I have been battling with every symptom you can imagine for 6 months now. Every single day is a struggle from extreme fatigue, to severe aches, pains, blurry vision, headaches, rashes, ovarian pain every day, heavy legs, etc.

Does anyone else not get a break? I had blood work done and estrogen was extremely low. Dr. is running more blood work again including lupus/rheumatoid and ultrasound and put me on progesterone in the meantime.

I cannot imagine that anyone could live like this. It's just not meant to be.

Springsjean, I feel like you do. Never a break. The day's a struggle, the night's a struggle. I'm afraid of going to bed. I hate getting out of bed in the morning. I can't think straight. I"m also driving my husband crazy.

He's wonderful. But he hasn't no idea what's going on in me. Literally all hell's broken loose.

How I miss the love I used to feel.

When is enough enough?

Since insulin resistance is common among us, perhaps a diabetes check would be in order. I did it and guess what, most of the symptoms you described also put me in the "syndrome x" category.

I could have written your post! Every single day is a struggle. I too HATE going to bed as I never know what the morning will bring. With thryoid disease preceeding all this, I have not had a break for 7 years....yet I keep hoping...what keeps me going I will never know!!!!!!!!

I am on my second cycle of low dose BCP to try to help me. First cycle I had BCP adjustment side effects IN ADDITION to my usual symptoms. This cycle I am more adjusted but I STILL have my usual symptoms...is this helping me? WILL it help me if I hang in there for another month? THIS PERI REALLY< REALLY< REALLY is the PITSSSSSSSSSS. Joan

REALLY! Did you in fact test positive for diabetes and what is syndrome X? Thanks alot. I'll take any advice I can get.

Insulin resistant. I am being tested for that. In the meantime, I have given up anything with simple sugars. I wake up in the middle of the night with what I can only describe as a panic attack, with the increased heart beat, feeling very anxious and an immense amount of effort to slow down my breathing. Sometimes I get weak legged or my forearms ache (as if I lifted an enormous amount of weights). In a matter of a few weeks I have turned into a neurotic woman, afraid to go to bed at night, fearing the worst. My hormone levels were done as was my thyroid panel. Don't know the results. Also had a CPK done, though I don't know what that is. There you have it.

Sybille how is your doctor treating your insulin resistant? My endocrinologist I don't think believe in insulin resistant, he said there is no treatment. I had to give up sugar because of my low blood sugar (hypoglycemic) attacks. At least he believe I have those since one day in my gp office I got so weak my doctor had to go get a piece of candy. Every female on my Moms side of the family has had diabetic's by age 50. So far I do not have it but I feel hypoglycemic attacks are prelude to diabetes...

And you are right. I am hypoglycemic and feel I need to eat "constantly." By doing so, I wasn't letting the insulin take care of the sugars and so forth. Right now, diet and exercise. Eating every three hours. My blood sugar when tested first thing in the morning is 135, a bit high. Eating every three hours keeps it on an even keel and I don't get those wide lows and highs.

I sometimes wonder if my blood sugar spikes towards morning, causing the anxiety/heart racing symptoms. There is a name for it and one doctor said to eat very lightly for dinner and exercise. I think anxiety contributes greatly to a rise in blood sugar. As does illnesses. Which can create anxiety unto itself.

So...I make sure each meal and snack starts off with a protein bite in my mouth first and then carbohydrate in the form of vegetables and 1/2 cup fruit. That's it. Seems to keep me on an even keel. If not, I spike and my legs will feel "weak" though I am able to get off the chair with just the use of my legs. So "jelly" really doesn't seem to apply. But then one can't help thinking the worst and I am excellent in that department.

I am five years post and thought all of this should be done. IT'S NOT! Talked to my mother. She is 83 and still has symptoms of anxiety in the early morning hours, waking her up from sleep. She is almost 30 years post. That seems so unfair.

Hang in there - just take "one day at a time." Me? One minute at a time. Changes constantly.