lately seems kinda long. yes I know the pain has been pretty severe sometimes to where I can't sit , go to the bathroom, cough.

I am not sure how I would get some of the stuff I have done on-line here and most of it I don't have it went out as gifts, but I am planning on trying to come up with a few items in the next couple of weeks and sell them. Maybe start a store on ebay and if that goes well I will try to go and market my work, It will be more Christian based . Should be interesting...it will give me something else to think about while I feel so bad...I hope anyway sometimes it is hard to concentrate like this. so we'll see how it all goes. Thanks and big hugs Mikki